tRasH.=)

2004-08-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

right. so it was chinese today. was pretty worried. because jade studied the [ci yu shou ce] which i obviously didnt. i only read the notes i had. and i read hard. [= and so it was the big moment. haha. and i just did my exam. and it went pretty well. i hope i dun pin that high hopes. because if i fall. i bet its gonna hurt. a lot. haha. and well. i know most of the tian xie han zhi. and i enjoyed the lil' moments with my dad when i learnt them. (: haha. and did the stuff with a clear head. so it was all good. hopefully. and yah. miss ong didnt have time to teach so she chucked us with some O' level paper. aww. and i think it was chinese. did this writing letter thing. and xinyi gave me her letter. and i was dazzled. [Oliver James] was on the front cover. and im gonna treasure it like my computer! haha. it was awesome. i was starring it all day long. whee. and i did the chinese. collected. and i bought food. chenyaan accompanied me. and jade was doing her stuff at the computer lab. we went to the swing for a lil' while. and um. walked around. and den it was science. chenyaan got locked up in the aircon room and she was kinda bullied. so she cried a lil' i think. went to the lab although practical was cancelled. so i tried and concentrate to listen. but apparently. i was busy finding a tutor yah? anyone interested. i would pay you! haha. please. i need some help. and i kinda listened. (: and im quite pleased with myself. and after that was math. math was such a bore. although i love math. because. haha. shant tell. (: its a secret. and guanzhong has this problem with his leg. he has to kick my bag when he goes out. thats pure evil. and i did my math stuff yah?

and it was lunch. chenyaan wanted to spend her lunch in the air-con room. and im like [nono.] you know what im saying. so i kinda refused. and i went back to class and did my homework. jade came after me too. did math homework. and den it was literature. i haven read chapter 3 yet! argh. so i dun quite get the whole idea. but i get the rough picture. and history. went to the room. with air-con. haha. i sat under the table. there was a fan! haha. wasnt watching. it does not interest me. unless. its [What A Girl Wants] haha. (: or [Just Married] haha. whee. haha. okay. after school. walked home with ashnita. peirong and fanny. haha. and slept.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

just had swimming. it was tough. honestly speaking. i was such a wussy there in the pool. and now i feel so ashamed of myself. it started with us to wear the swimming pyjamas. apparently. mine looked like it belonged to an old mans'. you get me? one of their priced possessions? /: seems like my shoutbox is tiding through its tough times yah? seriously. do i make everything sound its worse? and i swam like i never did before. it was so uncomfortable. a couple of years i haven been swimming with my pyjamas on. old memories rushed to my head. yah. as if. i was tired out. feeling pretty numb. wahahhahahaha. im weak eh. not cool. and my pants kept dropping for one. and for two. the lanes we have a like 3 in 2 lanes. so squeezy. haha. i kept pulling my pants and hesistated for a while. (: and after that. we did the keep afloat thing. haha. and den hafta take out our pyjamas in the water. you see. its one of the procedures. and i took off and throw. woah-ho. i throw pretty well eh. (: whee. and um. we had to tie our pants and um. blow them. so they become floats? (: haha. and the air contained in my pants were like rushing out and it was finally deflated. was complaining and wondering. couldnt really swim with deflated trunks yah? /: and floated for a while more. and den did the swim. across the pool. the long side. i deduce that it all would be bad. and tadah. my predictions are spot on. (: clever eh. 4 backstrokes. 4 sidestrokes. and 8 frog-style. for god's sake. its the long one. and i am like. [are u serious?] i was struggling with back-stroke. didnt exactly understood how it worked i reckon. and i lagged 2 laps behind the others. and the others were like um. primary 5? it was absolute embarrassment. aww. and yeah. after that. went to play in the wave pool. haha. whee. and back here.

__can i be an emu?
___pretty please?

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-14T11:26:00.000+08:00

yesterday was Friday the 13th. everything sure went wrong. i failed my science test. due to my forgetfulness. i forgot to hand in my geography wb. resulting in me. having to write a letter to my teacher. the second one now. /: and ACC test. we were sharing notes and then. got caught. no exactly. no explanations needed i suppose. wouldnt like to talk abt it anyway. today is a fresh new start. that's how i want it to be. at least. (: have to start on studying. i read a lil' of I am David to get things started. and um. i did a lil' math homework to add on too. (: I am sleeping alot recently. i better do well in my studies. cant possibly sit there and watch pple just surpass me. oh come on'. i aint so laid back yah? got to pull up my socks. (: banana man is really funny by the way. haha. maybe i am starting to have a bad feeling abt stuff. as in really bad. dun like it anyway. screwed up life. how am i gonna continue. i sure have support i do. but i cant help thinking that my life is all screwed up. and i hate to go on. proceeding. to continue with such mess. and worse-- to fall even deeper. i dun need anyone's help i reckon. its all about me. i screwed my life up. i make it back where it was. without whines. complains and stuff. but that is simply me. i screw stuff up. jinx. perhaps? or is it just some. unkown curse? im making it sound bad. my point is. im screwed and i dun like it. (: simple. very.

-pouts. i dun like this feeling either. when will i learn. and stop complaining in my blog. its like. so dumb. i am just talking to myself. i am just like aimlessly waiting. for a miracle of some sort. its so dumb. /: gotta talk some sense into myself. if i fail any more tests OR exams. im gonna commit suicide. except for the physics one. cause i would confirm fail that. have to tell my parents i cannot manage my science. need some tutors. who can help anybody? contact me yah? (: i can afford failing my subjects. i dun like the feeling. i dun like to feel apparently. aww. i deserve all of this. for extreme slacking. thank you alot. i am now motivated to go all the way for all i want. whee. im positive. (: that is a good thing. seriously. before i forget. thank you Jade for the nasi lemak. i needed it alot. thanks for cheering me up. i didnt know why i smiled so much after i failed my test. maybe im trying to hide my grieve. maybe im trying to cover up for everything. everything that is crashin down on me this instant.

__take care ya'll.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-12T20:14:00.000+08:00

ahhh. i keep screwing my life up. wads with me?! aww. cant help me though. i am obsessed with Oliver James. could i get even worse? guess not. hope not. whee. pretty not good when it all summed up today. just like totally let my emotions run free the wrong direction. you know what im saying. just like rahh. i went. and start throwing tantrums at people. haha. and kah jun was the lucky victim. but i wouldnt apologise. i have been thinking. and its not exactly my fault. he keeps taking my stuff. and throw them around. and it is getting pretty annoying right now. not only he insults me. my looks and dah dah dah. he doesnt show respect. its absurb people. Baiba! but im pretty bad too eh. haha. i threw my box at him. and he threw back. i screamed at him. and asked him what did i do to offend him. he replied my face. wtf. fuck off dude. i have no good feeling about this. im getting pretty xiaoqi now. i need to awake. holy water anyone? i need some. aww. anyways. my dad's screaming marked a beginning of 12th August 2oo4. good or bad. it all awaits. haha. now its like halfway thru. nearly to three quarters. its going more to the bad side. (: but im still glad. i got my computer back at least! did i mention it. whee. finally reunited with my love. (: haha. woke up. did my daily [routine] yah. did more stuff. and went to school. sang my stuff. said my stuff. and tadah. the woman. ladies. females get this really special talk. the guys who are itching to find out. nahh. shant say. secrets are really exciting. (:

im obsessed with Oliver James. whee. im melting. haha. anyways. literature began. didnt like the curry flavoured teacher. with the previous teacher. we will go far. i see a dark passage lying in front of me with this one. fine. im exaggerating. and i am pretty mean. im an ogre. rahh. kill me. and math was after that. trigonometry i suppose. not so bad after all. math is challenging i assume. (: assumption. lies. dah dah. (: haha. and it was recess. i ate my [squiggle] jade didnt want to come down. so i played badminton with zhen ning and qizhi. since chenyaan and lusandra likes to play 1v1 against one another. ): aww. and chinese was following up. unsure what we did. was busily on other stuff. and history. we were playing games. we had this not to laugh game. and a not to blink one to add on. dun like the people persisting on the bad incident of pressure. no good feelings. english. we did stuff. dun recall. whee. lunch. more badminton! i played with Jade. haha. and den doubles with zhenning and qizhi. and it was geography. i listened. whee. and it was pretty interesting. mr. yeo is a fun guy. and music. was such a bore. aww. and miss yeo had this hole on her shirt. haha. and went straight home after the quarrel. was wondering. thinking and stuff. Baiba. im hanging myself tomorrow. see ya'll. anyways. my mum was exceptionally sweet to buy me this shirt. haha. and did i mention i was obsessed with Oliver James?

__my mind's all screwed and upside down
___my heart's on overdrive.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

it has been forever since i blogged. forever is 3 days. wow. record-holder. 3 days without the computer and im still breathing. wow. self-control sure works out. (: whee. yesterday was at ryan's. no. dun think otherwise. it was his birthday. and we were there to celebrate his 14th birthday. or I'd say. to eat up all his food. (: whee. and i was asking chenyaan to go with me. because i really wanted to take a good look at his house. so we met up at 1o3o at redhill station. and den went bugis to buy ryan a present. it is not at all nice to go empty-handed. so we bought him a converse wallet. since he seemed like a pretty nice person. (: whee. and den we met at the bus-stop at Aljunied. haha. and i bought this white chocolate drink. it is nice. (: haha. but i got sick after a couple of gulps. and met up with ryan and his friend. dj. (: dao jun that is. and haiming. he popped out all of a sudden. and took 158. walked a lil. and reached. his house is so pretty. haha. and nice. its a condo. wahahahahahaha. and his sister. rocio. nice name huh? like it! haha. he has this really really black and fat chinchilla. dats wad it is right? haha. and his sister is really pretty. just like his mother. (: and we watched liu xing hua yuan a lil' and den i watched [What A Girl Wants] and i am in lan Wallace. that is, Oliver James. woah. he is real hot. really really. (: and i was obsessed with the movie.

and we played with ryan's cousin. Cybil. and the two lil' brothers. rocio. and um. her friend. named. cecillia i suppose. haha. we played hide and seek. haha. and played. and den we went to the park. was playing sing. and chenyaan got her pants all dirty. and i was playing with other lil' toys. haha. and after that. we went to help out on the roof. haha. so fun. and den we had the reall party. now we know more pple. mambo. mr. pro. jeremy. dat cheena guy with an american accent. haha. and after that. it was night time. i was looking at the fireworks. i looked at it since i was young. every night. every national day night. i was staring at it. it was beautiful. do i sound like david? haha. but it really was. it was just awesome to stand there and look. it was gorgeous. really really beautiful. so many thoughts just rushed into my brain. i was thinking. (: finally. and den i climbed up the roof. and mr. pro didnt there. i was pretty afraid. once i reached the top. and i really must thank jeremy for calming me down. he sounded so alike. (: and after that i went down. without much fear. haha. and played [Kingdom Hearts] a lil'. had some cake. thanks mambo for giving it to me. and went down to watch Singapore Idol. haha. it was really funny. the lemon tree guy was hhilarious. and mambo gave me a bubble gum. and i was blwing it. so fun. haha. and den we went home. and stuff. took really long. (: had a fun day. tada. im done. really like Oliver James now. whee. wanna go watch [Raise your voice]. (: take care ya'll. chill.

[__yanl!n9]

2004-08-07T11:12:00.000+08:00

haha. haven been blogging for quite some time. (: haha. couldnt use the computer. or i got it confiscated i shld put it. took troubles to come all the way to xianzu's house just to blog. wow. haha. i need to remind myself later in life how i actually am. (: haha. i paid the cost. wun go swimming today. fancy skipping my second lesson. /: yesterday. was national day celebration. initially. i wore a red shirt. haha. and i brought another for chenyaan. she said she wanted. For being so nice. i actually brought it. (: haha. and i went to schoolthinking. wtf. im wearing red. and i had the urge to go change out. and i realised jade and chenyaan had been hanging around. didnt see them. so i went with the nb girls. and i was like. [i wanna change out] but i didnt. haha. and afterwards. met jade. she didnt wear. so i went to change out. haha. and asked her to accompany me. but she just refused. so i ran there myself. haha. felt much better after i haf changed out. at least not liek a fool. chenyaan was at choir. so i was like. wtf. my shirt ehh? haha. but in teh end. realised she wanted to change out of her choir shirt to the red shirt. forget the whole thing. im not a xiaoqi person. and den changes Psi-ops. for LOTR: the two towers? haha. dats so mean. forget it. im not xiaoqi. haha. stress my point. and den went up to the hall. whee. okay. they had this prize-giving ceremony. ahh. the queue was as long as. um. rapenzul's hair! ahh. and wait wait. haha. and jade made me sit with paxson. dats so bad. and im like. wtf? okay. haha. i am not xiaoqi. yah? haha. so not angry. (: -smiles. haha. and had the cheer competition and all. was asking them to go out with me later. haha. and they were like. okay. so later i sat in the middle. cause they shifted mah. partly because the guy was kciking me from behind. but i didnt want to sit with paxson either. and chenyaan was like. go back to your place. and im like. no. i dunwan. haha. (: i am selfish. haha. and den after that. jade whacked me at my back. woah. hard. but not so pain lah. think i xiguan liao. shocked a lil' only. haha. so she started apologising. haha. and im like nvm. haha. and she wun listen. and kept apologising. so i was like nvm nvm. haha. and den she was like. im so sorry. and im like. NVM! haha. and see. im not xiaoqi. haha. and den. we sang [home] haha. and was swaying together. haha. and singing. so Funky. (: -smiles. and den. walked to clementi. (: whee. haha. and was deciding where to go? in the end they decided to go to watch [The Village] i might offend here. and im like wtf. no. i dunwan to. haha. and they went. without me. pretty sad actually. but it was purely on my own decision to walk back. and go for netball. i was prepared to skip netball to go out with 'em. and was pretty sad. but im not xiaoqi. haha. (: so i walked back. haha.

and went for netball. no big reactions that i went back. haha. aww. and ate some weird jelly. not gonna buy it anymore. haha. saw Gavin and Aaron. was wondering. didnt they go LAN? haha. and aaron didnt go watch [the village] with jiaqian. was pretty surprised. haha. (: and. he asked me where GuanZhong went. and i became more confused. haha. so weird. and den went with netball girls to King Albert Park MacDonalds yah? haha. and den took 151 to Jade's house outside. actually wanted to go in and see if she is at home. realised she went out. haha. im mad. (: haha. and den went to eat. haha. sat with MunTing. Xinyi. YiQi. ZiQIn. Canida. haha. crapped alot. and ate alot. haha. ate the 4 pple meal. cost only 5 bucks. haha. and had so much stuff. i had the McSpicy Double. haha. and fries. and more nuggets. haha. and was crapping with Xinyi alot. haha. they were talking abt Shuai pple. and i had no interest. honestly. i didnt. haha. and Munting and YiQi left. who knows where they went. haha. and we staked up all out leftover stuff on the table. at MunTing's area. haha. was playing with it. haha. we are mad. seriously. we are. and the person came and cleared. and i was like [It wasnt me] haha. and den went for netball. was singing. haha. like accidentally in love. haha. was teasing MunTing like mad. haha. (: haha. and after that. was um. we headed to NanYang sec? haha. and had matches and all. was playing in the swing. haha. had this new sub coach i think. called MeiXin. nice personality. (: haha. and i played Centre in the last game. Because YiRong took Wing DEfence? haha. so sad. so i played centre. haha. no biggie. woah. it was so tough. ran around like siao. haha. had a few interceptions. but couldnt catch the ball. and i always gonna fall on the person. haha. lucky i got good balance. haha. think i did pretty badly though. take care ya'll. got stuff to do. cya. (:

__i dun need your sympathy
___i just need a lil' therapy

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

guilty. a word that describes it all. what happened? read on. (: morning i woke up. i knew all would turn ugly. a girl's intuition is mostly right. and im right. read on. haha. and den did everything. went to school. and den lined up. saw the netball girls and crapped. a lil'. and went back. haha. jade was there. and she was like [do i look tired?] haha. and i'm like you look normal. haha. she slept three hours? yeah. and den went upstairs. and did our article? No. we read the newspaper. and i felt bad already. was eating m&ms. haha. and den miss ong came in. her face being apple red. she is sick. really sick. and for our sake. she came. that's so sweet. but she should really rest. her tonsils are swollen and no doubt that hurts. alot. alot. and her whole face was red when she spoke. it was painful. and den it was P.E. had this obstacle race. and im really enthusiastic. it brought back childhood memories. remembered we used to play this every sunday at the playground. haha. and den need to have reperesentative. haha. the guys sent kok yao and dawei. and it was kok yao and me. i was faster. wahahahahahha. but i cheated. still very duilian. haha. and den it was um. project work. listen to 3 groups crap. and den recess. went to play badminton. haha.

yiting's racket is so smelly. but i said i wanna play so she lend me. and andre's one also. haha. so smelly. and went to wash with alot alot soap. haha. and den had the science test. and i was like. holy shit. wtf is this? wtf is that. omg. im gonna fail. and i was the last to hand in the script. and den they sprayed water at me. and i sprayed back and hit vivian's bag. i felt so helpless. so bad. everyone was blaming me. and im like. shit. wtf am i supposed to do? and den i broke down. i couldnt take it anymore. these few days i was feeling like shit. and many times. i wanted to cry. but i just held bakc the tears. it wasnt good to cry. i screamed at Gavin. i am so so so sorry. i scolded him a bastard. he was just joking. oh my gawd. and im so mean. and i threw stuff at him to add on. i felt so bad. so so so bad. and i sat down. and cried. ronnie told me to calm down. and i just couldnt. i felt like a crybaby. a big cry baby. i felt so dumb. and den the girls came. im like. in my heart lah. [fuck. please go away.] i dun need your sympathy. i just need a lil' therapy. haha. i need to calm down. i need to be alone. and den i scolded ronnie. for nothing. and i said. [wo hen tao yan ni] the pressure was overwhelming. and i could hardly think. and he looked so shocked. and i vent anger on him for nothing. and it wasnt his fault either. 2 innocent victims.

i ran to the toilet. and knocked down a few chairs on the way. i wanted to scream. i told jade and chenyaan i wanted to die. and continued crying in the toilet. they consoled me. it didnt really work. nobody knows what is in my head. it was made up of so many stuff. and i really could take no more. and i just kept crying. and den i calmed down. finally. and den went to art class. was smiling. and laughing. haha. and they were asking me what happened. kok yao. haha. and im like. i have no idea. and i felt so guilty throughout when im doing the art. i scolded TWO innocent pple for goodness sake. wad is wrong with me? and i felt so guilty. so so so so guilty. and i wanted like to beg for forgiveness. and upon thinking of stuff. i felt like crying again. i was afraid when i said sorry. i will cry. i didnt want to. again. i got scolded twice today. by mr. ng again. again. and den. after lesson. i was like i wanna apologise. and jade called gavin. i said [im sorry for calling you a bastard and throwing stuff at you] and den she called ronnie. and i said [im sorry for screaming at you] haha. i felt better but still guilty later on. i found out. and throughout the whole assembly. i was like. why am i so dumb. it recurred in my head. dun like myself. /: and i felt so guilty.

and den after school went to Jade's house. didnt want to lemme go at first. haha. tagged along. still felt guilty. im selfish. im wrong. haha. went her house. her house was Funky. had so many stuff. and smelled of nasi lemak. go on computer first. and did a lil' read lime. and i ate nuggets. (: haha. and fries. and played twister. holy. really fun. (: and den played scrabble deluxe with jade. haha. crap stuff. haha. and den played Superstar Chef. om my gawd. nice game. played with Jade and she kept stealing my lifes. so mean. and her family is really cool. and i watched [Friends] a lil' too. haha. and den chenyaan went home. while i stayed on till like. 7.45. haha. den played a while more superstar chef with jeff. he is quite good. and for one. he doesnt steal lifes. (: haha. and he is a ABSOLUTELY adorable guy. and watched [Friends] again. so funny. haha. and den played the computer for a while more and went back. haha. and jade was so nice to walk me to King ALbert Park. haha. (: so sweet yah? and um. she has a really nice family. haha. and jeff is so cute. justina too. (: wow. haha. and has alot of food and games. (: haha. take care ya'll. been hogging on for really long. cya. sorry.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

i could describe this entire day to be say [slack]? but it was true yah? imagine having six periods of free time. That amounts to 3 hours? Its quite alot yah? haha. (: but i dun mind (: aww. haha. i was pretty late. but chenyaan. jade and lusandra turned up even later. resulting in me with the other girls. alone. aww. and Mrs. Fong was standing beside me and singing so loudly. I was trying my best to control my laughter already. but it didnt really work? the 2o7 zahboh. HuiFen i think also sang very loud. and everybody commented on her later on. haha. i couldnt hear myself. but my voice is pretty low. unless i try to like go on the high notes? but it will turn ugly. haha. (: and they waited for me at the back and we went upstairs. crapping with 'em along the way. wahhahahahahha. (: and den. it was reading. i didnt like exactly do the worksheet. haha. i didnt understand. Its on the hair. stuff about the hair. (: no idea what. haha. i dun see a clear picture. haha. and den i wrote really lil' and ate Hello Panda. haha. and den. it was english. 2 free periods. crapped a lil' at first. and den played WeiQi. haha. borrowed from YangYi. actually was watching GuoPing and Kah Jun play. they not bad lah. den they played othello i think. and i forced them to lemme play one game. den GuanZhong came. haha. and they really cheated alot. GuoPing cheat one. i played with him. and Kah Jun help him cheat. den later im back on the track. den guoPing go smakc the table. sore loser eh. still blame it on me. haha. and den watch guanzhong and guoping play. haha. requires tactics and brains. haha.

and den it was chinese. was basically not listening the whole time. was replying my letter to Xinyi. haha. (: and i have creativity. whee. and den it was recess. went to pass XInyi the letter. and ate my biscuit. Jessie stole one. bad girl! haha. and den went to Library and played a proper game. haha. still need the dictionary. jade is really fussy yah? and chenyaan has alot of crap words. haha. [LOL]. haha. dats a word she put. haha. jade rejected it of cause. haha. and after that was science. we went to the practical lab. and guanzhong was sitting behind me. and guoping on his right. and kah jun on his left. and they took jade's stuff at first. and jade is really quick. and den they took my pencil box. and jade took it back. and den they took it again. im pretty dumb. and i think i annoyed chenyaan because i was squirming. and squiggling? sorry. /: den i exchanged places with jade. haha. den they gimme back my stuff. dats a good thing. and den it was math. rumoured the teacher didnt come. so we had Mr. Chia. oh my gawd. He made me laugh so hard that tears were forced out. haha. I was laughing like mad. and den it was lunch. went to eat chinese wok. haha. mine was 1.90. and i helped jade get hers. hers was at 1.50. haha. and den ate. and played scarbble. woah. the game was slow. and full of crap. aww. and den went up. was literature. copy stuff. and den free two periods.

forced to do the cheer thingy. haha. and we just slacked and did lah. haha. and chenyaan and i were like singing stuff. haha. and we just did the thing for the sake of doing. haha. it was so [dui lian] haha. really really duilian ehh. i already duilian-ed so many times for this class. drama and this. adding on with last year ones. i dun get what's next. aww. and den it was netball. haha. had this new drill. so Funky. haha. and did and do. haha. and done. and i was singing. [How Come] addictive yah? and [She will be loved] is so so so so addictive. haha. (: feel like getting Maroon 5's album. wanted it long ago. haha. and after that. trained with the secondary ones. haha. i was crapping with weixin. haha. abt badminton. my hand hurts now. and my leg has 3 blisters. containing water. now i need. um. to get rid of my mood swings yah. haha. take care ya'll. (:

BAIBA!

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

today was a big whoop. (: its crap all right. i got plenty of mood swings and im turning from bad to worse. i'm a monster. rahh. /: i may be suffering from depression for all you know. its bullshit yah?

i hate you
-ouch
i really really hate you
-ouch ouch-
Baiba! Go eat shit. (:

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

see. maybe life isnt as bad as i always assume when im low. (: haha. now i've got myself a [secret mystery midnight holy muchacha angel who guardians and guides me along.] tell me that is not cool. and i'll scream at your face. (: i mean it. so be careful. guess who is my [secret mystery midnight holy muchacha angel who guardians and guides me along.] haha. its xinyi. haha. Funky eh. recently. she has been really nice. and that is a good thing. (: whee. she is really sweet. and she makes it a point to cheer me up. and tell me that im not gay and stuff. but many times i tell her i like being gay. (: wow. haha. and she is really nice. seriously. and she likes to steal my [Hello Panda] just as much as i like to steal her food. and she really can contain her anger. (: haha. and she gets over-excited over lil' stuff. and she is obsessed with. ahem. (: sounds pretty cool huh? aww. enough about her. she is stealing my light. u know the light. get what i'm saying. (:

haha. whee. i've got a new philosophy. haha. see. i did make it a point to try and be sophistitated. but i dun see the point that is wrong abt not being. so. i decided not to. and i feel much much better after i wrote my hate note. u'll never guess who that note is for. and to keep people guessing. im not telling. (: and im pretty creative. haha. and for the record. i am xinyi's
[secret mystery midnight holy muchacha mortal who knows and understands her angel as well.] hey. im getting on good with this stuff. (: haha. whee. maybe someday. i can go um. become sophisticated yah? that would be so Funky. see my point. (: haha. suddenly im like so glad and happy. whee. haha. its a good thing. maybe i shld write more hate notes when im angry. and reading it makes me feel good. (: haha. how many people in the world actually write hate notes. (: well. im one. haha. I am unique. heard that somewhere. its from [I Robot] haha. take care ya'll. I'm getting ready to take on the World of Pain. according to Xianzu. tomorrow. (:

[__yanl!ng]

2004-08-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

didnt blog yesterday. no idea why. have been trying to get over stuff. anyways. thankew all. for cheering me on yah? u did help alot. (: haha. and jade thankew. u always haf alot of crap to cheer me up. (: but im still selfish. its just me. and perhaps i like it thsi way. (: haha. anyways. was playing [Playstation] for the whole day. pretty tired now. imagine starring at the screen for like almost the whole day. haha. (: and see. my point is [Tales of Destiny 2] is a really good game. (: shant elaborate. haha. and we played [Tomba 2] and wenwei is really really very pro. i cannot stand him! but too bad he has to go home and celebrate his dear brother's birthday. poor thing. ): aww. den yeah. stuff stuff. life goes on. reminds me of one of LeAnn Rimes' song. she is really pretty anyway. haha. (: see. i had my swimming lesson yesterday. (: haha. woah. i must say. i sucked pretty bad. i was pretty tired after a few rounds. im like wtf. how did i survive thru this shit? : haha. and im like abt the same as my brother. that is like a total [ no way] thing. i must prove myself to be like. hundred times better. because i believe i can. and im like gonna take my silver examination. and my sleeping thingy for swimming is like so gay. and not to mention ugly. -shrugs. wonder how i'll survive. : haha. anyways. take care ya'll. -smiles. life goes on yah? (: as royston said. cya.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

seen it all. all in a day. was it all. or was i just imagining it to be all. i couldnt have seen it all. perhaps i just saw stuff that i had never seen in my life before. its cruel. nasty. im fortunate i haven felt that way before. it must. it must have hurt. it seems really painful. why poke my nose into others' business. im nobody. /: it was pure cruelty. it was nobody's fault. intricate i might say. far far more than what it actually seems. suddenly. i have no mood to continue. everyone is feeling down. i did too. moments i felt like crying. but i didnt. (: i held it back. i was abt to break down. to break away for the harsh truth. i felt like a total bitch today. for the first time of my life. i felt bitchy. its the worse thing that can ever happen. i felt like so bad. i didnt want to know how i looked. take care ya'll. moodless. (:

___im still selfish.
____a bitch. a cold hard bitch.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

im selfish. this is gay. forget it. im gaving mood swings again. i think its some kind of virus. [b]rR- haha. had some complains about writing too long. but oh well. (: haha. today went to school. saw chenyaan. haha. den walked. cannot cut thru her brother and foyang. was laughing at her brother and [rensheng]. haha. den told her what happened. (: haha. den crap abit. den Jade came when Chenyaan talked abt Jingyen. haha. and den took anthemn and pledge. haha. saw the [EXIT] sign flashing. found it really creepy so told 'em. haha. (: and den blah blah blah. monday badminton. : and den went to class. told chenyaan to take ronnie's place. haha. and den crap with her. and we actually wrote letters in school. haha. dats so weird. haha. den we ended up passing notes instead. and later we thought talking was easier. (: and we talked. haha. and literature. we got back our test results. i am slacking horribly. : jade was upset. cheer up yah? (: chenyaan did well. den we started copying crap. then math was basically chatting through it all. listened to nothing. (: haha. and i didnt get caught. (: haha. and den recess. jade didnt wanna go down. so me and chenyaan went. cannot play badminton. den we go swing a while. and den play badminton a while. and den go play scrabble. haha. and den go back to class. was chinese. had to read this passage. and im like stuck. : teacher say must practice more.d en didnt listen for the rest. and after that. was history. i finally realised i didnt even see the teacher. and i 4got her name again. haha. wun bother to recall. haha. still crapping. english she had to go back. and qizhi sat in front of me. so was talking to him. abt chio pple. and shuai pple. haha. for an hour. haha.

it was soon lunch. den chenyaan wanted to play badminton. and me and jade didnt want to. so we lent cy and lusandra our rackets. and den we go eat. (: and den walk walk. den saw the 2o9 guys playing with the chamelon. i was screaming like shit. haha. jade too. and jiaqian asked us some personal questions. haha. no elaborations needed. den walk walk. haha. den go back class. haha. den geography. I think i angered qizhi. was feeling so guilty after that. : and jade sat behind me. was talking to her. got back our papers. did like shit. and mr yeo didnt want to give back my paper. i sensed some danger. scored badly. real badly. : aww. den crapped with jade more. haha. den went for music. listen to miss yeo crap abt cultural potpourri. had a great time. really fun! haha. and den sang a national day song. after school went to clementi went cy. lusandra. haha. ate KFC. and i ate 2 cheese fries. im mad. haha. and im selfish. haha. den went big bookshop. bought some stuff. and went home. today isnt bad ehh. haha. :

__im really selfish.
___i wished upon my star.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

Fancy havin mood swings all day round. how sweet would that be yah? fine. have to admit that 10 events of happiness can be ruined with just one issue of unpleasantness. no doubt that i can imply this philosophy on my life today. i have been thinking about a suitable name for myself. the virtual me. i dun want some immature stuff as i really can sense that i am growing up. so have to really pick carefully and with much consideration yah? so have been thinking alot. methods and such to recover my perfect name. haha. dun want any crap. been crapping like for 14 years of my life. almost. but get my point. if yanling aint someone who craps. yanling doesnt exist. you know what im saying? haha. so. i thought alot alot. and den went to class. ronnie was absent so i asked chenyaan to come sit there. and she did. did this quiz in the morning. haha. fancy having a quiz early in the morning. spoil a little of my mood. (: but all was still fine. the questions werent that difficult for someone as. ahem. smart as i am. (: god knows when did i start praising myself. like this. /: haha. den talked with chenyaan a lil' really minimal chat time. and den it was english. she had to go back. it was miss ong's lesson. so i was about to become stone when the bell rang. and it was [P.E] for somebody like me who prefers highly exciting sports like running. and so much unlike hockey. u shld have known how i felt. but it wasnt as bad as it could be. i guessed it pretty much was still cool. (: we dribbled with the ball. played with the stick. and tried to steal ball instead of the usual passing the ball around. and den started sweated. aww. didnt plan to. and den went to change out and it was time for PW.

we were praying dat we wouldnt have to go ahead with our presentation. as we werent ready for such an important task yet. but we were a little. overdue. u see. cant be helped anyway. so we crapped instead of listening to the presentations. haha. (: and waited for time to pass by. so an hour was up. and next was recess. we discussed abt recess during project work. so we went to eat. the queues were really long. so we decided upon the shorter ones. and finally on nasi lemak. again. /: haha. and den. i added a chicken wing. and holy. it was good. (: seriously. no kidding. haha. ate relaly slowly. and den the rest of the girls came to join us with their spaghetti. haha. creamy one. doesnt look good exactly. fine. im not a spaghetti person. so what do you expect? /: and den went to hall there sit. haha. sit and wait for miss sabrina to come. stared at the next block. gazed.

there she came. and we went back to class. did some worksheets i suppose. (: but i wasnt paying attention. was doing my own stuff and bickering to be precise. haha. looked out of the window. saw heaps of dirt piled up. it was pretty cool. i starting thinking. and den soon. it was art. proceeded to art. went to toilet first. was telling them that if i get scolded by [xiang jiao] again. im gonna hate him. fine. i already did. and i have no idea what his real name is. den we crap crap. alot alot. and we helped chenyaan paint her stuff. haha. and her picture didnt look that bad after all. ate the colour-changing sweets. haha. tasted like shit. haha. ate 2. first was was yellow. haha. chenyaan ate that too. and she looked like she didnt brush her teeth. for ages. we teased her. alot. and she didnt dare to show her teeth in the end. haha. the second one was dark green. mine and jade's were of the same colour. haha. ate it. and mine worked. aww. haha. i was green. but it faded after a while. haha. (: and den went to the hall. had some magic thing going on. dawn on me that this song [Do you believe in magic] is so sweet. haha. (: and den watched. kinda immature. but the science facts are pretty cool. (: haha. so perhaps. some magic or said to be illusions. have scientific background. (: haha. that guy wasnt much of a good presentor. he made me feel like sleeping. haha. seriously. as though he casted some sleepy powder on me. ahh. haha.

we got to leave the hall first as we were visiting the science centre. Funky. haha. den brought our bags down. and bought some hello pandas. and got ready to get on the bus. and den went on the bus and off we went on our excursion. (: whee- reached there. and played with the toys. holy shit. it was much exciting than i ever thought. haha. and we played at the starting point. there was kinda exciting. but wait till u get to the more exciting ones. haha. the fruit basket really scared me. haha. scared Mr. Chee too. haha. was like holy shit. how the hell did she get in there. haha. (: and den saw some chicks. and i meant chicks and not otherwise. get what im saying? haha. they were in the incubating dome. haha. guess its pretty warm. haha. (: and den played with other stuff. haha. really fun ehh. and the face changing thing. and the combination of 2 faces thing. haha. real funky. haha. and played with more stuff. haha. wanted to go on stimulator. unfortunately it was not in service. i guess. and den went to play more more other stuff. played the smash the thing. see how strong you are thing. haha. and the elctric chair. woah. it was shocking. haha. shocking! haha. and edwin and lusandra are really like in love that sorta thing. haha. and den went to the human body area. haha. so fun! checked our blood pressure. mine was like 80? dats so low! haha. the normal rate is like 140 or 160. im like half or wad is supposed to be. haha. and we went into our nose. gross. smelled rubbish. like shit. haha. and den went back. we were late. cause we cant sem to find our way out. ahh. haha. got a lil' scolding. haha. den went back. went to clementi after that. haha. couldnt decide on mCdonalds or KFC. in the end. went KFC. KFC renovation. wtf. den wal;ked back to maCdonalds. jade left. and den me and chenyaan left. haha. i ate the meal. holy shit. and more takoyaki. do i ever get fat? haha. and crapped with her. shld have stayed longer. didnt like at home either. haha. and so im back. anyways. vindicated is stuck in my head. and i have mood swings. haha. take care ya'll.

___I really am wrong.
____more than expected.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

assuming i got this problem about sharing. well. its kinda real. and not an assumption. i cant share. im selfish. but at different situations. i behave differently. i guess dats me huh? (: got an idea of a new skin. a whole new make-over. pretty much hope it'll work yah? (: so. i guess i shld have better get started on my stuff. (: today. went to school. could say i was pretty early. went to find chelsea they all and den crapped. and got my work from Xinyi. i have to excercise my brains already. my sense of style is losing itself. haha. pretty much got a style yah? guess everybody's got one. anyways. back to the topic. so went and take national anthemn and pledge. holy shit. wanqing fell. she fainted that is. and fell on peixian. and she laid down. and within seconds. she woke up again. it was creepy. and everybody started talking about it. i was like holy. ahh. haha. u know wad im saying? well. u get my point there. so we did our stuff and went back to class. den do the english article. they had this thing going on abt the Tainan-ese who came to visit. making a deal out of stuff. lil' stuff. haha. no idea wads going on. and den it was english lesson. 2 periods. did stuff. was looking out the window at the man with the machine thingy. haha. wanted to ask him to help me take my orange ball that went missing a couple of days ago. so we threw 2 flying airplanes down. haha. with a message. aww. didnt work. it couldnt fly. ): haha. all was to no avail. den did english stuff. and um. after that was chinese. haha. it wasnt all really very exciting. (: and den it was recess. they celebrated for that lil' tainanese. her name was. um yiling. right. dats it. (: and yeah. we had stuff. was starving. had to drag somebody with me down to get some food. so i manage to trick lusandra down. (: haha. and the auntie gave back 1 buck extra. (: i didnt make an moves after dat. im selfish

-gleams. and den it was science. did some experiments. haha. mdm sabrina was like counting to ten. so we rushed in. and those who is said to [take their own sweet time] were held outside. captive. haha. (: so we did experiments. whoo. i had plenty of good guesses. haha. (: all was well. and this thing emitted some quantity of weird stuff. haha. it seems to have made me feel a lil' sleepy. haha. (: and did work. den went back. it was den math. fine. all of us loathe math. suddenly math doesnt seem like my forte anymore. ): aww. dats sad. honestly. den we did math. what else? it was a long and exasperating experience all right. glad tomorrow we are um. see. escaped from the clutches of it. look. im trying to practice vocabulary. fine. these are little useless ones. but it does makes sense all right. and im using a second level of profound language according to myself. (: haha. its still a good thing. i have the passion for accomplishing this lil' task. (: and den it was lunch. (: we had some intense training of badminton. well. i was playing with jade. in shld be intense right. as in supposedly. i was running all over the place. but i couldnt entirely control my hits so. um. right. she is stronger. ): aww. forget it. it works with the mind. to be better den somebody. it works like this. doesnt it? so i had to scramble all over the place. to catch the ball. could manipulate it at all. it was pretty pathetic. after that went back to class. (:

we were having an examination. ahh. its an examination. fancy having an examination when most of the things were going well for you. fine. im making it a lil' exaggerating. (: it was on literature. haha. so i did the test without much hesitation i reckon. it went well i suppose. (: i got memory failure. /: weird. and den it was history. (: haha. history is absolutely uninteresting. not to mention that the sight of the teacher gives it a straight [no-no] huh. haha. im mean too. To add on. history makes me feel like a failure. haha. (: den did this worksheet. after that. had netball. felt uneasy about catching balls and throwing them. weird. anyways. take care ya'll. feeling tired already. nobody's in the good mood. so i guess I'll be off. cya. (: no song today. [Vindicated] is a good enough one. (: take care. (:

__not only mean
___but also selfish.

[___yanl!ng]

2004-07-26T19:33:00.000+08:00

feeling absolutely miserable and pretty bad right now. imagine having to upset a million people in less than 12 hours. its entirely pathetic yah? so in order to forget stuff. i wun even bother to blog today. but I'll leave u with this song. haha. heard it at xianzheng's mp3 player. real good. take care ya'll. (:

[Vindicated]
Artist: Dashboard Confessional

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

{Chorus}
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

{Chorus}
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

{Chorus}
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

___I am selfish
____I am wrong.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-25T11:01:00.000+08:00

yesaterday was a big and long day. really big. and long. i said. really really big and long. (: imagine having to go out of your house at lets say. 11am. and come back. at 11pm. how many 14 year old teenagers get this chance? well. i did. (: so its not entirely a bad thing. although it is rather exhausting. (: haha. so in the morning. i was playing ps2 with xianzhao who happened to stayover at my house for a day. (: dats pretty cool huh? we started off with spiderman and psy-ops. it was really cool. but we made do with [winning eleven 8] in the end. all was fine. still. (: haha. so we had a sweden vs. holland match to see who will win. but the controls are at computer mode. haha. (: so it was a draw again! 0-0 and sweden lost the penalties. ): and Van Nistelrooy missed a shot. the first one. i was laughing like mad. anyways. later xianzhao went to use Holland against Sweden. i knew Sweden will not last if xianzhao controlled the opposing team. he is a gd player eh. (: haha. so he had this really pretty goal. i must admit. haha. and he kept raplaying it. so evil! haha. so i was late already. it was 11. and im supposed to meet 'em at 11 but at Jurong East. haha. i was really afraid they would be angry. so i told xinyi to take mrt to dover den i wait for 'em there. haha. so i did. i was in beach wear. and later den change to the casual wear. haha. so i went in the train and met royston. xinyi and liqian. exchanged greetings and in order to lighten the mood. i told some jokes. fine. they were pretty lame. but i found 'em really funny. and royston was there faking the laugh. it was SO evil. they told a number of jokes too. and i found 'em funny! haha. okay fine. i laugh pretty easily. so we went out at somerset. grabbed our tickets. i was persuading them to watch [I ROBOT] instead of [King Arthur] and it seems that my persuasion was real good. haha. so we caught [I Robot] we got out tix. and it was like we have half an hour to go. so royston didnt get to eat his breakfast. he wanted to eat. but the rest of us didnt want to. so he made do with us. so sweet isnt it! haha. and he ate mamee. den we go [cheers] buy drinks. haha. all of us were thirsty. and walk walk. dun wanna go heerens. the sun was really shining. so we were feeling lazy. so walked around in cineleisure building. haha. our show was 123o. den me and royston went to buy 2 cookies. but they gave 3. haha. so we paid for 2 only. haha. each of us had 1 and a half. den went up and buy popcorn. 6 bucks ehh. haha. and den go in. haha. was finding our seats in the dark. the formation was royston. me. xinyi. liqian. haha. den we watch. holy shit! its really good. the movie is really good. real good. i seriously dun mind watching it again eh. (: haha. unexpected stuff going on. woah. its good. (:

halfway. royston needed to answer a call. nature's call that is. so asked liqian to accompany him. (: haha. den i was watching to seriously i didnt want liqian to go back to his seat and block my view. so told him to sit down there. haha. they got a couple of nice phrases in the movie. haha. and den we went out of cinema. haha. and off to [Heerens] if im not wrong. haha. den went to [action city] to buy so [be@rbrix] haha. and royston bought 2 too. (: haha. den we walk walk. den go [Bloomington's Greetings]. wanted to buy GuoPing a present. so i bought this cup. haha. dunno whether he would like it. and there were lots of pretty stuff around there. haha. (: and den we saw this 2 sec one zah bohs. who in turn seems to be good friends of royston and liqian. they even know xinyi. but i dun even have the idea they exist. so i was feeling bad. starting to at least. i felt like an um. its a taboo word. haha. u should have guessed it. so its really weird. den went [LJS] at [Cineleisure] haha. got fly. eeyer. dun wan. outside got pigeon eh. even worse. haha. so xinyi and i went to KFC instead. went to eat this [Singapura Satay Burger] eeyer. its so bad. and i had to take out the satay. haha. and den they came and find us. and den we seperated. [me and xinyi] and the others. haha. den went to [Heerens] again. we walked the whole building there. wanting to find a more suitable piece of clothing to suit my pants. haha. it was horrible. everything was so expensive. i just couldnt afford anything. haha. guessed i spent too much. and den went back to [Cineleisure]. went to change. haha. i look so decent. haha. so demure. so unlike me. den went out and see free rock concert. not bad ehh. dunno was their band called. the guy got this slang dats really pretty.

royston came to meet us. alone. he was the sweetest lil' guy i ever met. haha. they rest went off themselves. so we waited for him to change den go take mrt. then it happened. the quarrell started. xinyi and royston was kinda weird. and i was helpless. even though they said they were fine. but eventually it turned ugly. i was caught in the middle. dunno which side to lean on. den we dropped at buona vista. to flag a cab. but the cabs werent with us. and xinyi got a lil' fed up i guess. den we take to UCC. it was 4.7o bucks. haha. den went there. i think xinyi okay liao. den royston also. just that they still haven patch up. haha. so crapped with xinyi. saw shaun quek. haha. and he was like [eeyer]. haha. fine. i did look weird. so i saw chenyaan they all. haha. and she was afraid to see me. haha. and den the netball girls came. so hung around with them . holy shit. cheryl came with samantha as a couple. and cheryl was to be a guy. she looked so cool! haha. den went in. the seating was so complicated. and i wanted so much to sit with the 2o8 pple. haha. den the 2 rows were called out. we must let the parents sit. den i reunited with 2o8. haha. den we proceeded out. and den we had this chance to go in. den we went. but i wanted to go out! its in the night. which teenagers gets to do that. so at the 15 minutes break. we sneaked out to meet guanzhong they all. den we went out. (: haha. so it was kokyao. yangyi. haiming. jade. guanzhong. ronnie. gavin. jingyen. derek. kah jun. clement and me. woah. alot yah? den we walk walk. wanted to go bowling. they all. den kokyao. yangyi. haiming. jade. ran. den the rest were standing there. so i heard somebody call me. den go back. den they went to take bus. haha. so it was guanzhong. ronnie. gavin. jingyen. derek. kah jun. clement and me. and they scared me with the toad. it was awful. den we climb the overhead bridge and back. weird. den take 188. being the only girl. i prefer to stand. i dun wanna be seen as a loose zah boh all right. and in fact im not. so we met them at the bus-stop. haha. they ran there. mad. den go bowling. 8 bucks. 6 pple bowl. me. kokyao. ronnie. gavin. yangyi. clement. haha. den the first game not that bad ehh. i got a handful of [spares] but this game gavin play like shit. haha. clement played real well. haha. he got more den a hundred points eh. keep striking and sparing. haha. den second game. i feel like sleeping. but i got this really beautiful spare eh. 3 seperate pins eh. i managed to get them all down with a heavy ball. haha. gavin this game very qiang. very lil' longkangs. while. i managed to get 1 pin in every one. haha. ronnie got 3 strikes i think. clement played badly. for his standard. haha.

den went home. jade and jingyen left in the middle of the game i think. haha. den haiming. guanzhong. kahjun. derek. never play. den my dad came and fetch me home. cool eh. den bathed and such. gonna start learning swimming next week. (: as in training. for silver medal. haha. whee. so take care ya'll. its a really long blog. i took 60 minutes ehh. take care. (: chill around here and tag me. haha. unsure whether i left this b4. check it out though. (: its good.

[Hit or Miss]
Artist: A New Found Glory

Johnny: "It's like the mist is what's pretty, you know? All gold and silver.
"Ponyboy: "Yeah, man."
Johnny: "Too bad it can't stay that way all the time."
Ponyboy: "Nothin' gold can stay."
The needle on my record player has been wearing thin
This record has been playing since the day you've been with him
No more long rides home
No more of your station
I didn't like it anyway
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long
To see you
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long
To see you
Maybe it's for the best
Maybe it's not for anything
It wouldn't be so bad to take this right from me
No more long rides home
No more of your station
I didn't like it anyway
Remember the time we wrote our names upon the wall
Remember the time we realized "Thriller" was our favorite song
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long
To see you
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long
To see you
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
How many times I've tried
Blatant mistakes of your design
How many times I've tried
It's simple to you, so simple to lie
Blatant mistakes of your design
Have I waited too long
Have I found that someone
Have I waited too long
To see you
I've had so many chances
Turn my back and I ran away
I've had so many chances
To see you

__remember the time we wrote out names upon the wall
___one day. they will have dreams.

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-23T18:52:00.000+08:00

whoo. haha. today was absolutely exhausting. so tiring. aww. i shall give further evidence and explanation. but for now. (: lets chill around for some crap. So im gonna get things started. haha. so i went to school today. thought i was pretty early. watching the sky. really dark. which means. its still early. isnt it? haha. (: so i went to find the netball girls. (: haha. first option. i told them i brought my shoes. haha. (: and they applauded for me. haha. so proud of myself. fine. i hardly bring my shoes. so it was kinda a miracle. haha. (: so we crapped abit. and den go line up. dunno why all the guys move in front. haha. dne my bag behind. so i asked Andre to help me take. and he dropped my grover on the ground. and someone picked it up. be it gavin or kah jun. and den it went to guanzhong. fine. so they were meddling with it. haha. and we had to sing the pledge. (: sing the anthem and say the pledge. haha. that is. (: haha. and guanzhong stuffed it in Ronnie's bag. so after anthemn, go class den i took it back. haha. so first up was english. haha. miss ong went thru the stuff that we did for homework. haha. and jia qian say wad [sailed] but she heard it as [silk] haha. whatever effectively bilingual. haha. and den it was P.E. chenyaan didnt bring her attire as she didnt want to sweat. that is because she is going to perform in the rehearsal for the cultural potpourri yah? (: haha. and we started off with push-ups and sit-ups. haha. we did it on spiky ground. haha. i did a handful of push-ups. haha. pretty eh. but kana scolded by Thomas. haha. because i open my hands too big. open bigger. easier mah. (: haha. and then went into the gym. to do some stuff. haha. i played with the equipment. first was the use leg to pull up the weight. holy shit. it was really hard. haha. mainly because i haf no strength. haha. but the weight was really high. and then went to play the running track. haha. nearly fall down a couple of times. and den played the hand thingies. and den went to do chin up. haha. and den after dat do a few pull ups. whoo. haha. sweat a lil' eh.

and den went up for science. i wasnt really into science. feeling kinda bored. it seems that the teachers cannot really catch my attention. somehow i realised. they nvr seemed to. except perhaps miss betty ong. she is a pretty good teacher. (: haha. um. so it was science. and den recess. wow. went hall to play badminton. the pple were like having to watch a movie. i think the movie was um. [home run] the shoe thingy. haha. (: and we asked mrs. lee whether we can play badminton anot. so we played. i played with jade at first. and den me with kok yao. and den me jade and melisa. and den jade melisa and a dunno zah boh. and there was once kok yao was just being plain stupid. and he kinda joked with dat zah boh. but she was pretty fierce and just shot her middle finger right at his face. i was shocked to see that. really shocked. but if she pointed it at me. im gonna scream at her. haha. holler. yell. anything. as long as im bushuang. (: haha. and den play play play. den lend melisa my racket and Jade's. haha. and den. after that was math. since most of the people werent around as they went for cultural potpurri rehearsal, she got us some worksheets instead of going thru our normal curriculum. haha. and they threw my [e-zone] coin down. adeline gave it to me. and it was my lucky charm. and they threw it down. and they keep throwing my stuff. so evil. i was basically screaming. and they stole my chocolate too! evil pple.

that was plain evil. and den we went to the hall. and we were playing the smacking thing. haha. and jade missed my hand. so she didnt smack. den i ran away from her. haha. and den she suddenly came. and i was like. holy. and den i wanted to run away. but she held me back. so i was scrambling. haha. and den the teacher called us to stand up. so malu. in front of everybody ehh. haha. so ma lu. haha. and den stand up. and den we came up with an idea of why we did that. haha. jade thought of. and den the teacher came and we explained. haha. and she allowed us to sit down. and den i went to sit with royston and xinyi. haha. and we crapped. alot alot. haha. and den mrs lim talked abt the stuff for the cultural potpurri. and alot alot of the attire is not suitable for the dresscode thingy. haha. its pathetic ehh. so im gonna ransack my mum's wardrobe later on. den later. we go and take rackets from melisa. haha. and started playing with yangping and royston. the game sucked. haha. so gay. haha. and den the talk started again. it was boring. haha. clement gave me 2 bucks. haha. so nice. and den after school started palying. played alot of badminton. haha. thought that got netball training. in the end didnt have. and started playing badminton with YiTing. quite nice. and den time's up and den my grandfather came and fetch me home. haha. my dad was busy i think. haha. and on the way. my aunt gave me 20 bucks. she [zhong mah piao] again. haha. take care ya'll. i'll be leaving. (: chilla round. Now here is something for u to ponder.

[Let's Get it Started]
Artist: Black Eyed Peas

Let's Get It Started, in here...
And the base keep runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin',
and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and
runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin',

and...In this context, there's no disrespect,
so, when I bust my rhyme, you break your necks.
We got five minutes for us to disconnect,
from all intellect collect the rhythm effect.
Obstacles are inefficient, follow your intuition,
free your inner soul and break away from tradition.
Coz when we beat out, girl it's pullin without.
You wouldn't believe how we wow shit out.
Burn it till it's burned out.
Turn it till it's turned out.
Act up from north, west, east, south.

[Chorus:]
Everybody, everybody, let's get into it.
Get stupid.
Get it started, get it started, get it started.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.

Yeah.Lose control, of body and soul.
Don't move too fast, people, just take it slow.
Don't get ahead, just jump into it.
Ya'll here a body, two pieces to it.
Get stutted, get stupid.
You'll want me body people will walk you through it.
Step by step, like you're into new kid.
Inch by inch with the new solution.
Trench men hits, with no delusion.
The feeling's irresistible and that's how we movin'.

[Chorus:]Everybody, everybody, let's get into it.
Get stupid.Get it started, get it started, get it started.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.

Yeah.

Runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin',
and runnin' runnin', and runnin runnin' and...
C'mon y'all, lets get woohoo!
Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Lets get woohoo! Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Lets get woohoo!Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Ow, ow, ow!Ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya...

Let's get ill, that's the deal.
At the gate, we'll bring the bud top drill.
(Just)Lose your mind this is the time,
Ya'll test this drill, Just and bang your spine.
(Just)Bob your head like epilepsy, up inside your club or in your Bentley.
Get messy, loud and sick.Ya'll mount past slow mo in another head trip.
(So)Come then now do not correct it, let's get pregnant let's get hectic.

[Chorus:]
Everybody, everybody, let's get into it.
Get stupid. (Come on)
Get it started (come one) ,
get it started (yeah), get it started.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started(woah, woah, woah) in here.
Yeah.

Lets get woohoo! Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Lets get woohoo! Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Lets get woohoo!Lets get woohoo! (in here)
Ow, ow, ow!Ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya, ya...

Runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin', and runnin' runnin'[fade]

__running running and running running.
___just take it slow. (:

[__yanl!ng]

2004-07-22T18:54:00.000+08:00

im glad. really glad that we won! in our badminton game. it was 15-13. so close. so scary. we were against 2o1. against YiRong. and i was seriously happy when we won and i was basically screaming my lungs out and i might have provoked some pple. which cannot be a good thing. (: something is wrong with the stroke. thingy. anyways. we did great i think. but we need to jia you on our surfing. our surfing threw away plenty of chances. anyways. today began. bright and breezy. no. it was pretty dark and breezy. sure it is. (: haha. all was great. no intention to do large scale blogging today. absolutely lethargic. haha. so i guess I'l lbe leaving. but today was great. no matter in the classroom. the badminton court. with my friends. with my enemies. no big bushuang stuff. it was great. seriously. how i wish all would stay like this. Now. Here is the goodbye song. (: Take care ya'll. (: um. chill around.

[Meant to Live]
Artist: Switchfoot

Fumbling his confidence
And wond’ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we’ve been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we’re bent and broken, broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world’s got to offer
We want more than this world’s got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

__we were meant to live for so much more.
___i found myself.

[_yanl!ng]

2004-07-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

hands smeared with blood. fingers broken. woah. painful. most definitely. (: but i pulled through. and wala! im still alive eh. today had lots and lots of badminton. just realised that Jade is real good at it. i say real good. she is like an expert. and like a sheep in wolf's clothing. wahahahaha. so i played with her and she got me to run like a whole lot. and i dun like that. haha. nearly fell down a couple of times. she has lots of strength in her. LOTS. and holy. its getting pretty scary! haha. so we really want her to participate in the tournament. haha. I guess I'll be playing too. cant wait!! haha. so it all started. went to school. saw yini and chelsea. they offered me FROZZ. and i got no idea wad is that. so i refused politely. (: haha. and den went back to class. got these Tainan pple coming. and went to open lock. and guoping changed the locks. again. haha. so i was basically hollering at him. and den chenyaan came i guess. and so we crapped. and den take pledge liao. den went to get my script from Lusandra. she helped me print. so sweet yah? (: haha. later on. haf presentation. at least that was what we thought. and den. i edited it a lil' haha. and we did english. in that lil' book we bought. haha. and we did stuff. and den. did more stuff. and went for P.E. our P.E. is totally slack. and the reason is we dun wan to sweat. haha. den we took weight and height. im short and fat. : haha. pple are growing. all around me. and im not. i feel small. aww. haha. gonna do lots and lots of jumping. (: whee. haha. drink some GROW milk. enhance my hormones working condition. does that make sense? little or no? aww. :

den. it was PW. did stuff in the computer lab. woah. i helped chenyaan shift her slide. she insisted that her slide looks nicer. and in fact. it does. but. haha. mine is plain and simple. and i like the way it is right now. so i dun think i will implicate any changes on it. except for addition information since we didnt present today. (: haha. recess was a whole time of badminton. holy. isnt it the craze right now. badminton everyday. haha. and yeah. as i said earlier. jade was good. haha. real good. yeah. and den it was science. mdm sabrina didnt come again. poor lady. always sick. : den i completed my english homework. and den it was art. being so nice. i invited jade to take jingyen's place. haha. (: sweet eh. den we had this handshake thing. real cool. haha. and den play play play. got a scolding from dat teacher whose face is a shape of the moon. what's his name again? wahhahahahaha. i get a scolding every week. he has this biasness against me all right. so evil. did art. and i was doing this [where is the love] question mark. so nice. haha. i think its nice. haha. and den in a split second. art was over. went to hall for the assembly. had this dance dance thing going on. was crapping. : and i got slapped. twice. wasnt really happy. at all. not fun to get slapped yah. its painful. : den i got this [si yu lian] on my face. haha. as in really unhappy that kind. : haha. so i think jade mistook me as being angry. its not nice to haf somebody giving u that face. and u haf to urge her to be happy again. trust me. i'll reassure you that i share the same thoughts. (: haha. and den played badminton. haha.

we played badminton in the hall. actually 1v1. and den became 2v2 with xiaowei and her friend. haha. we were a good team. haha. (: so fun actually. and the badminton competetion for the secondary ones began and we were eventually chased out. : haha. and den we went scouting for another suitable place without wind to play badminton. and we went all round school and NO. we didnt find another suitable candidate. haha. : haha. and den went home. because we simply have nothing to do. and den scissors paper stone. haha. and i did water balloon. haha. not fair. so we went to the 96 bus-stop. haha. the nearer one. and den jade's bus came first. always! haha. so i guess I'll be leaving. have to help royston do his blog. haha. take care ya'll. no really nice songs. so i think it shall be this. its from freaky friday. and it isnt bad. (: chill around. (:

[Take Me Away]
Artist: Christina Vidal

Yeah,Yeah
Get up, Get out
Move on, move on
there's no doubt
I'm all wrong, you're right
It's all the same with you
I'm too thin, too fat
You ask why
So why,
So why,
So why,
So why

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on,

[Chorus]
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away, Away, Away, Away,Away,

Round and round here we go again
Same old start, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends
Do this, do that
Can't deal Can't deal with that
I tune in, tune out
I've heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on,

[Chorus]
Don't want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away, Away, Away, Away,Away,

[Chorus Repeat 2x]

Round and round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff never ends

__same old stuff never ends
___I'm my worst enemy. (:

[y4n!n9]

2004-07-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

sup pple. : haha. im feeling retarded right now? do they actually haf this mood on the mood thingy? well. recently. everybody's got their mood swing. anyways. today Huizhen is back. (: -welcome back. (: haha. everybody is glad. yeah. so basically today had the english exam. its a composition. and im like. woah. wads this? and i wrote a whole lot of crap. and im bound to get a handful of expression errors which isnt a good thing. at all. uh huh. and we played badmiton yet again. Chenyaan keep hurting herself when playing badminton. and i haf no idea as to why. um. den history was really boring. and GuoPing, me, catherine and qizhi had this [secret society club]. haha. and they keep recruiting members. so i think. Lusandra also. haha. and we had the secret pledge of honour. haha. funny eh. and netball. i realised i forgot to bring my shirt. and im like holy f%*k. haha. and i think i really made a bad impression of the rest of the netballers this time. and dah dah dah. (: haha. [jdae's remarkable words. dah dah dah] haha. okay. so take care ya'll. chill around here. (: -smiles. haha. i'll leave u with this song now. (: haha. chenyaan de [hao jie shao] not bad ehh. (:

[Pieces Of Me]
Artist: Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy is your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

__broken pieces of me
___it could be mended.

[y4n!n9]

2004-07-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

sup pple. after a long 72 hours break. I finally am back for more blogging. (: anyways. Look. this wouldnt be long. only haf 8 minutes. haha. (: um. so i guess I'll be leaving soon. just a rough update. today Jade was pretty quiet. didnt haf much contact with her. as in u know. have talked with her yah? and um. but it was fine though. recess went to hall and played badminton. same for lunch. didnt eat stuff. was scolded by Miss Ong during Moral Education. was playing with stuff. : and after that. chenyaan had detention. so i waited for her. and during the period of her detention. i was playing badminton with Xinyi and YiRong. No idea why badminton is like so hot in town right now. but that's whats happening. so i guess I'll live with it. Today would haf lotsa tests and such. so perhaps I'd go and do stuff later on. : so i guess I'd be going. Thus, right now. I'd be leaving u guys with this song. didnt really know if i left it before.

[The Art Of Losing]
Artist: American Hi-Fi

Last call now I'm outta time
And I don't got no valentine
Singled out, now I stand alone
The underdog in a modern world
Suburbia is hot tonight
But nothing seems to feel alright
I don't want your sympathy
I just need a little therapy
At least that's what they say to me

Hey ho let's go
I'm gonna start a riot
You don't wanna fight it
One two fuck you
Don't tell me what to do
I don't wanna be like you
Can't you see it's killing me
I'm my own worst enemy
Knock me down
I'll keep on moving
It's the art of losing

Fit the mold and do what you're told
Get a job and start growing old
9 to 5 can make your dreams come true
But I don't wanna be like you
I'm not cool and I'll never be
I break the rules and I guarantee
I don't want your sympathy
I just need a little therapy
At least that's what they say to me

Hey ho let's go
I'm gonna start a riot
You don't wanna fight it
One two fuck you
Don't tell me what to do
I don't wanna be like you
Can't you see it's killing me
I'm my own worst enemy
Knock me down I'll keep on moving
It's the art of losing

You call me a loser
Say I'm just a user
But I'll just keep on moving
Cause that's the art of losing

Hey ho let's go
I'm gonna start a riot
You don't wanna fight it
One two fuck you
Don't tell me what to do
I don't wanna be like you
Can't you see it's killing me
I'm my own worst enemy
Knock me down
I'll keep on moving
It's the art of losing

Wahhhooo (It's the art of losing)
Wahhhooo (It's the art of losing)
We're the kids
We're the kids
We're the kids in America
We're the kids
We're the kids
We're the kids in America

There There. You've got it. pretty song. take care ya'll. cya soon. and ENJOY!

__The Art of Losing
___what a freaky friday. (:

[_yanl!ng]

2004-07-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

blogger changed its stuff? not bad ehh. haha. um. so i think i shld do a proper update today. haha. okay. so early in the morning. went to school. and realised i didnt complete my summary. i did want to do it all right. but i did my mindmaps first and it was 1030 already. and being an early-want-to-sleep person. i did went to sleep. so didnt do. and den went to school to rush my work. still didnt complete it. and den during reading period. miss soh was like. "yanling. read the chinese" and i just plainly refuse to. and the others did too. and we ended up. caught by Miss Ong. woah. was she furious. we nearly got to copy 20 times of our comprehension paper and luckily. haha. her anger kinda cease for some sort of reason. but the conditions were to apologise to Miss Soh and for our parents to sign a letter for Miss Ong abt not doing our homework at home. ): how am i gonna explain this to my parents. i think I'd better come up with some plan. and we went on to check our summary points. and then it was P.E. bai tai jian came in. -shudders. didnt like him. He looks gay for one. and For two. he is scary. aww. haha. he was going [im a chemistry teacher not a P.E. teacher and i have to be responsible if one of you gets hurt] and didnt want to bring us to P.E. and we were like [aww. you cant do that!!] and started complaining. as good convincers. i believe that the results were positive. to us! and we went for P.E. great. so we wanted to play ball. but the others were kinda reluctant. so we were like. [fine. lets go play swing instead] and so we did. and we played and played. and then went to play ball. they eventually played. and zhenning was a lil' mean. and had a tiff with chenyaan. and they werent on good mood. eventually, everything became sweet again. (: whee. haha. and yeah. all were happy. and we played for an extra 10 minutes or so. playing with that lil' ball could be so fun. never thought of that that way. haha. and so laters went up to class. and mdm sabrina still haven arrived. and finally she did. (: haha. and den we went thru this worksheet. haha. (: and did the periodic table stuff.

now. it was raining. and den it was recess. we ate rice with chicken. and um. what did we do? no idea eh. guess i've pretty much forgotton. oh. we went to the hall cause we cant find the choir teacher of chenyaan's. and we watched them play baseball eh. so cool. and there was Mr. Chin. haha. not bad lah. den went back. and it was math. haha. went to see Miss Chan. chenyaan's choir teacher and she sent us back. so mean. haha. and did math. and stuff. den chinese. had the talk. haha. wasnt that bad. they all didnt believe i did it myself. only with a lil' help from my dad. and den it was lunch. lunch only me and chenyaan eh. haha. went to play swing a while. and den ate. and did stuff. after that. was um. geography. and did stuff. and den ACC. had this lil' talk with Jade. and den it was netball. netball was a lil' slacking. didnt haf the mood to like train. and i came up with this whacking pple thingy. and i hurt everyone. wahhahahahahhaha. (: -smiles. gonna try it on jade. haha. and um. played badminton. and netball of cause. and um. played. and went home. oh yah. every netball girl has a name. with a turtle behind it. and mine is [fuck that turtle] haha. pretty cool. anyways. take care all. cya'll. byebye!

[Original Prankster]
Until the break of dawn
Life life
Cannot go by the letter
Time time
Prozac can make it better
Noise noise
Any kind will do

Can you feel it slip away
When it's all on you
Crime crime
Rockin' like Janet Reno
Time time
Eighteen and life in Chino
Freud Freud
All along it's true
Well you'll see there comes a day
Catches up to you
Knock down the walls, it's alive in you
Knock down the place, you're alone it's true
Knock down the world, it's alive in you
You gotta keep your head up through it all
You're gonna Bust out on it - original prankster
Break out yeah - original yeah
Bust out on it - original prankster
You never stop now, stop now

That's what the main man say
You know it smells like shit
Goddamn
Tag team the double header
Son of Sam
Fire always makes it better
Navigate
With style and aplomb
Cause wherever you're at
That's the tip you's on

Lies, lies
Says he's down in the Bahamas
Tries tries
Bangin' little hoochie mamas
No way
None of this is true
Well he'll see there comes a day

When the joke's on you yeah
Dime dime
So good to see ya
Nine nine
Don't want to be ya
Crime crime
Fine sensimilla

__maybe im not giving up
___fuck that turtle

[y4n!n9]

2004-07-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

okay. so im like feeling the chills. and the chills i just realised aren't much of a good thing. anyways. nowadays wun be blogging much. really concentrating on my studies right now. and my mind just doesnt seem where it shld be. weird stuff. today was fine. wasnt that bad. and i really haf this urge to get the hanson craze over me. okay. i decided to buy their cd. whee. dats so cool aint it? anyways. read this. its holy! so i think I'll be off now. lotsa ghastly things happeneing. haha. anyways. take care ya'll. chill.

[This Time Around]
Artist: Hanson

It's getting colder in this ditch where I lie
I'm feeling older and I'm wondering why
I heard they told her it was tell and live or die
I didn't know her but I know why she lied
I didn't know her but I know why she died

Chorus:
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around

And we won't go down

I heard them say that dreams should stay in your head
Well I feel ashamed of the things that I've said
Put on these chains and you can live a free life
Well I'd rather bleed just to know why I die

Chorus

And we won't go down
And we won't go down
And we won't go down
And we won't go down
All I know is that fear has got to go
This time around

I've started feeling like I don't want to fight
Give in to the given and put out the light
Cannons a blazing shower these moonlit skies
Then I remember and I know why he died
Do you know why I die

Chorus 2x

And we won't go down
And we won't go down
And we won't go down

__smiles.
___cant think straight

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

dun think im gonna do any quizzes right now. guess i dun need that stuff to know who i really am yah? |: go figure myself. anyways. today was pretty okay. had lots of fun at netball. haha. so went to school today. cant really recall. knew i tried to rush math. things are turning for the better. nowadays. i seem more motivated to do stuff. do school stuff that is. so its pretty cool eh. (: and then went to school. went to find catherine. liuli they all. but cannot find. so walk back. and saw netball girls. played with 'em. and found out who is jermaine. haha. now i know. i think. haha. and den played with yini. haha. she is rather funny. huizhen caught some chicken pox. haha. poor girl. haha. fancy getting those pox at the age of 14. dats horrible. haha. and then. went back. and woah. dawei delivered this cage with 2 lil' hamsters inside to Lusandra. it was from Edwin. aww. so sweet ehh. haha. (: -smiles. and den me and chenyaan started talking abt hamsters. while jade was still with the -not-sp-yet-awake look. haha. (:

den did stuff. den did stuff. dun really feel like blogging again. its so weird. blogging is good. maybe because of training. pretty tiring although quite slack due to the rain. but its still not right. oh well. i guess im done here. (: haha. so i'll leave u guys with the lyrics to this song. im sure u guys would haf heard this. its really common. haha. anyways. i'll see u guys. (: and take care ya'll.

[Everybody's Fool]
artist: Evanescence

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that

never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you've got everybody fooled

look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she

never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

without the mask where will you hide
can't find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool

__netball is fun. netball is good.
___splinters are painful. splinters are bad.

[_yanl!ng]

2004-07-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

ehh. im [fuck] dats cool ehh. haha. very sweet eh.

your fuck.

What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

now for truth. am actually [asshole]. wahahahahahaha. but fuck sounds a whole lot better yah. oh well. anyways. here is the actual me.

your asshole.

What swear word are you?
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__i think forgiving is a better much prettier option.
___wo bu shi ge ben nu ren eh.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

ehh. weird day. dunno whether im feeling good or bad yah? maybe im just trying to cover up the pain. maybe. i never knew. i'll never know i guess. and i dun feel like blogging either. but for the sake of blogging. i will. weird. anyways. had so much trouble with the lock thingy today. i mistrusted him. anyways. i shan't be bothered. i guess. so i received a letter from adeline. -smiles. whee. dats cool. and yeah. did stuff. normal routine. cant really remember. ate lotsa sweets. guoping was exceptionally nice today. seriously. and guanzhong has this spiderman thingy going on with him. and jade. getting lamer and lamer. haha. weird ehh. but its really funny. okay. after school. went west mall with jade and chenyaan. had fun. but jade had to show me the face. disgusting face. u know not her face but the. cd!! wahahahhaha. and i was speaking pure english on the way home. (: haha. anyways. take care ya'll. gotta rush on homework. been slacking lately. |: cya.

Hey. check out this song. its pretty good ehh. kinda old song. a couple of years back eh. but still nice. (: its not bad lah. -smiles. try listening. or something.

[Thank You]
Artist: Dido

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I
Got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window,
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
Put your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there, they'll all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is like having the best day of my life

Push the door,I'm home at last
And I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel
And all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me and

I want to thank you
For giving me the best day of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is like having the best day of my life

__i absolutely regretted.
___never felt so betrayed ever. |:

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-11T12:21:00.000+08:00

whee. so many many tags today. (: -smiles. happy happy! so glad that u guys could like drop by and tag. haha. anyways. yesterday. was out swimming yah? so i kinda came across some weird stuff. haha. took mrt there. my brother was kinda [gao xiao]. he brought the whole big bottle of shampoo and soap dat we use at home to the pool. and he kept whining it was heavy. and i didnt know why. and we brought 5 bottles of water. haha. pretty gao xiao. den went to chinese garden. while walking there. my mum and brother quarrelled. i dun really talk when i am with my family. as in family without cousins. so i was pretty quiet. den they were bickering. like kids all right. so i was like [ni men hen chao leh. wo tao yan ni men] haha. dunno why i suddenly said that. but i felt much better. (: -smiles. and den i saw this two lil' boys playing with a green ball. playing soccer. on a patch of tall grass without shoes. and i was like [eeyer] wouldnt dere be dung? imagine. |: haha. weird. and den went there. argh! wenzong they all nvr go. den i didnt feel like swimming. the sight of the toilet gives me the shivers. it is real nasty all right. u shld go and experience someday. |: haha. and so i didnt swim. haha. luckily aaron never like pester pple liao. maybe he did change like the adults said. we never know. and so i sat there for like 2 whole hours or even more. still felt like sleeping. would haf done better if i was in the water. would have. |: but oh well. with no companions. i seriously rather not. (: haha.

and dere was this really adorable lil' boy. like him lots! haha. and he is like 6 years old. haha. (: so cool!! and he is so cute all right. and he walked to his mother. and was like i dun wanna go to school. i want to play games. haha. i want holiday. and its like kids talking. so wad do you expect. it was really funny. and cool. and sweet and nice. (: haha. like him lots. and his mother is my mother's friend. and she was nice enuff to fetch us to Jp. later on. haha. and we watched Mr. bean on the car. and it was pretty funny. haha. and the lil' boy was so sweet and i gave him 2 of my lollipops. haha. lollipops all right. its L-O-L-L-I-P-O-P-S. haha. nvm. (: he is nice. and den we bought tickets to the spiderman show. still wasnt speaking alot. maybe i was a bit more mature that day. maybe. and i ate laksa. and we planned to watch the 7pm show. so we went it. and my mum like havent been in a cinema for ages and was kinda swaku. -sneers haha. anyways. the movie was awesome. haha. awesome. liked it. (: haha. not too bad. (: haha. nice. haha. -goes mad. anyways. den we hung around Toy-R-us. and i saw lollipops. didnt bring my money so couldnt buy. oh well. would make a trip there someday. and buy the lollipops. haha. anyways. and we went home. and i started sleeping. (: -smiles. haha. i guess dats all. better get some homework done later on. haha. cya. take care ya'll. chill lots. (:

__it all would be better if everything was simpler.
___it all would be. (:

[_yanl!ng]

2004-07-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

whee. i got some accomplishments! whee. maybe i shld adapt from jade. and do up an achievements area yah? hope she doesnt mind. but maybe im not doing it. lazy and such. whee. guess what my accomplishment is? hahahaha. i sleep throughout for 13 hours yeah? dats like so cool. im like wow. im good. i sleep more den half a day leh. dats like 6 hours stopping my flow of thoughts. true. yes indeed. its real cool! whee. haha. im proud of myself. but i cant stay awake for that long. i like to sleep. (: whee. haha. anyways. been watching [liu xing hua yuan] alot alot. its like such a pleasant story. so complicated. yet so.. sweet. sweet stuff. will get envious. but well. its a fairytale. (: haha. actually rather brainless. me. (: so strange. haha. and den its like 2pm now. would be going swimming later. and den. to watch spiderman 2. even later on. would be pretty sweet yah? i hope so too. whee. i'll be hanging around online at this moment yah? maybe till 3? weird. |: haha. anyways. take care ya'll. short one. hope i would update more though. (: take care. -smiles. chill.

__maybe i was trying to put up a false front
___ke neng. wo chong lai dou mei you pa chu na ge dong.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-09T19:47:00.000+08:00

came across this. maybe u guys would wanna take a look? (: its a story. weird one though. haha. funny stuff. anyways. check it out. if not. scroll down for my stuff. (:

[The Stuff]
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth the effort to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less

NOW -------- Enough of that crap . . .
The donkey later came back and bit the shit out of the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected, and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.
MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:

When you do something wrong and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.

okays. im done with the stuff. Now. for my stuff. today was pretty fine. haha. evereyday seems fine. but i seem rather lonely. sitting there. alone. while jade and chenyaan get to talk together. sometimes pretty lonely yah? but still got the pple around me. not bad le lah. (: -smiles. yeah. so. it all started when i woke up and i wanna sleep. getting insufficient sleep nowadays. weird stuff. haha. anyways. maybe i will revise my math and re-do my blog this weekend. if not this. den it'll be next. one of them. im getting sick of this one. need a lil' inspiration though. i got the brains. but i let them rust. for some sort of reason. weird stuff. okays. i haf said [weird stuff] like for the hundredth time. haha. (: so i went to school and hung out with the nb girls. a lil' excited to talk to xinyi abt the stuff dat happened last night. haha. pretty cool though. she didnt talk much abt it though. |: haha. den went to line up. saw Jade. and den crapped. we did. didnt we? haha. excited abt Geog test also. (: so went up to class. and did stuff. dun really feel like blogging the study part. the same old thing happened yah? as in. got many many sweets from Catherine and im like a sweet-tooth now. haha. and played swing and all those stuff. need to get seryang a present. fast. haha. (: and yeah. den had netball. |:

my leg suddenly got hurt. acute pain. awful. terrible. painful. scary. i was feeling bad. and i kept whining to kaiyan. haha. and kaiyan was like dun train lah. since so pain. haha. so sweet yah? but i decided to push it. dun wanna be a slacker. i look like one already. wanna be hardworking. develop some passion for netball. I shld say. increase the passion. and god. i watch too much soccer that my passes seem like soccer's throw in. got a few scoldings. den really cannot tahan liao. so i decided to tell miss he. haha. she told me to rest. and so i did. out ice pack. in the end. even more hurting now. now. im limping. (: haha. so painful eh. and i crapped with yirong. who suffered the big blow from huiqi. i did too. bleeded. my teeth. painful. but was quite okay soon. haha. no biggie lah. den crapped with yirong. lotsa stuff. haha. cool though. (: -smiles. anyways. gotta take care. well. of myself. (: take care u guys too. (: no songs today. i need a lets say. meaningful song? haha. go figure. cya. (:

__doh. a deer. a female deer
___i wanna stop all my flow of thoughts.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Ser Yang. (: haha. grow up yah? (: haha. i screwed myself up. Up to this depth. dunno sup with me again. once again. im lost. strange. weird. |: its just so abnormal. wads gotten into me. i ask myself. looking back at my entries. how many times haf i asked myself that? i haven got the answer. i seem to dislike everything now. my nerves seem loose or something. pple just keep poking 'em. |: and i dun really like the way im behaving now. [if only i can turn back time]. dats not wad i would say. i face reality. but do i actually? haha. weird stuff. never get to understand how life goes yah? maybe it got the wrong turn or something. weird stuff. (:

went to school today. did i think abt stuff? dun really remember. just knew that i was pretty sleepy. and i took a nap in the toilet. haha. (: and den came to school. my grandparents and my dad were going to Malaysia. in the car. i watched my grandmother. she seemed so innocent. so pure. and dedicated. so pretty. (: im glad she is with me. i will treasure them. maybe i used to abuse my authority. haha. |: so went to school. and hung out with the nb girls. haha. talked abt the drama yesterday. acted like weird crap. i cant act all right. 4get my dream to go to hollywood and look up shawn ashmore. |: all hope's gone now. aww. den went to class cause the sky's really dark. haha. and read I am David a lil'. haven read it yet. im really slow. and i am not back in the mood for work yet. i used to be really hardworking i hope. been so much of a slacking person nowadays. and i dun really like this. den copy so much stuff for Literature. haha. (: and im pleased with my work. pretty neat. haha. dats a gd thing. (: haha. so after that was math. didnt like math at all. and i got scolded because they stole my [Fantasia Barrino] poster that i pasted on the wall. btw. Fantasia sucks. really. she has a big mouth. and i do mean big. anyways. dun like her. thats it. and i got scolded because of her. i tried so hard to listen to Mr. Hiap already. i gave my best. and hopefully. u did catch my attention. i did try all right. i didnt want my grades to deprove. |: but i did. ): all seems so bad again. -wonders why. well. life is like a rollercoaster yah? haha. maybe mine is more of the exciting ones. going down and down. deep down. bam. -ouch. dat ought to hurt. so did math stuff. gonna get my homework done soon. (: hopefully. -gleems.

and den it was recess. we went to the swing. and i show Jade how i could fly. whee. and i did keep haolian-ing. haha. but i was joking yah? and played stuff. Terrence didnt really smell like brussel sprouts that bad today. haha. -pew!! he was awful yesterday. haha. yeah. so laters. went to class yah? chenyaan was worrying abt her chinese talk thingy. haha. and she tried thinking of excuses. yeah. and we had nasi lemak. i had some difficulty in breathing too. weird stuff. haha. and den it was chinese. chenyaan was told to speak twice. haha. because she didnt do it today. haha. dats a gd thing to me though. haha. get more time to prepare script. haha. and he went on with the normal chinese stuff. and lusandra. liuli and wingkin went to 2o3 to take higher chinese. congratulations! haha. (: -smiles. and yeah. my reading is getting from bad to worse. |: haha. and den it was history. did worksheet. didnt feel like doing it at first. nvr like the tcher. whats her name? dun wanna know anyways. aww. but once i got into it. it was pretty good. haha. and i completed it. without much help from others. haha. -smiles. not bad eh? haha. den it was english. glad miss ong didnt really talk much abt the drama. pretty glad actually. haha. and i was playing with catherine's toy. and she asked me to hand it over. haha. and she played with it a lil' and gave it back. we talked abt the phrasal verbs stuff. haha. and it den was lunch. (: haha. and chenyaan and jade wanted to go play scrabble at the library. haha. but it was close so went to hall and play and play with the dance stuff. brought back a lil' old memories yah? used to like play it always. wahhahahahhahah. fun fun! played the jumping tamborine. fun fun. haha. and played the rolling. big chuck of rolling mattress thingy. haha. fun fun! and we climb climb. play play. fun fun. haha. -bangs head on the wall. and chenyaan lost foyang's magazine. haha. and we went back to find it later on. haha. didnt find it. haha. aww. |:

and den. it was geography. haha. was kinda happy when Mr. Yeo said he remembered me. well. i made an impression. dats a gd thing. haha. (: haha. but it didnt actually go the right way. as in. his impression was a strange one. haha. (: but it is okay. and i was kinda disappointed. at some stuff. it kinda shook my mood abit. well. it was a little. so it didnt really matter i guess. [forgive & forget]. [dun be xiaoqi] -smiles. and den it was music. went mad a lil during music. haha. feel pretty weird though. haha. and we are actually called like [the famous five] dats like no creativity at all. dats like the worst name. and den on the way back. cy and i like became mad. and started speaking alien language. haha. quite funny actually. haha. den went home liao. and i actually 4got to tell chenyaan i think. -slaps myself. and den. walked to clementi with catherine. liuli and lusandra. haha. we went to drink 1 buck [pao pao cha] haha. not bad lah. haha. i drank green apple milk tea. haha. weird stuff. and den bought the waffles too. and realised my money was gone. haha. thought chenyaan took it. but it was jade. haha. bad girl yah? haha. and i think she 4got to return. haha. sorry chenyaan. shldnt haf suspected you. |: den wanted to borrow hp from lusandra. haha. in the end 4get. den went with catherine to buy shoes. haha. school shoes. hers was really black. haha. and she bought new ones. haha. and den. we went to NTUC to check out some chocolates i suppose. haha. but in the end. they didnt haf the Black & white M&Ms. so didnt buy that one. i bought SKittles instead. haha. (: tomorrow gonna eat in class. haha. (: -smiles. shoutbox not working. so sad. ): haha. anyways. take care ya'll. byebye. (: leave u guys with this song. dun really interested in love love stuff yah? but its not bad. and The darkness seems gay. haha. but its really quite good. haha. (: enjoy. (:

[Love Is Only A Feeling]
artist: The Darkness.

The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand

'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed

That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing
(It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.

__zhi zuo duo qing. zhi zuo zhi shou.
___ben nu ren.
____let tomorrow be a brighter day.

[_yanl!ng]

2004-07-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

woah. my legs are hurting so much now. -frowns. today was pretty fine. haha. (: so went to school today. and i was LATE! hello. im yanling leh. how can i be late? of cause i was surprised. but was rather excited. haha. never ever been late in my life b4. haha. maybe once. haha. was in henry park. was so afraid that time. but now. excited. (: whee. so i was late. finally. i wasnt really worried. haha. so i went to school. huizhen was late too. den hafta say pledge in front of the pandian guy. haha. i was laughing away though. i was the only one saying aloud. me and huizhen. haha. first time late. and i was late bcoz my dad's car broke down. haha. and cannot find my grandfather's key. in the end. found it. so can go. (: haha. exciting. den i sneak with 2o4 to class. haha. and everything wasnt really getting on yet. haha. so took books and all. (: haha. den do the ws. and hafta pay 1 buck to guanzhong bcoz greece won. haha. |: haha. i knew they cheated. but nvm. (:

haha. so first. did the article. on fat pple again. they keep reminding us abt such stuff. |: its not as if we are really fat yah? haha. but actually.. the obesity is rather high in nan hua. (: haha. fat pple. |: yah. anyways. it was den english lesson. haha. talking abt the script. haha. (: and den guanzhong really very kelian. haha. kana scolded until very cham. haha. and then miss ong crap abt some stuff. haha. den crap crap crap lah. now brainest on. dun feel like blogging. anyways. after school. stay back for the drama thingy. haha. weird stuff. but very funny. haha. stayed with guanzhong. guoping. ronnie and kokyao to the end. haha. the drama was weird. but very funny yah? haha. sure die. but as gz said. we do to make miss ong happy. (: haha. slef-sacrifice yah? den went for training. had match with the tchers. haha. very fun. Mr. CHin very pro leh. haha. anyways. take care all. wish me luck for tomorrow. gonna play brainiest! haha. (: chill

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

-squints squints. my eye hurts. I'd elaborate. I woke up at 7am yesterday. watched tv and all. for like 4 hours to 11am. and den started using the computer for 8 straight hours. right till night. which was like 7pm? and bathe and ate. and i ended up starring at the tv for another straight 6 hours. watching meteor garden. straight to 1.45am. awaiting for the finals. (: haha. and den watched tham play ps2. and den watched soccer. slept at 5am. (: woke up at 8am. and den started watching meteor garden again. until 3.45pm. so much starring at stuff. resulting in my eyes being swollen. its horrible. and it hurts. -ouch. haha. (: well. talking abt meteor garden. its absolutely a fairytale. that girl is really lucky to haf hot guys going after her. and she doesnt really seem to appreciate it. ): haha. she should. its like going in circles. merry-go-round. haha. but really touching. was bounded by tears. thought abt stuff i could relate to with the show. resulted in my mood. really lost. a 14 yesr old girl. who seems to be forever laughing smiling and screaming. how can she possibly feel lost. maybe im just trying to put a false front. maybe i dun even understand how my brain works. how i am actually like. I never knew. will i ever know?

Have you ever wondered. if we could actually live life the other way round. as in. born old. and grow younger and younger. everything seems SO simple when u're young. was observing these 2 kids on the mrt ride to jp. i watched them. a boy and a girl. behaving so childishly. [they are kids] supposed to be childish. i looked at them play. without any worries at all. smiling. laughing. so simple. unlike my life. my life is pretty messed up now. by lots and lots of things. really complicated. i am slowly. really slowly. taking lil' steps at a time to understand and solve the problems. (: i just that is right. told adeline once. Life seems like a game. a game of choices you haf to make. and the rules are that u cant go back. once you took that route. you are going there. no turning back. no regrets. |: now. it seems like a complicated game. intricate? not 4 me to understand yet? I will learn. (:

today. was to go to jp with Jade. (: haha. to watch Spiderman 2. we went there at 4. haha. she wore the tee i gave her. i kinda forced her to. but was really glad. (: haha. and laters. we went to buy tickets and it just happened that all seats were taken and left the 7pm ones. Jade cant stay long. neither could i. so didnt watch in the end. (: instead. we shopped around. i was really hungry and squinting lots. haha. so i begged jade to go to eat stuff. ate LJS. haha. (: always eat that. and the pple there seems like pirates. they call money dubloons. wahhahahahah. pirate money yah? (: haha. can go work there when i grow up. train to become a pirate yah? (: haha. so i ate. jade ateD i think. so she just had a couple of fries. and yeah. i ate [combo 1]. haha. (: and laters. we go buy derek's present. browse here browse there. also dun haf nice stuff. haha. in the end. bought this really weird thing. hope he likes it though. haha. (: and den go arcade play ball. den went home. my dad fetched. jade refused to take my dad's car. so haha. i think she went back herself. good luck to her. haha. think that she would get scolded. haha. ): she has the makings of a woman. haha. somehow i think she seems much more mature den me. haha. |: is my hormones not working well.

haha. and i love NELLY FURTADO! haha. and im not les. haha. i dun think i will be. like guys alot yah? (: haha. so I'll be leaving you with this song. yeah. The Euros are already over. haha. and Greece won! whee. haha. im so happy!! whee. anyways. i'll leave u with this. read thru it yah? real great. (: -smiles. haha. take ya'll. cya'll. chill.

[Forca]
Artist: Nelly Furtado

It is the passion flowing right on through your veins
And it's the feeling that you're oh so glad you came
It is the moment you remember you're alive
It is the air you breathe, the element, the fire
It is that flower that you took the time to smell
It is the power that you know you got as well
It is the fear inside that you can overcome
This is the orchestra, the rhythm and the drum

Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma forca que ninguem pode parar
Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

It is the soundtrack of your ever-flowing life
It is the wind beneath your feet that makes you fly
It is the beautiful game that you choose to play
When you step out into the world to start your day
You show your face and take it in and scream and pray
You're gonna win it for yourself and us today
It is the gold, the green, the yellow and the grey
The red and sweat and tears, the love you go. Hey!

Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma forca que ninguem pode parar
Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

Closer to the sky, closer, way up high, closer to the sky

Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma forca que ninguem pode parar
Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar

__i kinda understand now
___wo xi huan ni. xi huan dao lian wo zi ji duo jue de muo ming qi miao.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-04T17:26:00.000+08:00

whats happening? |: i have no idea at all. suddenly. i feel so. emotional. so down. and what's more. im listening to Kelly Clarkson. (: maybe i shld be open and just let all my feelings run free. and den i would be classified under the [bad friends] list yah? |: "mah fan" "mah fan" suddenly. i feel so unimportant. so easily forgotten. is my mood messing with me. or am i messing with myself. its not as if the world had gone against me or anything. anyways. got to talk to pristine today. (: really cool. haha. got to understand so many many things. been online since like 11am till 5.30pm. well. dats long. tonight got match. would be watching. feeling really sleepy now. would call pple up laters. hope greece wins. tomorrow gonna watch spidey i suppose. hope everything does not screw up yah? the adult world is far more complicated den now. i prefer it this way. although it is pretty much messed up too. |: haha. so i guess I'll be off leaving u guys with the lyrics to [Before Your Love] really like it lots. (: haha. anyways. 4get abt it. take care ya'll. -smiles.

__i believe tomorrow would be better.
___you have given me a reason to exist.

[Before Your Love]
Artist: Kelly Clarkson

I wonder how I ever
Made it through a day
How did I settle for a
World in shades of grey
When you go in circles
All the scenery looks the same

And you don’t know why
Then I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out
In front of me
And I realized

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone
To make me feel alive
But then again
I wasn’t really living
I never lived before your love

I wanted more than
Just an ordinary life
All of my dreams
Seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you
And my heart is in
Your hands

And I don’t know how
I survived without your kiss
‘Cause you’ve given me
A reason to exist

Chorus

And I don’t know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me
Just in time

Chorus

yeah. so i guess I'll be off. may be back again. not feeling really good. been waiting all day. i guess i wasted my time. |: cya'll

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

i didnt blog yesterday. dunno sup with me nowadays. haf pretty large mood swings. and it just seems that pple keep poking my nerves of somesort. making me feel uneasy. uncomfortable. and upset. its absolutely not a good thing. typically. i was really [xiaoqi] haha. a lil' unlike me previously. hope everything turns better. and im like a clown. 4 goodness sake. i dun wanna be one. and for a whole lot of reasons. im turning towards vulgarities. be it. english ones. or even hokkien ones? its getting bad. argh- i need to shove those stuff in my head. deep in. so dat rotten things dun come out of my mouth. (: yeah. so today's entry is basically abt yesterday. (:

[yesterday]
i met with chenyaan at 9.20am. at dover. supposed to be at like 9.15. but according to her. she overslept. haha. and i met a dog on the way to dover. i freaked out. and HAD to get my maid out. i dislike dogs yeah. so i got my maid out. and she had to distract the dog. so i was really late. we were originally late for the meeting already. and we were even later. i was late at chenyaan's meeting. and we were late at Lusandra's meeting outside the library for like 40 minutes? its bad I'd say. ): we were really sorry. ): and to our surprise. Jade was late for like 50 minutes. wahahahahhahahahaha. (: and we decided to trick her. we said that we reached at 9.20. haha. and she was so sorry. and because my acting was just so not convincing. i got smacked hard on my back. ouch! haha. i kinda screamed. but its okay. well. its jade. u dun think she will stroke you yah? (: haha. so laters took 198. shld haf took the mrt. would be tons faster. but aw. we already took 198 yah? (: [been using italics alot] haha. everyone is. (: yeah. so laters. we reached jp. on the bus trip there. we were deciding wad to get 4 catherine. (: its her birthday on Tuesday. so we decided. (: haha. really quickly. i was feeling weird. seriously weird. [why do i always feel competition around the pple who seems really close?] was behaving weirdly i guess. and i was like such a bitch. and i was basically hollering at them. wtf. what made me ever resort to such [unruliness] |:

reached jp. checked out John Little. thought i heard huiqi said that they had an OP in john lil' haha. but they didnt. precisely. i malu-ed myself in front of four of them but that wasnt the worse. |: so we got Catherine's present. and den we were late. so we rushed back. (: haha. on the way. we sort out the money stuff. and den yeah. while we took 96 we were talking abt chinchew. yet again. (: haha. and discussing abt the cake issues. wonder wad would they think. |: but i guess its like too late now? to even order? oh well. at least we got a cake. pretty enuff. (: haha. so typically i was broke. so we were bound for school. upon reaching school. or lets say. when we reached school. saw the buffet. but decided we go shove the present in the lockers first. i was supposed to be decoy. but i guessed we didnt need one in the end. [sad] they shld've seen my power. so we went to eat buffet. (: haha. not bad actually. and den we went to hall to play. wahhahahahhahha. apparently. i became clown again. |: playing with trampoline. and hurt my shin. its shin i suppose. haha. very painful haha. quite fun actually. i smashed Jade with this piece of mattress and we ran away. haha. (: and yeah. it was time to go. (:

haha. so we sat our bus there. didnt like the pple in charge. ): preferred Mr. wads his name again? the guy who sweats alot. funny guy. guess its [chia] haha. (: anyways. i was crapping with Jade yet again. haha. and we got ponchos. i was so excited. haha. (: and den we were at Kallang. and caroline. no. its cherrylene. i suppose. she passed the 1 by 16 to lusandra and ended up with the frame on the wet ground. if that was on purpose. i reckon she isnt nice. |: well. i haven heard nice things abt her yet. so maybe my intuition brought me the wrong way. but. well. no offence. (: yeah. so got our frames. and made our way there. to our seats. den i gave lollipops. and i wanted to help opening the packet of stuff. and i ended up spilling it all over the floor. supposedly. i owe chenyaan an apology and just as i was abt to say sorry. she threw a biscuit at my lips or was that teeth and yelled bastard. being an easily agitated person. and bastard apparantly was my favourite word so i just screamed [kanina and fuck you] well. i was angry and nasty. and xiaoqi. couldnt bring myself to say sorry though. well. it was my bad. spilling the stuff on the floor. and shld i haf been feeling nastier. i would fight. [hey!] im turning towards violence. i really cant think properly now. think i shld consult some specialist. |: i was indeed childish. ): anyways. our pictures were really pretty and exceptionally awesome. but sad to say. our school crest wasnt made by us. and yeah. we made some other school's crest. aww. and we didnt get to see some of the pictures we made. ): haha. and i started this crap with jade abt shifu and tudi bullshit stuff. haha. and she kept cy as her tudi and dunwan me. ): i was sad. i think. but hopefully she was joking yah? haha. (: anyways. she wanted her jingyen really badly. and ate him up even though it dropped on the floor. okays. so it was abt 7+ when we left the stadium. bloated after eating Zinger burgers. but it good. there wasnt lettuce though. guess it would be cheaper that way. (: haha.

on the bus-ride back. i WAS possessed. and i upset the thunder pple. i suppose. i did. ): haha. well. i was possessed. and i may haf hurt them. |: i was clown. and possessed. and i was possessed. -screams. what was i doing? and [it is full moon. we need a sacrifice] haha. and Mr.Chin boarded our bus. it seems to be fate of some sort. haha. and we were teasing chenyaan. and i think she got unhappy. well. she seems to be. (: and we got to school. went with Jade to call. and went to find chenyaan. she went home liao. so i hung out with the netball girls. haha. and huiqi stole my glasses. haha. (: and i pleaded to get them back. (: haha. and i went home. was watching [the simple life] and [joe millionaire] wanted Linda to win. and i just realise that Cat and Linda were in the finals. haha. and Cat is catherine well. linda is her sister. haha. its a small world after all. (: take care ya'll. (: -chill.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-02T19:13:00.000+08:00

czech lost. czech lost means i lost my bet which is one buck. ): pretty sad. but when sweden lost. i was feeling so bad dat i even thought of crying. dun wanna recall the unpretty incident. ): haha. nowadays. everyone doesnt seem to blog. -wonders why. anyways. back to my story. haha. yeah. so i went to school and the first thing guoping said to me was that greece won. -sad haha. yeah. so miss soh came in. and there was this announcement abttchers going to a meeting. and tadah. we skipped 2 lessons. and awfully. both were my favourites. english and P.E. haha. my favourites! haha. i slacked around. and had some joking around. haha. yeah. i will do this in brief. wanna watch [xi ling men] whahahahahhahaha. (: um. yeah. so i was slacking around. and den it was science. still free period. mdm sabrina wasnt feeling well. ): she is a nice person! haha. yeah. so it was recess. we played swing. haha. -weird. and den went up. took SYF tickets to slow time for the test. haha. yeah. so me and chenyaan walked really slowly. haha. like really slowly. and had the test. quite all right actually. i didnt really study so it was pretty okay. (: and um. we crapped and did stuff. haha. dun feel like typing somehow. feel really irritated with my brother. |: yeah. so after school. played with 1/12 boys soccer. really fun! haha. i think its nice. although they wanted a serious game. i gave my best to play seriously. haha. quite fun! (: take care all. im done with today! haha. smile! chill-

[y4n|!n9]

2004-07-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

wow. amazing. astonishly. today went pretty well. haha. morning was raining pretty heavily. It started off so well. Holland lost to Portugal. hahahaha. 2-1. and the 1 they got was own goal. haha. i was so happy and i sms-ed huiqi. haha. die-hard holland fan yah? but they were lucky enuff to win the swedes already. shouldnt expect too much. (: wahahhahahhaha. so that lightened my mood. but i was still wondering was happened to my alarm. was supposed to wake up at like 4.45 to watch the match but it didnt ring. aww. haha. (: go went to school. was pretty late. and i did some stuff. haha. wonder what i did. haha. and mr. seow came in. oh. today was NCC day. haha. yeah. and it was literature. listened to miss wong a lil' haha. and i started reading the book itself. haha. not bad actually. haha. yeah. and den it was math. The subject i absolutely dread. i am starting to dislike math ever since Patrick came to teach. its like a total chore for me to just simple listen. its like a pretty unachievable task to just listen to him now. it seems. so i crapped with seowchian. and i didnt get scolded. whee. haha. (: so it was recess. and jade and cy said dun go swing. so we ate. we ate rice. ryan was nice enuff to let us cut queue. haha. ate some 1.30 stuff. and yeah. and went to play scrabble. was a real funny game. chenyaan always give crap words. and at the end she managed to find a word AXN and XI connectedly. dunno if u guys actually understand but. (: haha. its pretty funny. but they werent laughing. /:

haha. and then it was chinese. ashnita had her talk. and i was wondering what i shld talk abt. i am either going to talk abt [sweden] or [sheeps] well. their the stuff i love. lots yah? haha. gonna decide. i haf to anyways. haha. (: well. if i talk abt sweden. The guys will make a fuss and would not listen. -wonders sweden isnt that bad yah? they are good actually. (: whee. haha. hmm. so we went on with lessons. caught talking once. not that bad actually. haha. yeah. so lessons went on. and b4 he gave out the ws[s]. the bell rang. whee. its history. still uninteresting. /: catherine asked me why her husband can actually stand her. i answered that maybe. just maybe she was good in bed. fine. i am a lil' sick. haha. and den i started drawing my friend. (: haha. i had nothing much to do yah? haha. and i cut it out and pasted it on the wall. haha. i stared at him. or her. whats her gender? aww. i didnt really made it clear. /: haha. yeah. so history. we did some crap. what was that we did? went thru the worksheet and paxson was supposed to get married with haiming. haha. her jokes arent really funny anyways. after her was miss betty ong. she is sweet. haha. did comprehension. learnt a lil' new words. well. i am always learning in her lessons. she just makes it relly enjoyable. whee. haha. dawei seriously haf funny expressions. wahhahahahhaha. really funny. laughed a lot. and i think vivian was sick. she was shivering. and ronnie was so mean to say she got thundershock. well. she is the thunderwoman. but quite funny. (: -smiles. dun get offended. (: and yeah.

we went to swing. and we played so many weird stuff. as in we tried 2 pple on a double rope entangle. haha. me and chenyaan. fun. and den i tried with jade. and den we tied another additional rope to it. makes 3 ropes for 3 pple. haha. and there wasnt relly enuff space. and i was kinda stuck. haha. and we tried twice with 4 ropes all tied together. new experiences. and the harder jobs were on jade. haha. well. she IS the daredevil. (: haha. um. yeah. so it was geography. mr. yeo made a hell lot of jokes with paxson. i kept laughing. and my friend was gone. he/she left me. ): haha. and i was playing with the ink. and my david was ruined. haha. and um. mr. yeo was funny. and i was laughing. haha. den it was music. lend silk my english yellow file. haha. kana scolded. gawd. im turning bad. ): haha. we did some weird stuff. i dun listen 2 pple bragging abt stuff. supposedly art. dat it so intricate that i dun understand. so we went to jp. (:

the four pple. me. chenyaan. catherine and lusandra went to jp. to get a gift. haha. and we ate long john. they didnt really eat. i was the one eating. haha. (: i ate lots. -fat ): haha. den went to get gift. browse. crapped. and such. all those shopping stuff. and catherine bought stone chocolates for like 6 bucks. real expensive. and den went home. really like the gift i got. i hope she likes it. haha. (: take care ya'll. tomorrow will be a better day. (: and czech will win tonight. haha. tomorrow will be pretty! haha. cya.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

woah. today was weird. haha. plenty of funny stuff. and i went a lil' mad. (: haha. so it all started. woke up. went 2 school. was raining rather heavily. (: haha. no singing national anthemn and such. whee. (: haha. and they were all talking abt Holland and Portugal match. still mad ovee the Sweden match. The swedes could haf won. something just went wrong. but they still did well. haha. (: okay. so now. basically. my entire class of boys hate sweden. (: for the reason that i love them. its not exactly fair. dunno what's their philosophy anyways. haha. (: haha. so i kinda joined in. didnt like holland. or netherlands. ): haha. so think portugal will win. want them to win. haha. dun like holland. one way or another. haha. yeah. so sexy soh came in. and started the reading crap. crapped with seowchian. and soh was pretty angry. but a person like me would care. Thus. i didnt care. haha. yeah. so it was english at the start. miss ong's lesson. not that bad lah. haha. 4got wad we did. i think some journal stuff. haha. yeah. and then it was P.E. haha. say got take weight. in the end. nvr. false alarm. but lucky yah? ate 5 bazhang's last night. haha. guess how heavy will i be? (: haha. yeah. and after P.E. we had P.W. went to com lab. and watched some weird stuff. in no time. was recess. went to play swing. while waiting for Jade. haha. its fun! haha. today played quite all right. haha. quite nice actually. a few injuries. still. Injuries love me. finally found something that loves me. i feel blessed. loved. haha. not exactly a good thing. haha. and yeah. went back to class. it was science. i kinda like mdm sabrina. pretty cool person. haha. yeah. and we did stuff. science stuff. and laters proceeded to the art room. obviously for art. haha. (:

i am beginning to dislike art. and its probably because of mooney. so i kinda went mad during lessons. and i didnt really listen. and cause he saw me attempting to cut Edwin's leg hair. as he provoked me. haha. it was abt sweden. so i got really angry. haha. not really lah. so wanted to cut his hair. and moony called me. didnt know the answer. had to stand for like 30 minutes. wah lao. i was abt to faint. and did some art crap. haha. den we went for SYF. haha. xinyi told me to go sit with the nb pple. got nothing to lose. so went. haha. i was absolute mad. and i was pretty much a pervert. haha. and they were all disgusted and wanted to smack me. haha. (: haha. went back. sat with Jade. and again i went mad. really mad. haha. was fighting with Foyang. haha. and stuff. okay. so yeah. abt it. haha. take care ya'll cya. thankew for the tags. -hugs!

[`Swede_y4n|!n9]

2004-06-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

already 2 days. didnt feel like blogging. Nowadays. having limited control over the computer. I haf to get my priorities straight yah? (: haha. so today. new timetable. seems like a new beginning for everything. (: pretty cool. yeah so. went to school early. need to find out abt hw. and did the hw. (: haha. so. i got a bookmark and a campino from catherine. real sweet. (x haha. yeah. and it was raining pretty heavily so. haha. yeah. and um. pple are still fussing lots abt my hair. okay. i haf to make this clear yah? its already snipped off. and whether it sucks anot. i dun care. whats dun cant be undone. and supposedly. stop those teasing. U're getting on my nerves!! haha. yeah. so i went to class with Ashnita. and yeah. we saw Jade. and she was asking whether we bought our chinese tbs. (: haha. yeah. so everything started. crap crap crap. okay. i feel like sleeping now. at its 8. i dunno wads happening. pretty pathetic. I'll live thru this. dun worry. =S I live like this all along. (: funny stuff happened. we destroyed raichu. hope he doesnt come haunting me. had netball. was P.T. somehow we felt we did excess work. nvm. been practicing oral. and i mean oral as in. speaking english. (: haha. yeah. so fed up with myself. Czech must win the Euros. haha. (: frantic for my hair to grow back. GROW! haha. take care ya'll. I will find the mood yah? um. tomorrow got flashcard. ): would be boring. see ya'll.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-27T12:46:00.000+08:00

[Heartbroken]
I am absolutely heartbroken. my heart is shattered into many many pieces. uncountable pieces. i slept at 12. woke up at 2. just to see your match. [Sweden v.s. Netherlands] This was the first time i ever watch a soccer match so much early in the morning. I really wanted to see you guys win. ): but.. I woke up at 2am. waited to lets say 2.35am. when they started singing the national songs. i was delighted. i believed that sweden stood a chance. I believed that they did haf a chance to turn the tables and win. All said Holland was good. Holland would win. I thought otherwise. I loved Sweden. (: I believed in them. The match started. I watched it excitedly. Every now and then. pausing to pray. i really wanted them to win. (: Sweden and Holland seemed to be more on the defence mode. and sweden seemed to haf no chance to attack at all. Thruout the half-time, full time and extra time. Sweden got a couple of chances to attack. Twice. The ball retaliated as it hit the goal post. i was cursing the Dutch basically. i really wanted the Sweds to win. Stam from holland was a pretty good defender. and he had a chance to shoot. He kinda missed it by a little. (: luckily. Holland had pretty much chances to attack. Ruud Van Nistelrooy had like 4 chances. and thankfully he missed ALL of them. wahahhahahahha. Netherlands had a goal. but it wasnt counted in. [thank god] thanks to Van Nistelrooy's offside. (: haha. maybe he is off-form. but he really didnt seem half as good as others said he was. (: Larsson was better. Henrik Larsson was much better. he did tackle. but Stam was so tall! and Larsson was pretty much short. so he couldnt really do much. he had this chance. and the ball HAD to hit the goalpost. it was really wasted. I think that Isaksson did well. he was the goal keeper. and he defended a couple of goals. There were lotsa injuries. ): and Sweden had a couple of good players not on the game. die to injuries or some weird stuff. maybe internal conflicts. but i dun think so. (: its sweden!! haha. (:

They had no goals after half time. full time and extra time. its still 0-0. Sweden HAD a chance against the Dutch. they didnt even got trashed. and basically they could haf won. but they just didnt haf the luck. ): but i couldnt say that Netherlands had much luck either. They were pretty unlucky too. and it was off to Penalties. i hated penalties. it made england lose. ): but i wasnt much of an england fan. I'm more for Sweden yah? first shot of Sweden. its by Kallstrom if im not wrong. It went in. and i was so happy and i ran all over the place. I was then reminded it was the penlaties. Second shot was by Vanistelrooy. The ball was quick. Isaksson dived the right side but was slow. ): its okay. still draw. (: next up. Larsson. No reason why he shld miss. and indeed he didnt. (: i loved Larsson. (: haha. yeah. pretty ball in. i was very very happy too. Next up from the Netherlands is. i dunno who. but he got it in. ): and later on. was Zlatan Ibrahimovic. I knew there was something wrong with him. It didnt seem right. and he blast the ball over the bar. and i was shocked. absolutely. Sweden now seemed to lost all hope. i was terrified. i was so scared. and my stomach needs some relieving. ): and Netherlands den got his goal in. It was now. 3-2. heartbroken. i thought all hope was gone. Next up. Sweden luckily got it in. (: but still no hope. ): and then Cocu. he hit the post and out the ball went. i was screaming for joy. and i woke up all my parents. i was so happy. i could nvr haf been happier. i was screaming yelling. whatsoever. (: i was happy. Sweden is filled with hope again!!! whee. and yeah. so the score ended at 4-4. after having 5 penalties each. now. it was Mellberg. he played pretty well. so i wasnt really worried. but still praying hard. and Van Der Saar. just happened to dive the correct side. and they didnt get it in. i was so so so so so so disappointed. They missed it. They are going to be out of the Euros. and Robben goaled. okay. no more for Sweden.

i sat there. i was totally shocked. after so so SO long. they just haf to be sent packing like England. its so unfair. Seriously. Sweden could haf won. their skills were on par. They did haf a chance. it was not like Brazil with China. it was 2 groups at the same level. and they actually lost due to penalty shoot-outs. and penalties are by luck! its so not fair. i was totally heart-broken. and i couldnt move. i was sad. i was depressed. gawd. They did play all right. but they were short of luck. ): den i went 2 sleep. couldnt get to sleep all day. i could haf cried. )': there will be a next time for sweden. (: when i woke up. i couldnt feel my right arm. i slept on my hand i supposed. and no blood could flow. so i couldnt feel anything. i used my left arm to raise my right arm. and i thought it was someone elses'. and it just dropped. woah. i had to hold it steady. and den blood flowed. and it was fine. (: i thought abt Sweden again. that left me sad. once again. its all right. there will be a nice time. ): take care ya'll. cya.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-26T15:45:00.000+08:00

everything is swirling now. [weird.] i dun want everything to turn out this way. i wanna smile and laugh and stop cursing. i wanna stop vulgarities!! i dun wanna change. i guess i am sick once again. Hope that i can skip a few lessons in school. I got my SSA [severe stomach ache] once again. but this time i guess its cramp. i think it pretty common yah? but i am feeling really sick. My eyes are so tired. and my head is heavy and falling. collasping already! haha. (: i am currently whining to Xinyi. abt how xinku i feel. haha. and thankew Catherine for the RSVP stuff. better get started on my homework. but in this condition. i can get nowhere. haha. yeah.

my world. the world that i haf built with my own hands. seemed to collasp. going to. about to. already. its bad enuff yah? its like a bubble that is about to be burst. and i cant help it. i can only watch it. just burst and gone. [sighs] I'd still try yah? (: haha. anyways. today had match. haha. pretty fun! haha. i liked it. fine. i only played one quarter. but its good enuff yah? (: and i think i didnt do THAT badly. haha. and i managed not to really smile. and thankew Kaiyan and all to jia you me yah? i got a couple of obstructions. but haha. im a defender. its rather common yah? and i ran like mad. haha. after that. when to Tiong Bahru Market. wah kao eh. the food sucks!! haha. totally. BIG TIME yah? the chao kuai diao is not reacting with my stomach acids. wah. very pain! haha. nvm. take care ya'll. needs some rest le! cya.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

when all is down. and all hope seems gone. why does it only seem that Adeline is there? to listen to me. to hear me scream. to see me cry. why is she the only one. being the only one- as a matter of fact. its good already. at least i know im not alone. at least i realise that there is someone else. dere for me. giving me a shoulder to cry on- Adeline. i dedicate this entry to you! (and i'm not a lesbian) you make me learn lots of things. made me smile and all. you were there for me at the happiest times of my life. and the worst. when i was heartbroken. you were there. when i wanted to cry. you were there. even when u are not. somehow. i see u there. (: its like a glimpse of hope. its special. unique. you made me change my point of view against certain stuff. stuff that i nvr would imagine to change my views on. Used to think life was simple. u made it change. (: its good. now i know. what this world is actually like. its not as simple as it was. the young innocent me. nvr knew anything. but i loved the way my life went the other time. back then. when it all happened. (: thankew Adeline. maybe without you. my life just would not be the same. when i pick up the phone and i need someone to talk to. the first person i dawn upon is you. and i seriously am not a lesbian. haha. you are my sister. my friend- a nice friend. that i want for my entire life. If there was ever a day that i hate you. maybe its the day i get sent to a mental hospital yah? (: haha. thankew for everything. you haf shown me the world. a side of it i nvr knew. (: Thankew-

Adeline told me- [life is a mystery. i's fer fate to noe and destiny to decide..(:] its pretty true. i replied. [life is pretty complicated. pretty in depth and intricate.
just like a piece of fine art that i would never understand.] haha. so maybe i was just trying to use big words. cause i dun even know what it means right now. haha. i seem to prefer it back den. who i was. and who they are. now that it has all changed. I'm not exactly sure whether i like it. whether i prefer it this way. maybe i've changed. or maybe seriously. i haven know them well enough to say I've changed. maybe i bcame a meaner person. i lazier person. i dunno what has gotten into me. but it seems to differ now. everybody seems to be troubled now and then. it seems like everybody's heart is broken as England lost. They're out of the Euros. [what is this world coming to?] i ask myself. [when will i know this answer to the question?] i ask again. [will i live to know the truth.]

i came across this newspaper article while trying to get my homework done. a life was took away. due to carelessness. it wasnt meant to be. It was careless. and they cant get another chance to live life once again. How heartless would it be. For your life to be lost. and nvr come back. That you wouldnt haf any other chances to continue breathing. to continue to understand the beauty of the world. to get to know the answer of everything. One day. when u walk across the road. you may die. when u walk in the rain. You may get striked by lightning. When you walk down the stairs. you may fall to your death. when you eat some food. you may choke to death. You may die. ANYTIME. ANYWHERE. so we shld give ourselves the best that we can. the authority to make our lives the way it was suppose to be. The way we want it to be. WIth determination. perserverance. and a lil' confidence. maybe our life can be much more comforting. much more luxurious. take care ya'll. ya'll need it. Its a matter of life and death. so pls. take care of yourselves. i may seem to be [xiao ti da zhuo]-ing. but i may be certain. If they can die in such a manner. There is no reason. why can't we. so you guys shld really take care. i would never want to see you not talking to me again. (: chill.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-25T15:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday. had such a LONG and exhausting. weary. tiring day. i was so lethargic and feeling so bad. and down. my stomach kept having effects on me. it was relly bad. and I couldnt get it straight whether i was actually hungry. or was i full. wahhahahahhahaa. yeah. so i was playing gb in the morning. haha. yeah. and i rushed to school cause i was kinda late as i planned. and honestly. i really rushed. so i sped to the bus-stop. haha. opposite dover. i took 147. and walked relly quickly. haha. and yeah. everyone is walking too. thus meaning that i wasnt late at all. was sweating pretty much. and met Jade along the path to Nan Hua. so walked with her to school compound. haha. and she had slurpie. and i didnt like Slurpie. but since i was so warm. i decided to take a sip. haha. didnt want to take another. so i bought [Pink Dolphin] for myself. wahhahahaha. yeah. and so. we went for Flashcard. oh! it was SO tiring. i have nvr wanted to sleep so much in my whole entire life b4. as i remembered. haha. yeah. i was absolutely dead-out. haha. yeah. precisely. the whole process was boring. absolutely. totally! AHHH. but the good thing was i could meet WeiLing. haha. she still looks the same. haha. pretty and all. and she keep saying her legs are fat. well. i think we still haf some [yuan fen] as to meet each other at such occasions. pretty cool eh? haha. (: yeah. anyways. we crapped with some Fajarians. at the stadium. Thank gawd. They are there, without them i would like totally be dying already. The whole entire thing was so boring. and i was like whining all the way. dat i didnt want the 2 CCA points. haha. yeah. and me and Jade malu-ed ourselves. haha. we were supposed to be sequence 10. but we kinda raised our sheets at sequence 6. and it was like only 2 of us. haha. so malu. yeah.

but it was pretty funny. yeah. and on the bus-trip there. i kept talking abt [TWO] haha. yeah. guess only Jade knows abt that. haha. yeah. so we went home at night. [pretty late] Lets say like 7 plus. yeah. i was feeling weird. so i decided to call my dad up and ask him to send me home yah? and being forever so sweet. he agreed. haha. so he picked me up and i bathed and slept. and for the record. i only had a cheese bun for the day. wahhahahahhaha. (: yeah. and i went home. Tried to get some homework done. but to no avail. aww. haha. yeah. and i slept pretty early. haha. yeah. and when i was bathing. well. bathing time is always. reflection time. i realise. that pple around me are changing. They are changing in such a speed that i seem that i cant keep up with. I am like trying my best to. But I'm just lagging behind. I'm rather certain dat they are changing. some for the better and some for the not so good. but i cant do anything. It is not as though i am in such a rush to grow up. I wanna enjoy life as it is. I dun wanna rush things. and i just want nature to take its course. If its the way things meant to be. den let it be. why are pple changing in large scale. They are changing so much that i realise i dun know them anymore. I dun like them anymore. I haf a not so good and dislikable feeling against them which i nvr had. i haf no idea. wads happening right now. but hopefully time will tell. (: haha.

today. i woke up. my brother is going for his swimming test on bronze. which is held early in the morning. haha. yeah. so i reached school like abt 8.40? dats pretty early for me. but some of the people were already there. haha. (: yeah. so i slacked around. ate some sausages. and i decided to get some homework done. and throughout the whole netball practice. while we were watching teh film and taking breaks. i was sitting there. busily doing my article reviews. haha. this is the first day i haf started on homework. haha. yeah. and whee. i finished all 15 of them. and i am exceptionally proud of myself. (: as this time could be wasted if i just slacked around. and i made the best out of it. still having the weird stomach problem. haha. and head is a lil' heavy now. ): haha. yeah. so maybe i will take a lil' rest later yah? haha. anyways. after that. slacked around at KFC. haha. yeah. so heard some rumours. think i will tell some pple abt it. haha. (: well. gossips are supposed to be spread aren't they? haha. yeah. anyways. take care ya'll. chill. and smile! haha.

p.S. gonna change my layout soon. haha. again. (: haha. yeah. and England lost. sad. haha. wanted them to win. but. Beckham really sucks. haha. (:

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

originally had no intentions to update blog. But i will just update (: haha. had a relly weird dream last night. No need for me to tell the dream. I already forgot half of it. But in my memory. There goes something like rape. and the rapist didnt rape me. haha. raped my fren[s]. haha. yeah. cause i clever. saw something suspicious and den run very fast. haha. run away and leave my frens dere. dats relly evil yah? haha. but i dun wanna be raped. haha. its like im getting seriously paraniod against stuff. I used to be not afraid of flashers. rapists. molesters. and such. but now im like a weakling and all. yeah. who cares btw. its not as if i dun know [kung-fu] yah? haha. there was once in my primary school where they had this relly weird stuff happening. haha. we had to learn [kung-fu] yeah. so i picked up some skills. didnt relly practice. but haha. i think I'll manage. okay. so today would be having [flashcard] relly relly wanna meet weiLing. its been like forever since we last met. and i dun wanna it to be forever. haha. so i wanna meet her yah? would be cool. yeah. so i think I'll just slack around and do some other stuff. WHEE! germany is out. But sweden would be facing Holland. die le lah! ): haiz. nvm. at least they qualified for second round. whee. haha. take care ya'll. Bye!

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

What a day I had today. (: haha. woke up at like 8.15 when i am supposed to at 8am. my hp alarm was ringing like mad. and it snoozed a couple of times. i didnt even heard it. Guessed dat i was really too tired to do anything else. except sleep. ): and i haven started on my homework. Nowadays. I have been worrying alot. worrying at stuff dat I haf nvr thought of worrying abt. ITs pretty weird buy i relly cant do anything much abt it. ): haha. sad eh? today i reached school like 9plus. and passed wingkin the math papers. (: im nice yah? haha. yeah. and den training started. Today Miss He nvr come. ): haha. and we ran like for 20 minutes in circles. its was pretty tiring. as in. i dunno why. i dun like to run within the school compound. it makes me feel weird and pretty sick. so i was a lil' tired. and we did some other stuff. Not going to go in detail. and then there was some confusion. ): sad stuff aint supposed to be mentioned. but all of us knows it yah? and so we changed for the better I supposed. haha. (: yeah. and we had pizza. i was very kanchiong. cause i wanted the [meat lovers] one. haha. got pepperonni! i like it lots. (: it tastes well. yeah. and so we ate and den slacked for 2 entire hours. it seems like chelsea and kaiyan haf something going on. dat all of us dun know abt. Its pretty scary as we discussed. and we dun wanna be relly glowing lightbulbs btwn them. (: We are considerate pple yah? yeah and so. yini keeps provoking Bun. haha. she was wearing full pink suit. scary huh? and it was relly tight. and i keep playing with Xinyi's phone. haha. im professional photographer. (:

haha. after school. i decided to go JRL with xinyi. she was relly kelian. and i didnt wanna go home alone. so i went with her. got my dad's permission. but i was pathetically broke after feasting on those cheesy sausages. yeah. and we went there. and she saw her frens. but being nice. she hang out with me. (: haha. yeah. so we did some hw at first. but we got relly thirsty. wanted to change some coins. ended up in NTUC. buying stuff instead. and i'm like so bloated. haha. and we crapped alot alot. and i was laffing like mad! haha. yeah. and we went to find a toilet. ended up seeing some micro stuff thingys. and we kinda played with it at the machine. and we were kinda confronted. and den went home. haha. (: okay. so im done. with the stuff. cya next time. byebye. (:

[[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

whoo. I've been slacking pretty much lately. Not wanting to blog. today i better haf some concentration. (: haha. yeah. so. i dun think i would blog abt Genting. cause its like already a few days b4. and i haf like told everyone around me abt the trip. (: haha. but just for those who didnt know. dere was some pretty moments. (: We met some weird people.

Mr. Fatty Yellow-shirt
absolutely sissy. He walks like a gay. dats so horrible. with his hands flopping around. like those prostitudes at Hotel 81 when they go [tao yan] and shows dat kinda hand to the man. brr! absolutely horrible. but pretty funny. and He is like a bouncy piece of fat laying around. not pretty at all.

Next..
The Guy At The Bumper Cars
He shakes like Ricky Martin when he gets bumped. brr! scary. haha. funny too.

The [ZHao Cai MAo]
haha. shakes his hand like a [zhao cai mao] while walking. (: every minute or so. whahahahahhaha. mad guy.

yeah. i guess dats abt all. weird behaviours. but funny yah? haha. so thats all for Genting. (: aww. next time.

hmm. so today had the [Flashcard] held at Kallang. i was telling Jade that i wanted to go Padang and sneak into LP's concert. i want to go see them rock SIngapore. that would be like so cool. and it would be the BIGgest event of the year. aw. being broke is like worst thing. yeah. and so it was flashcard. went to school. met Liuli and Catherine. glad that everything was over already. no more hating and such. pretty good eh? (: haha. yeah. and so we talked abt homework. really worried. found that they were like TONS of homework. I'm like so dead. ): aw. anyways. after that Jade came. and den i gave out my chewing gum. and we were off to the bus to the stadium. oh yeah. with 2/2. haha. and chenyaan gave Jade her birthday present. (: it was a swatch watch. i was like SO shocked. and i was filled with plain enviness dat i couldnt speak. couldnt talk at all. couldnt think straight. its pure envious. and trying not to show it. i shift myself into another topic. and many times in the day we did get to the topic of the watch. but its okay. I'm sure someone would gimme a nice present too yah? no need to be so sad. haha. [satisfaction] [satisfaction] dun be greedy. Greed is not good. wahahhahahahaha. Fine. and being troubled abt the presents. as to wad to give. and there were minute problems dat i didnt want to raise. as i dun really want the issues to blow up. resulting in big squabbles and pple being upset and unhappy.

Yeah. so off we went. To Kallang. The Sun was scorching me. forcing the water inside of me out. I perspired so much dat my whole shirt was wet. and i kinda stank. haha. the process was tiring and i cant wait to just go home and lie on my bed and sleep. but i held on. and i pulled thru. feeling pretty tired though. flipping those cards and such. haha. it wasnt really hard. BUt it was not really fun. and i didnt like sitting under the sun. since im like burnt already. dun wanna be even darker. For the sake of my 2 CCA points. I'd do anything (: haha. yeah. and there wasnt food at all. They didnt gimme the food. in the end. i stole from Louis. wahhahahahha. me and chenyaan. we ate the sausage. whoo. good! haha. yeah. and we went to celebrate Jade's birthday at Cineleisure. (: haha.

we took taxi to Kallang Mrt after alighting from teh bus at a somewhere we didnt know bus-stop. haha. yeah. and we took to Somerset. both of them didnt believe me it was somerset. especially Chenyaan. i was so familiar. so familiar dat i couldnt be wrong. haha. i've been there twice. and my memory isnt failing me so quickly all right. haha. and i convinced her. and we alighted at Somerset and proceeded to Cineleisure for some pasta at PastaMania. haha. had some creamy chicken. actually wanted to haf Beef Bolognese. but dunno why. wnated chicken. so ate creamy chicken. Jade and cy shared. while i had my plate of creamy chicken all to Myself. had such a hard time stuffing myself with the cream. it was extremely creamy after adding like almost all the cheese they supplied in their Lil' container in my plate of pasta. woah. had a hard time. but i relly stuffed. (: and i finally finished it. (: haha. without help from jade or cy. haha. and den we browsed some shops. haha. and den took some neoprints. It was relly fun! haha. relly fun. we took like 3 times. and we had this black stuff clinging onto our neoprints on the first 2 tries. but we got like 3 bucks refunded. so it was rather okay. haha. yeah. Jade seemed abit reluctant. BUt she said she was okay with it. and since cy and I wanted to take. so we took. wahahahhahahaha. It was relly funny! haha. relly funny!! okay. chill a lil' myself. um. yeah. so walked around heerens. hanged around HMV. listened to [accidentally in love] that song is like faB. and yeah. heard a few hits like [away from the sun] [here without you] [i believe in a thing called love] and some other stuff i cant remember. 3 doors down is good.

yeah. i tried some songs of Hoobastank. not that bad. iT seems like [underneath] haven been out in Singapore yet. haha. tempted to buy [borrowed Heaven] [away from the sun] [the reason] [dead letters] [Songs abt Jane] [II] [Under My Skin] and such. haha. as if i had the money. i still owe Jade lik 4 bucks. gawd. and i ate a chocolate chip cookie. it was awesome. it was sweet! haha. nice. and yeah. anyways. Here is something for the Birthday Girl today.

[Happy Birthday Jade]
haha. felt like giving you your birthday wishes here for a couple of reasons. First. to malu you. second. To let pple know abt your birthday. haha. [u could get more presents] haha. (; yeah. so. here it goes.

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Jade!
Happy Birthday to you!!
(:

haha. Best Regards from yours truly yanling. (: haha. take care lots. Drink lotsa water. Grow up yah? 14 years old liao. A year Older liao. dun so [xiao hai zi] and dun anyhow smack pple. [it can help save lives] (: haha. and dun fight with me since you are older. You must learn to let the younger people yah? and lemme win when i quarrel with you! haha. anyways. Thank you for being the best that a fren can be. For being so sweet most of the time. haha. and for being so understanding. For cheering me up when i'm down. For letting me know dat I am not relly pathetic. For letting me know stuff dat i once didnt know. FOr everything. (: Thankew. haha. yeah. and I haven got your present. I'm bad. But i would get it soon yah? You're a nice person. and we'll all learn to treasure you. SO. here. right now. I wish that u would haf a nice and happy birthday. despite I being unable to help u celebrate your birthday. to give u a proper birthday cake and such. For being unable to sing you a proper birthday song. sorry! BUt i still wish that you would make the best. Be the most happy person u can be in the lil' hours you haf left on this special day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADE!

haha. yeah. so im done with that. (: haha. yeah. and okay. so i gotta run right now. dun wanna continue stretching the stuff. haha. okay! so take care ya'll chill. byebye!

2004-06-21T19:39:00.000+08:00

what a day I had. I'm seriously polluted. dirtyfied. im like. woah. polluted already. really really polluted. now im haf such profound thoughts abt stuff i used to never know. stuff that i used to be unable to reach and to understand. is this the feeling of growing up. but insist on saying this. [the stuff dat i reached is not exactly clean?] its relly not good at all. i shut up now. hafta do some other stuff! cya

2004-06-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

4 long days. in somewhere dat isnt home. somewhere in Malaysia. i was in Genting for 3 days. and spend a day somewhere named [Port Dickson] The trip can be desribed by many words. Fun. happy. exciting. hilarious. amazing. horrible. painful. pathetic. digusted. new. 10 words in all. each having a different meaning. right. its all relevant. aw. seriously. am i gonna use one blog entry to cover up for 4? its kinda too much eh? so i aint gonna blog too much. just some funny ones. haha. really had a good trip and maybe not so good. haha. yeah.

[DAY 1]
went to Port Dickson. woah. it has changed. in large scale. its totally different. far more gorgeous den it EVER was. the toilet is like TONS better. haha. and its like much better. haha. yeah. and on the trip dere. we saw cows. whoo. haha. beautiful stuff. (: its relly pretty ya'll know. haha. especially when those semi-liquid stuff dropped from their ass. haha. you've guessed it. it IS shit. haha. and the lift their tails up. in order for it not to be dirtied yah? and throughtout the trip. i was singing and singing. singing [Somewhere only we know] singing. [smells like funk] haha. i managed to get this song in Xianzu's head while he got [somewhere only we know] in mine. haha. and we had our lunch. it was good. unexpectly. Malaysian stuff nvr get me anywhere. (: hah. and we ate these new kinda humps. it was pretty good. extraordinary in fact. (: haha. yeah. and so we ended up in Port Dickson. i didnt have a good feeling abt it at first. in the state in was in the previous few times i visited the place. it was disastrous. haha. but it felt pretty good in the end. haha. tried lotsa new stuff. yeah. and we went swimming. haha. and within an hour. xianzu spoilt 3 goggles. good thing he need not pay for it. coz 2 of them are found. haha. we picked 'em up. and one of which which belonged to yours truly was [thank god] repaired. and fixed. haha. (: dats a good thing. and Wenzong was so mad abt alex. and we had this [i hate you] thing going on! haha. funny. and XIanZu just HAD to talk abt McBEth. and i wouldnt dare sleep. so i forced wenzong and xianzu to let me sleep between them. haha. and being so nice. they allowed. whee. haha. yeah. and b4 we slept we ate mangosteen. first time yah? pretty good. gave me a bad stomach though. grr! hate bad stomach. hate hate. haha. OH YEAH. and we saw crabs by the beach. tiny ones. pretty view. god damn scary. haha. screaming the hell out. haha. yeah. so scary. haha. funny though. and we saw [Malaysian Idol] on t.v. gawd. haha. wad is this world coming to? haha. (: and we went to Tennis Court. haha. and we played volleyball. with a beach ball. and xianzu told us the [gou le] [wo lei le] joke. funny! haha.

dats for a day. and im pretty tired right now. and i have lotsa stuff to do. and my frens want me to do stuff. reply Adeline's letter. first thing! and den play gb with Kaiyan. fully planned. haha. so i will continue next time yah? CHILL. See ya'll soon. Missed you guys lots. haha. t/c. I will be back! whee. haha.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

im feeling relly weird now. its like i morphed into a totally absolutely different person and all. and its not entirely a good thing. people around me haf changed so much. and dat kinda seems dat its inclusive of me. i haf this feeling dat i cant wait to grow up. dat i haf to keep up with the pace the others are growing up in. i dun wanna be left behind. be left alone. i am relly different now. im like a really really [hua chi] person now. and i dun understand why im like so INTO hunks. into guys. its relly getting so evil. i feel so stirred up inside me. so weird. so juggled. i feel so bad certain times. and i just cant help it. i just think of who i am now. and NO. i aint satisfied at all. its like a whole completely girl i am now. and i wanna be myself. i wanna return to where i was. where i used to be so happy and couldnt be bothered by what pple ever thought of me. to where i was pleased with myself. and when pple are forever so sweet. im like changing. and it all doesnt seem comfortable. doesnt even seem good at all.

i am like so bad now. and i get so fustrated so easily. and whatever pple says. good or bad. they just make me boil. they just make me upset and irritated. i didnt use to be so short-tempered. so easily agitated. but nowadays. i became like dat. its as though i can accept stuff as easily now. i am beginning to hold on so tightly dat i forgot dat letting go is something good and essential. and im like so different. if my mum used to nag. i'll just breathe and let it go. and now i take it so hard. SO hard dat i feel like everything is so wrong and unfair. its like so bad. its getting on bad. i'm living a life dat i dun intend to live. and i want it better. i wanna make the best out of my life. i want to. seriously. but i am changing. and under which circumstances i do not know. and what would be the end product. i haf simply no idea at all. im like becoming a somebody dat i dun even understand. and dat i dunno. and i dun wanna know. im becoming such a bitch. getting pissed at myself for no concrete reasoning at all. and i actually feel like beating up my dad when i asked him something and he didnt answer me. its all coming to a pathetic end. i want this to end. i want school to start. i wanna be who i was. and not wad i am now. im like. so upset with myself. aww!

anyways. its like 6 hours more till we'll be off to Genting. (: getting pretty excited but i haf no intentions of wanting to sleep yet. xianzu and wenzong came. haha. and they are taking the same car as we as. and we are going a day ahead of the others. haha. (: yeah. and xianzu actually forgot to bring his passport and they went back. haha. yeah. and i told them to buy stuff for me. haha. they will be back so. anyways. pple pls wish me luck for tomorrow. haha. i wanna go there and let GO. whee. and breathe. wahhahahaha. pple take care when im not around. haha. do miss me! haha. byebye. chill.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-16T17:45:00.000+08:00

whoo. this is my 100th entry. whee. haha. yeah. and its like 9 more hours to Genting. so pathetic. wahhahahahahhaha. and i checked out some hunks. (: haha. and i saw this guy on T.V. his name is James. got a girl already. and she is hot too. haha. perfect couple. so if u guys might wanna check 'em out? haha. they are relly sweet! (:

yeah. they are from fear factor. and they ARE like wonderful. haha. he is hot. she is too. haha. (: sweet. aww. going to Genting in like 9 hours. take care and chill ya'll.

[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-16T11:39:00.000+08:00

itchy scratchies by lil' ants and mosquitoes. nvr fails to irritate me. argh! [get off me] u lil' pesky stuff! (: whee. im back. didnt haf the mood to relly blog long lately. it must be because of the stuffy and hot weather and the lil' creepy crawly stuff. (: but its okay. i will persist thru this time. Lotsa stuff to tell. didnt haf the mood. and i sorta haf amnesia. forgetting stuff so easily. (: and i haf some news to speak of today. and that kinda explains why i am here for. (: wahhahahhahaha. im going to Genting tomorrow. ): sad eh? miss me yeah? and i wun be blogging for like 4 days. dats so pathetic. speaking of pathetic. thankew Jade yesterday for lifting my mood a lil' (: haha. forever so sweet. i can never ever beat her in an argument. i alwyas lose. and thus i decided not to argue with her. haha. (: clever move eh? actually i aint so stupid after all. whee. haha. yeah. but she was relly sweet. and she explained how i wasnt pathetic. fine. im just screwed a lil' (: haha. yeah. back to where i was. i am going to Genting. boohoo.

[WHY?]
whee. actually im rather excited. haha. just not relly looking forward to it and all. cant bear to leave my computer. wahhahahahahahha.

SO i guess. im going there for:-
FUN! picture myself sitting on a roller coaster. screaming and laffing. wahahhahahahha. dats called fun. you dun get all the time when u're at home, do you?
LIGHTEN MY MOOD going thru so much nowadays. wun be glad to let it all out in those funky coasters. they wun fail to make me go screaming out my lungs. haha. cant wait for that. i love to scream. screaming kinda makes me who i am. (:
BREATHE A LIL' been changing so much. dat i felt who i was relly childish and so unlike me. but it WAS who i am. haha. i need to breathe a lil' yeah? haf some time to think abt everything dat has been going thru. somewhere away from the computer. so i can haf a clearer thought. (:
FORGET i have to forget certain stuff dat are supposed to be forgotten. and not to remember dem anymore. those are sad memories. memories dat stick with me. and make me haf the modd swings. (from happy to sad) i dun like being sad. wahhahahahhaa. (:

yeah. so i hope i will be back. being a fresh new yanling. thus not being the sad one. wahahhahahahahahha. okay. and i relly wish to forget stuff. (: and i cant wait to scream my lungs out. (: haha. yeah. it would be pretty cool. haha. and i wun forget to bring some chewing gum back. haha. [may i take ur orders pls?] am having a lil' muscle aches. over stretched yesterday during netball. and im gaining pounds. AHHHH! im fat. gonna do some self-reflection and watch my diet. and till im bakc from Genting. ): byebye. chill. and miss me yah?

[[y4n|!n9]

2004-06-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

and so i went to Jade's blog. (: and i came across this quiz. and its like. SO cool. (: i love [underworld]! (: wahhahahahahahaha. yeah. so im selene. understandable. i long to be a vampire yeah? haha. =D

SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct.
Ever wish you could be a
vampire?

Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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[y4n|!n9*]

2004-06-14T11:22:00.000+08:00

okay. so i took this quiz. (: and im dory. i wanted to be her. she is so cute! wahhahahahahhahaha. its nice. (: quizzes and all. but certainly. it proves dat u haf absolutely nothing to do. dun they prove that? well. quizzes cant be the first thing that reaches ur brain the first when u just get started warming up with ur computer. it wun be. rest assured. (: so that absolutely gives the [hint] dat im not so doing anything interesting right now. aww. haha. yeah. nothing [happening] much right now. AHHHH! adeline send me a letter via internet. oh my gawd. she is so sweet! whee. i lvoe her. haha. provided that the [love] is in the form of sister love. (: she is so angelic?! well. she is always dere for me you know. (:

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

okay. so i'll reply her letter. her letter is more important. wahhahahahaha. cya. chill. byebye

[-y4n*|!n9]

2004-06-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

aww. couldnt come yesterday. thanks to ahem ahem. and ahem ahem. i hate both of them. eeyer. dun wanna think abt them. okay. so yesterday. we went swimming. (: whee. swimming is so fantastic. we all love swimming. haha. and yeah. i went with xianzu. wenzong. wenwei. xianzheng. jiaxian. wenxin. my 5th auntie and my mum. she stinks. wahahhahahahahahhahahaha. i dislike her SO much. SO much. and she ruined my life. but too bad. im still gonna make the best out of it. (: haha. yeah. so we played lotsa stuff. first. we went to [wave pool] because we wanted to ditch Aaron. he is a brute all right. we all dislike her. eeyer. thinking abt him. gives me the thrills. eeyer. den we went back to put our glasses. and to take our goggles. haha. and den we went to wave pool. as there were waves. haha. and it was relly cool. the water was freezing. but it was awesome. it was relly nice. and we had waves. and we were playing with 'em. (: haha. yeah. and laters after the waves ended. we went to play with the water itself. xianzu could do many stunts underwater. he is relly good. it does make sense. He is like made out of bones and skin. No wonder he doesnt haf fats to keep him afloat. he can just relax and just sink. while [yours truly] needs to use so much energy. fine. i get the point. [im fat] aww. haha.

back to the story. den we got so hungry. and we decided to get out of the refreshing water which was supposed to wake us up a lil' but ended up making us a lil' sleepier. haha. (: haha. yeah. and we went to eat stuff. haha. and xianzu. xianzheng and wenzong wanted 2 play the slide without float. the stuff were like moving at such a rapid rate dat made my head go shaking. haha. yeah. didnt wanna risk my life. my heart. my lungs. haha. yeah. i need my lungs to be myself. dat is to scream. haha. it sorta makes me unique. haha. yeah. and we went to the lazy pool. the water was pure nasty. it was so dirty. but we were so tempted. it was cool. haha. yeah. i held my breath. i prayed to not allow the water to enter me. eeyer. imagine. haha. and so. we just played along. and den we saw the wave pool having the waves again. and we went dere. haha. yeah. and we decided to flip some floats. xianzu. being the most [daring] out of all of us. flipped a guy. haha. he splashed into the water. with triggers us and made us go [hahahahaha] non-stop. yeah. and we went scouting around for more such cases to flip. but it was rare. haha. all unsuitable candidates. (: haha

and yeah. laters. we went bakc to the lazy pool. and played alot. until my father's wife. and my 5th aunt had to come and stop us. i walked against the current. and [woah] it wasnt easy at all. haha. i managed with a lil' help from wenzong. it was relly strong I'd say. there wasnt time for us to bathe and we just changed. haha. and I regretted totally for not wearing my slippers dere. the toilet floor was NASTY. it was horrible. gawd. u shld see it. it was murky. it was dark. and it had this relly nasty smell. eeyer. be glad dat u didnt see it. coz if u did. u wouldnt like it. haha. (: yeah. and i changed and went home. i was so upset with myself. being so not clean. and i HAD to be first to get the bathroom. my brother raced against me. and i ended up howling at him. which made my father's wife go [ni men bu yong chao le. wo yao shou diao computer] wtf. the computer is honestly my life. and it breaks me off from my family. later. i shall proceed with further elaborations on [WHY] (: haha

yeah. and today. i kinda lsept till 10+ and ate some roti prata. it was extraordinaire. perfect. and the curry was like so tasty. (: haha. yeah. and i ate 2 of them. real good. and den watched some T.V. and went up to play GEX. haha. it was real funny. haha. and quite hard to play. yeah. and i slept. again. haha. and when i woke up. xianzu arrived. wenxin did too. followed by xianzheng. haha. yeah. and they were playing bishi bashi. i was rather upset dat i was awoken. would haf wanted to sleep longer in order not to think so much. (: haha. yeah. and i played a lil'. couldnt get over the fact that i was the lousiest among them all. haha. yeah. and den i finally gave up and went down to get the emptiness in my stomach over with. (: haha. yeah. and i ate [hash browns] wahahahhahahhhaha. with rice. funny. but it was pretty good. (: haha. yeah. and den. xianzu ate potatoes with this relly funny recipe. he comes up with some weird recipes. some which can seriouslt ease the stomach and others go hard on it. ouch! haha. yeah. and no doubt today's one didnt seem to make the stomach feel any good. haha. (: yeah. and later xianzu cut his leg. and i was like going [ouch!] although it wasnt me who got hurt. haha. yeah. it seemed relly painful though.

well. i guess i wun go ahead with my further elaborations le. it seems pretty late. and i aint got the whole lot of time on the net like i used to have. my days are over. my days being so close to my mate. my computer. how i wish the days were here to stay. but it seems like they are gonna end. ): its gonna go over. and nvr come back. being pretty sad. i think i shall end here. ): haha. yeah. and i hope. pray. wish dat i will be back with a happy entry. AHHHH! laters. (: chill peace. byebye.

[harV+]

2004-06-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

whoo. i felt rather inspired by the quotes stated in his blog. it was relly good. (= yeah. and u could check out xianzu's blog here. wahhahahahahah. and thus i shall further elaborate on my ideal thoughts abt these pretty lines. (= according to xianzu. these quotes were [extracted] from this book named [the 5 people u meet in heaven].

"Fairness doesnt not govern life and death, if it did, no good person ever die young."
its rather true. its sad to see the young just die like that. For the record. nothing seems fair to me. and its just a waste to see them just fade away. its so cruel. yet it happens. wad is fairness. it seems rather [non-existant] to me. maybe because i haf no relly happy situations were fairness relly takes place. maybe.

"Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know"
well. this quote seems pretty. but it cant relly relate to me. strangers. nvr thought of pple this way. pple i dunno just stays as pple i dunno. it doesnt relly change. haha. but on the other hand. it might be true. I once didnt know my frens. but yet. at a turn of my life. they just became my frens. part of my life. my family. (=

"Holding anger is a poison. It eats you from inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."
This is relly inspiring. i used to hate. Hate everybody that comes in my path. my path to happiness. i once thought. and it seems so wrong now. everything. my past. its like i hurt myself even more. by hating. i ruined the youth of mine. haha. its a poison. we shld let it out. we shld. (=

"Love, like rain, can nousrish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."
i dunno much abt love. but it seems rather true. Hurt or get hurt. in love. it always goes. pple smiling. and next day crying. now it all seems normal. haven been thru it. believe i will. someday. haha. but its pretty cool. haha. as to get in love. but i will grow up. no know abt it. to handle it. and hopefully. to contain it. (=

"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle thair hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn't."
its relly pretty! [life has to end] yeah. sure. everyone dies. who doesnt. but for meantime. i dun wanna die. i wanna make the best out of my life. that is before i die. so dat i can be satisfied. haha. [love doesn't]. yeah. love exists all around the world. maybe not in the minds of Saddam. but it still exist. everywhere. seriously. everywhere.

"Each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one."
true true. but i like stories. i love those. and for my life. its a story. not completed. neither is it half way thru YET. but i'll come to it. i will. haha. i will protect myself. like its a gem. well. its a gem to me. without life. i might be somewhere else. somewhere i dun belong. but somehow. i like it here. although it is always full of ups and downs. and most of the time. im sad. and i'll start whining to my frens and cousins. but i still love it. haha. but i dun like storybooks. haha. reading makes my head so. [ahh! dun stuff me with these!] haha.

and so. now. i haf a more elaborated side of life now. and it doesnt suck. like everyone always says. [life sux] they say that just because they met up with the ugly side of life. if u can pull thru. it will become all pretty. yeah. and now. i will not ever think that life sux. and i wouldnt hate. (= haha. and i will whine all i can. For the reason that [Holding anger is a poison.] haha. (= its cool u know. and when i grow up. i can refer to these. and somehow. i may end up as a better person. haha. besides the whining dat is. But i cant live life without whines. its my way of life. xianzu is so inspiring. aww. haha. anyways. pple. t/c. chill. peace. i'll catch u guys next time. hopefully soon enuff.

[y4n*lin9__]

2004-06-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

whoo. today was a totally awesome day. I'd say awesome coz it was relly good. relly. extraordianaire. haha. (: so here it goes. today i woke up at like morning. haha. and i called weixin. haha. i woke her up from her sleep. dat was so not nice of me. haha. and den. they said they will be late. haha. and i was like [um. okays] haha. and yeah. and i forgot to bring my bus pass. and the situation ended with my dad bring it to me. my dad is relly sweet! i think so. (: haha. and yeah. and we waited for weixin. we meaning me and qinying. but honestly. the pple were already there waiting for us to arrive. we told them to go ahead. but we insisted. and we ended up like 40 minutes late? thats pretty bad eh. haha. and yeah. and we took the Sentosa bus to Sentosa. got the tickets. and we're ready to rumble. i was relly happy that they were going Siloso instead of Palawan. haha. somehow. (= haha.

and we reached the beach. and me. kaiyan. and xinyi. headed for the beach immediately. haha. yeah. immediately. and xinyi. somehow remembered dat she didnt bring her extrea clothes along with her. so she hesitated and decided not to go down. into the water. haha. yeah. and me and kaiyan went ahead. with Yini and the others joining us. Yini being so excited got into the water first. haha. and originally. both of us decided to swim to the opposite island. but with a whole team of netball persuading and somewhat insisting us not to go as it seems pretty dangerous. we decided to call off the idea. hha. and yeah. haha. so we went back to shore. haha. OH yeah! at the beginning. munting. jamie. sumin and weiru were already there. and when me kaiyan and xinyi arrived. haha. they dragged us and said we can go into the water as [qi jie mei]. gawd. dat was hilarious. haha. and back to where we were. yini decided to build a drain. haha. and everybody helped. and i was pretty bored. and hungry. so i decided to bring myself up to the area where the food is allocated. haha.

tadah! i was dere. haha. and i ate a box of nuggets with Xinyi. haha. not exactly the whole box. but pretty much. haha. and Cheryl was doing this relly weird stuff with her tape. i seriously got inspired by her alot. she is a relly good captain! her leg is somehow injured and she still took the courtesy to organise an event for us. how nice can that be? haha. although inspired. she is relly relly nice. haha. and sweet. and laters i decided to go down with Yini when she came back to take the bottles to contain the water. haha. the sea water. that is. haha. and laters i got this plastic bag. haha. and i could fill so much water. haha. super harvey! haha. (: haha. and yeah. i was working relly hard dat my back ached. haha. and the drain worked and we were relly happy. haha. and laters we found it not so exciting anymore. haha. (: and they wanted to go up. haha. and i wanted to build a sandcastle. i relly tall one. sumin and munting helped me at first. but attracted by food. they went to it. haha.

and me and Jamie sat at the beach. haha. while Jamie was concentrating on picking her beautiful shells. i continued spending my energy on my wonderful castle. but when i got relly bored. i decided to proceed to the food. had a fill of the emptiness in my stomach. haha. and yeah. laters. me and xinyi fould this huge log. and we had the idea of taking it. and using it as a boat. and with so much energy. we managed to bring it away from where it was a lil' haha. and yeah. laters. me and yini took the log to the sea. haha. yeah. and i sat on it. and i fell over. and i was soaked in the sea. the salt gushed into me. thru my eyes. my mouth. my nose. my ears. gwd. it was so painful. i couldnt hold back and all. and i ran all the way to the tap. to clear the saltiness. haha. yeah. and laters. we did some stuff. and after dat. we [me. yini. huizhen. huimin. jamie. weiru. sumin] went to the shore with the log. we paddled with our feet. whoo. moving relly swiftly. haha. yeah. and laters. we wrote a big NH NETBALL. on the shore. it was huge. but it couldnt be viewed from far. haha. yeah. and den we paddled back. and paddled there again. and back.

and it was pretty all the same. so decided to come back eventually and stop playing. and we starting playing cards. [daidi: big idiot version] haha. it was pretty cool. haha. and yeah. i played a few rounds. haha. yeah. and i went to play volleyball. haha. fun. me and qinying v.s. ziqin and humin. haha. it is relly nice. i got to know ziqin more. and it was relly nice. i like her alot. haha. yeah. and we went to Delifrance. coz we were relly relly very thristy. went with qinying. and met the others there. i couped a lil' peach tea from KaiYan. 7up from qinying. and grape stuff from yini. haha. and then they went cycling. when [me. weixin. ziqin. jamie. xinyi] stayed on. haha. i bought 2 garlic breads to stall time. in order to stay there longer. cause most of us are lazy to even move. haha. seriously. lazy to even move. and we were like keep buying stuff. and i ate till i was kinda bloated. haha. and den went back and played LOTS of daidi. haha. and we played. while XInyi tanned. haha. OH YEAH. we saw this hunk outside delifrance. haha. pretty cool. (: yeah.

and we ended up playing [blackjack] with the bets being Otahs. ahh! otahs are my worst nightmare. it was relly hot. relly hot. but it tasted pretty good. too bad it was hot. if not i would haf loved it. haha. and police came and patrolled. somehow. stuff didnt seem right and we decided to stop playing. and me and kaiyan went to shower. haha. yeah. the toilet was crowded. and when we came back. we played volleyball. relly cool. haha. yeah. and we played. and laters we raced to the court itself. but it was taken. and den we decided to draw a court. a bigger one. and give some height limits. and munting. accidentally made the ball out of court. and a guy came by and picked the ball for her. and when we started making those calls going [whoo] haha. the guy called munting to haf a lil' talk with him. being pretty excited. haha. i started going mad. haha. yeah. and she gave him her number. they were saying they were actually playing a game. but i dunno. aww. haha. and den we went back. yeah. and that guy came and he said he wanted to say bye to her. haha. yeah. and den we took the bus. and the other bus. haha. yeah. and we saw the guy again.

on the way back home. haha. we went to buy drinks. and i bought grape juice. haha. and yini took a condom and left it beside my drink. haha. the man curiously starred at me. i didnt know why. i looked down. and i was like woah. [no. its not mine!] haha. and i started laffing hysterically. haha. yeah. and we went home. aww. haha. so back here blogging. there were lil' stuff. haha. we saw hunks. haha. a few only. (: haha. the angmohs look prettier. even the girls look more attractive. haha. yeah. and i didnt much look at the zahbohs. haha. so. aww. yeah. and i think i got sunburn. but i pretty like my face to be a lil' reddish. (= haha. it looks cool actually. yeah. and i guess i shld end here. in case. my parents get upset. so byebye. i'll miss u guys. haha. laters.

-[__y4nlin9*]

2004-06-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

holy!! i am a hero. wahhahahahahhahahahahha. now. this is exciting. am i bored? actually i am not really. aw..

You're A Hero!
You live to save the world! You are honest, true,
and always victorious! You may not always get
the girls/boys, but all you really want to do
is battle the bad guys.

What Type Of Anime Character Are You?
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I battle bad guys. haha. so not true. so not me. haha. anyways. maybe i shld start blogging abt today. unstead of just starring at the screen and thinking abt stuff. aw. haha. so here it goes. (: haha.

today. i woke up at like 7.45. was pretty shocked. coz originally supposed to wake up at 7. was flustered. worried. and helpless. and so. i sms-ed kaiyan and told her i will be late. and den laters. i ate a squiggle. relly nice. but i am relly full. haha. coz last night ate alot. and thus resulting in helpless nights. couldnt get into sleep. feel so bad. thought so much. BRR! haha. and yeah. and den my dad brought me to choa chu kang mrt station. haha. seeing nobody at the the station at all. i felt a lil' worried. a lil' i'd say. haha. and i started calling everybody up. haha. and nobody answered. was awfully worried. and i started getting so weird. and thankfully. i saw chelsea and weixin. haha. and i ran to them like a lil' girl who lost her way. haha. and we took lrt. and we took the wrong route and ended up going in circles. haha. but we found our way to Senja eventually. haha. and we saw HuiZhen along the way. haha. she came in at Segar. haha. the taxi driver brought her to the wrong station. aww. haha

and we went to YiQi's house. actually wanted to play bomberman. but cannot. aww. cant read korean. guess that the server was down or something. /= aw. haha. and den we ate sausages with bread. whoolala. relly nice. haha. and laters. we watched liu xing hua yuan. it was so pretty. it is a love story obviously. but it is relly pretty! i loved it. and im gonna borrow the cd from my frens.hah. although pple say f4 are gay? or sissies. but their show isnt all that bad. haha. (: wanna watch again. (: haha. and laters went to BPP. haha. its bukit panjang plaza. not ahem ahem plaza. haha. we shall mention no names yeah? haha. cool. and den. we ate at the Kopitiam. i ate noodles. and a lime plum juice. not bad. it was rather sweet! haha. and laters we originally wanted to take neoprint. but eventually. we ended up at the pet store watching hamsters cuddle up with each other. haha. and den we went to COmics connection. and yini made a huge fuss over FFX2. haha. and FFX. yeah. FFX is cool. haha. and laters i bought this relly nice chocolate thing. its relly nice!! haha. i like it alot. its a pocky stick covered with milk chocolated and has small peanut pieces topped on it. yum yum. it was delicious. (= haha. and i ate outside the library with weixin and qingyin. haha. while the others crowded around at the children's section. originally. i shld be with them. looking at those pretty lil' books. or big books. filled with coloured pictures. and short sentences. but for the record. i sacrified for food. haha.

and we proceeded to Teck Whye secondary for our netball match with 'em. haha. and we took 190 i think. and our bus met with an accident. it collided with a van of some sort. and dat man was demanding for some medical claims of the car itself. haha. but it wasnt a big accident. no one was hurt. and apparently. nobody knew that an accident occurred. haha. wasnt a big issue. haha. and unhappily. we unboard the bus. and walked our way to Teck Whye instead. haha. and yeah. and we reached and everything started. haha. i played for a quater. positioned as the Wing Defence [WD]. i guess i didnt screw things up that much. just that i keep smiling for no reason. resulting in the misconception dat i am not serious. thus leading to nobody passing the ball to me. waAAAaaH! haha. but oh well. i guess i didnt relly like the ball dat much either. neither does it like me. aww. and WeiRu is a potential shooter. and according to our calculations. her shooting percentage is pretty high. lets say more den 90%. its cool already. haha. and CHelsea was a great defender. a pity dat Cheryl cant play. and laters we planned on the trip tomorrow. would be pretty exciting. i've always like to hang out! haha. at the beach. whoo. looking forward to it. like im looking forward to GEnting. would be hugging my dear [Kenny] cushion the way up. haha. (= would be so pretty. although i dun relly like the time when we have to make our way thru Malaysia. coz its both time-consuming and not so exciting.

haha. and yeah. it would be pretty cool tomorrow. although Chelsea cannot come. bcoz she has some emergencies. but it still will be pretty. and till i come back with the update. cya. ^^ haha. byebye. chill. peace. anyways. Hanson is so nice. Hoobastank too. i like H. and i like Harvey. maybe my new name shld be [_h4rV*]__ whoo. nice eh? cya. chill.

[y4n*lin9__] aka [_h4rV*]

2004-06-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

haha. just went to Jade's blog. found some quizzes. pretty cool so i decided to check them out. and tadah! here are the results (:

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

haha. Hailey? not bad leh. but i prefer Harvey. its my second name. u can call me dat. (: whahhahahahahahhaha. HARVEY the name sounds so pretty. (: dun you think so too?!

You're the comedic smiley.

You love to kid around and laugh and are well-known. You can easily cheer someone up, and you're often in a good mood.

For the record. im a comedic smiley. but the link doesnt work. so sorry. :$ wahahahahahha.
wow. this is rather cool. but i like the angelic one more. hmph! wahahahahahahahha. did i just [act cute] well. i guess its okay. once in a while wun kill eh? anyways. guess i wun update. tired and famished. i guess i'll move on and bathe and this sleep. but today i had a pretty much [cool] day. and tomorrow we are going on a trip to Sentosa. sounds pretty eh? so. see u guys later when i come back and. um update on the [big event] happening the day after today. (: haha. kaes. till dne. cya. chill. peace

[_y4nlin9*]__

2004-06-09T11:13:00.000+08:00

phew. i feel pretty much better den i did yesterday. and certain pple were helping me. i feel so glad. while others didnt. probably bcoz they didnt care. or they didnt know. and chenyaan was so sweet! (= Thankew alot alot. i know i went a lil' far by scolding all those vulgarities. and stuff. but i was seriously feeling so bad. and i had to let it out. and so i did. and it resulted in this. but at least i know. (= okay. now. feeling much much better compared to yesterday. i am pretty glad. (= i just ate some weird stuff and decided to use the computer before my father's son decide to come down and use his [authority] to take over my computer. haha. i was behaving pretty childish yesterday. but i couldnt help it. I thought i was growing up. perhaps i was. compared to even further back down in my life. I have grown up. but i need to grow up more. even if i would pretty much like it as now. I feel that i have brought so much trouble to my parents. my family. i somehow feel indebted to them as though i owe them somewhat. Maybe i shld love them. like they love me too. but it wouldnt work. but i'll try. (= I refuse to see my mum being so upset over me. and complains to my dad. and I would try and be reluctant to [tell on] my mum to my dad. My dad was the one handling all this disputes all along. He guided me thru all these. I seriously Thank him. (=

He taught me how to love. How to love my mum. my family. he taught me that i couldnt hate someone forever. and that i shld learn to forgive. to forgo. and just let go. and nvr remember it. at least not let any squabble come in the way of how a family actually communicate and work. Maybe I shld give it a shot. although i think that my mum shld be grown up enuff to solve the squabbles. (= haha. but i will act as a grown up and handle such disputes on my own. Its relly pathetic to see family quarrelling with each other. shouting. screaming and yelling at the top of their lungs. its all for our own rights. [freedom]. [less pressure] this are just excuses. they give pressure because they care. right. i understand this. but pple just cant help it. especially when their heads are boiling. They cant think. and expectedly. they end up in quarrels. and apparently. This happens to me all the time. and i will just try to keep my cool. to chill. forget abt my rights. for the same reason that my rights. are simply given by my parents. It shld be a pretty ending. (= haha. and guess i shld end my [big talk] here. haha. and till next time when i return with something new. byebye! cya. chill. peace. (=

[Say Something Anyway]
Artist: Bellefire

[They are supposedly new to me. haha. but this song is pretty good. (= check it out.]

Some say hearts
Grow silent
In a world where no one cares
Love keep slipping away
Some say time
Is the healer
But in a house where no one speaks
love keep slipping away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why do we play that same old song
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Some say tears
Run dry but
In my heart I've cried forever
Only you can take it away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why can't we see what's going on
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Anything to break the ice
Anything at all
Anything to break the ice
Anything at all

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry

(Oh), love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away (the shadows away)
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say (you've got nothing to say)
Say something anyway
Help me chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway.....

[_y4nlin9*]

2004-06-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so bad right now. and i haf NO one to talk things to. Everything is ruined. its totally wrecked. i hate this. feeling so bad now. I'll chill. i hope so. at least. I wrecked it. i didnt want it to continue. very sense of happiness i get when somebody tells me they would be going. and every sense of disappointment when they just call and give me a damn fucking reason and tell me to accept it. wad the fuck. i had enough of this shit. and furthermore. i aint gonna organise this fucking shit for anyone anymore. i had enuff. seriously. and enough IS enough. i took the initiative to call almost the whole class of 40. almost. I'd say. and wad do i get in the end. wad the fuck. is this wad u call retribution. is this wad u call repayment. i dun get any shit for this that i am doing. and does nobody else in the world understand this shit. FUCK. im getting so freaking vulgar. and seriously. i cant. do anything. okay. chill.

ok. I'll chill. CHILL. okay. now i feel better. so i went 2 Jurong point twice today. first time went with XInyi. Royston and LIqian. it was cool. and we watched Harry POtter. it was hilarious. seriously. and i wanted to steal RoySton's popcorn. but he wouldnt let. and he earned so much money!! haha. and den went to eat MOS burger. haha. not that bad lah. haha. but quite expensive. haha. and we stole fries. (= haha. yeah. and den went home. den went out again. went to Daiso. bought a file. a box file. and den went JP again. haha. went to OP. bought stuff dat amounts to like 250 bucks. with 30% discount. aw. my dad suffered. and my brother got angry with my mum. i saw everything. i saw them quarrel. and it was SO childish. and honestly. do i seem. look. think the same when i quarrel with her? its so bad. it was so unpretty. my mum was boiling. and now i am. its the same. and ok. i just i chillED. pretty much. (= cool. till laters. cya. im not relly in the mood for all. so. (= byebye.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

haha. so. maybe. perhaps. i may be watching Harry Potter with Xinyi tomorrow. Guess it will be fun. cause. royston's coming too. wahahhahahhahahha. Guess being at home isnt what you call fun. bottom line. just feeling a lil' sick and tired of stuff dat is going on. cause it always seems like its repeating itself. you're happy. really happy. and you take stuff like woah. im happy. and all of a sudden. like I'd say the next day. stuff just happen. and u're like. [aww. im sad] and u go whining. [man. i cant take this crap anymore. i wanna die] its always happening. well. in what way can't i enjoy my life. its like [in what way?] well. life doesnt suck to me. coz i haf lets say. i better perspective of it right now. but it still isnt all that pretty. YET. but it will be. u'll see. i will come back at a certain day. and i will start screaming. laffing and going [whoo] [haha]. all sorts of stuff. but meanwhile. im still a lil' down. but i will chill. (= haha. yeah. and seriously. i aint so caught up with gunbound anymore. and i guess dats a good thing. but i blog too much i think. haha. and i want pple to read 'em. (= haha. dats why u're here for right? haha. well. i [stumbled] across this in my inbox at hotmail. and it sounds rather true. so i shall like. put in on here. haha. (=

[SAGITTARIUS WOMAN] imma girl.
i am not a woman. YET. a girl. anyways. the stuff in brackets. and stuff written by YOURS TRULY. and if u didnt know. Yours truly is Me. its a capital M. (=

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a
beauty pageant competition. [this sentence is SO wrong. i dun walk like in a beauty pageant. so not. and i aint slim. this is wrong] If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. [this is SO WRONG too] She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get upset easily. [a lil' right. i smile all the time but i get upset pretty easily]

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow
fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. [totally "my ass" kinda thing. this is still wrong.] She is a very open person [indeed. im open], sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never
try to cause troubles for any one. [well. i cause trouble all the time]

She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say
something so pleasing at the same time. [whoo. i do haf a sweet tongue u know] Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get upset or love her more. [weird stuff]

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. [THIS IS TRUE!! so right.]She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. [this is so right too!] She has no respect to a weak man. [not so true. i haven seen much of a man]If she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself. [sweet!]

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear her say " Guess what I
will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she
is thinking out loud like a guy. [how true] If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love
life as another funny story. [i do? i see it as stuff not meant for me YET]

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for
some neat guys this could be so unbearable. [woah. is that true? thats kinda harsh] She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. [yep yep! my pri. school best fren was once my enemy!] She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. [whoolala. dats me u're talking abt] Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again. [a lil' true, but i do return the money!]

She is a paranoid. [yeah. i am] If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. [um. not true.] A jolly woman who loves sports. [yeah. i do. don't i?] She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. [omg. this is like SO TRUE!] She has more guy friends [perhaps] and sometimes could act like one of a guy. [yeah. i could] She does not care about rumours, [i guess you can say that] so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbour will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think. [maybe]

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. [gawd. i haf NO charm] She is often hurts from love, [remind me. what is love?] but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you. [i will! haha. i think so]

okay. perhaps. this THING has gotten pretty far. it seems pretty true sometimes. and sometimes way out. and make me go [eeYer! im so not like dat] pretty cool. i made some lil' comments. would appreciate if u go them thru. and it would be nice. if u could like. leave ur comments. ^^ haha. (= haha. and yeah. so. till i get ready. and pretty bored. and haf something HAPPENING. again. im come here and "inform' ya. whee. LATERS. chill pple. peace. cya. bye!

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-07T12:51:00.000+08:00

whoo. im finally back. with my nice skin. its not relly new and all. but it has a new top. and i like it lots. its like much better den the previous one. and i only took 10 minutes to do it. whee. see. i dunno wad has gotten into me these days. sleeping so much. too much. i slept till 11am today. its kinda bad. coz i normally haf a body alarm which just rings and i wake up. its kinda faulty now. aww. pathetic. and here i am now. doing some weird stuff with my blog. tomorrow's my brother's birthday. aww. i wanted to give him a present. but my wallet isnt working well with me. somehow. its kinda sad. coz i owe many pple presents. and i dun relly like to owe pple stuff. but. AW. and um. i haven even started on my holiday homework. and honestly. i dun even know wads in for homework. and. its getting pretty bad. as how i sleep so much. and eat. haha.

now. we haf this class outing on the 9th. and its relly bad as to see how it is going on. pple telling me dat they cant come. it relly disappoints me. and seriously. i wun change the date. its like the only day we got left. and they just. ya know. [i cant go. i have my CCA on]. [i've got something else on] its getting bad. but i just hope for the best yeah? even though the best doesnt even seem like the best. later. i will end up calling the whole class of pple. begging 'em and all. and this [dirty] job is always handled by yanling. if u wanna go. find yanling. YOU"RE RIGHT. i had enuff of yanling for this holidays. yeah. and if u want a piece of me. bring it on. haha. okay. a lil' too agitated. but why in the world is it always yanling. gawd. okay. fine. it was ME who wanted this trip. so i will do it. for the good will of all men. yanling decides to sacrifice herself. (= wahhahahhahahahha. so take care everyone. and come back soon. cause i'll be back for more action. here. right here. at http://morningal.blogspot.com. so till den. cya. (= CHILL PPLE.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

waAaAaAAAAaaAaahh! stupid blogger. stupid computer. screwed my computer. wad crap i updated all gone. GONE. eeYer! as i was multi-tasking. i simply haf forgotten wad i was writing. so i shant update abt stuff dat happened today le. /= angry! my life is a lil' messed up. some things seemed screwed and out of place. must put 'em back where they belong. (x haha. some stuff are changing. rather badly. and at certain times. i just prefer it to be the way it actually was. seriously. /=

[too much]
gawd. i do some stuff too much.

i think too much.
i sleep too much.
i skive too much.
i slack too much.
i laze too much.
i eat too much.
i play too much.
i hate too much.
i take stuff seriously at wrong times too much.
i dream of weird stuff too much.
i laugh too much.
i play gunbound too much.
i scream too much.
i think too much.
i think too much.
i think too much!!

ARGH!! i think too much. and its bad for me. especially when everything starts to make sense. and making sense never made me feel right. aahhh! think no more. hahahaha. [shen jing bing]

whoolala. i left this note in adeline's od.

[(= [happily ever after] is in fairytales. [shit] is in life. in other words. it cant be mixed up. its just different. they make it all pretty in fairytales. coz fairytales make pple happy. they make pple actually want to haf the hope in achieving the same ideal ending. it dawn on me as this. how bout you?]

whoo. rather pretty eh? well. my life can never be considered a fairytale. dun think it will be. fairytales contains pple who love. well. i hate. precisely. dats wrong already. in fairytales. pple wears pretty costumes. in such. they look nice. and different. [cinderella] simply. a tale. a fairytale. i cannot be so nice to pple. and i dun haf a fairy godmother. )= and i believe in magic. i do. but it just doesnt happen! aw. [peter pan] to me its still a fairytale. i cant fly. dere are no pixies! i can haf some pixie dust and just fly in the sky. i cant. life is no fairytale. its full of hardships. hurdles dat we would haf to face bravely. im crapping. totally. im telling myself this shit. where i cant even face it when i come across a problem. [crying] dawns on me. but i wun cry. i dun cry much now. i guess. i just feel like giving everything up. wad have i got to lose. aw. shit. im vulgar! i dun care. AHHH. crap. be gone. cya. byebye.

[LIFE AINT NO FAIRYTALE.] at least not to me.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-05T14:06:00.000+08:00

I DISLIKE MY MOTHER!
for the time being. (x

Maybe.just maybe she ruined my life a lil'. I'd say a lil'. (= now. i didnt feel so bad le. 2 hours ago. i was chanting "I HATE YOU" in my dad's car. didnt like her at all. my dad kinda thinks dat when we quarrel we are kinda childish but. i seriously cant stand her. yeah. i know we are a FAMILY. but. its not cool to haf someone expecting so much from you. Maybe its a good form of like pressure? but it just doesnt work well on me. no. its doesnt. feeling a lil' miserable. woof! haha. and laters came to wenzong's house. coz going gym later. first time. happy. (= haha. and yeah. played some pretty cool pre-school games which belonged to wenxin. (x haha. yeah. rather cool. till laters. cya. byebye- peace. chill

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

whoO. after going to xianzu's house. i went to west mall. my parents wanted to buy some handphones. haha. and i was famished. SO hungry. decided to go buy KFC. haha. wanted to haf some chicken so much. haha. or lets say cheese fries. so my dad gave me 8 bucks. and i spend 6. haha. and i ate a lil'. cool. not feeling so awful anymore. and den. my dad bought a phone for me mum. ITS THE PHONE I WANTED FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE! awwwwww. i want it. i want it. SO BADLY. i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it.i want it. AW. haha. fine. okay. till nxt time. see ya. chill. peace (=

I HAVE GIVEN UPseriously.
all hope is gone. or i shall say. there might be hope but im seriouslt giving up. dats my feelings right now. it might change in a day or two. a month of two. but. right now. im giving up. (= all is gone. aww.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

whoOt. today had netball training. pretty fun. Miss He didnt come cause she hurt herself to teh state of visiting the hospital. poor girL. )= aww. den we did some normla routines we had to do. (x and i took the initiative to call XInyi. i called her like a million times but nobody answer. -wonders- was she busy or did she overslept? haha. so. we did some routines. i was a lil' mad. yesterday had so much fun online. maybe it was the best time i had online dat is. i chatted so much. till my head nearly burst. haha. so. and i saw adeline while training. haha. yeah. nothing much happened today. (x. haha. so till next time. BYE! chill. peace and everything. haha

NETBALL
whoo. we will haf an outing soon. looking forward to it. LOTS! aww. nothing to update yeah? so pathetic. anyways. tata. (x im doing some mass conversing.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

today was so pretty. PRETTY. pretty. nvr been prettier. i guess. wahhahahhahahhaha. im lovin' it. haha. um. so the first thing today was watching YOU WISH! haha. at lets say 12am. lalalala-* dats midnight? rofl. the story was pretty. i liked it. haha. didnt wanna go to bed despite being so flushed. so tired. aww. but it was pretty and all. rather worth it. and i aint regretting it either. so its all good. haha. den being so tired. i went to my cozy lil' bed. (= sleep. haha. woke up at lets say. 7.30. went to the toilet. haha. had a arther upset stomach. so wad do u expect? haha. and i sat on the blue toilet seat. thinking so much. everything seemed clear now. it seems that im growing up. its supposed to be good. but i seems to me that it isnt all that great at all. especially when everything dat once seemed so foggy and weird became as clear as a crystal?! haha. its not exactly good. so i thought. im just a spare. its worthless. SPARE. how can a queen be a spare eh? haha. SPARE. how bad can that get? =| fine fine. enuff of whining.

got ready. everything was set. being rather lazy. i didnt click my hair. i used a hairband. wahhahahahhah. so while waiting for my parents to get their normal routine done. i sat on the sofa. or is it a throne? whahahahhahha. i switched on my T.V. praying hard for penny and me to come on. but it didnt. continuing. being a lil' depressed. i proceeded to school. whoo. im using beeg words. haha. so yeah. den upon reaching school. saw lusandra. gave her a lil' lift to school. it was rather short but. haha. (= so we reached school. and had to do this index number check. haha. yeah. and we went to 2/6 to get our math olympiad over with. laters. decided to clip my hair up. pple were making such a big fuss abt it. its my hair pple. MINE! haha. so yeah? den Bernice being rather sweet offered me chocolates. aint cheap. quality Hersheys. haha. had that 3 hour exam. was so exasperated. i almost left the whole script blank that is. bothered. den went down for netball briefing. aww. it was so sad. haha. maybe got extra training and all. but i was making a hell lot of noise. which resulted in miss he. to do some body language put-finger-on-the-mouth thingys signals. so i just SHUSH. wahhahahhahahahha. (= haha. so later decided to go watch Shrek with Xinyi. haha. so we went to JP. haha. yeah. reached dere. we went up to the Golden Village area. haha. and bought tickets. to watch Shrek. haha.

and laters. we went down. after buying the 2.10pm tix. haha. and den wanted to go McCafe. but its kinda Expensive. so we just went with Long John. not bad. and SURPRISINGLY. we ate for almost an hour. it was so alot. haha. OH YEAH! i forget dat we made our way to JP while trying to spy on Melisa and her ahem. [she said so] wahhahahhahaha. and laters. we saw Louis! alone. in JP. shopping? wahhahahahha. and he gave this [shiHao look] dat made me almost burst into laughter. haha. it was hilarious. seriously. haha. so we were crapping at Long John. haha. and laters. we walked a bit and went to watch Shrek.

SHREK 2
gawd. this show was awesome. AWESOME i said. it was so pretty! and PUSS was so pretty. omg. those beeg round eyes are like much better den Luffy'S! its so sweet. and it made the whole cinema go AWWWW. it was like. AHHH! so nice. haha. and they had this Prince Charming which SERIOUSLY need some life. gawd. u shld see him. behaving all so gay. and sissy. fancy a guy with lipstick! cheery flavoured to add on it. dats like a totally eeYer thingy. and once he took off his helmet armour thingy. i almost went. puke. it was horrid. HORRID. he made his hair fly. like a zah boh! and he actually swayed it around. like in those commercials. gawd. totally horrible. its HORRIBLE. i said. he sucks biggieS. i seriously felt like smacking him on the face. haha. and the donkey was rather cool too. haha. especially the Livin Da Vida LOca song. it was pretty! relly pretty. haha. like them lots. and the gingerbread man. it was like so nice. (= ahh. haha. it was a cool movie. deserved a good rating. and ogreS are so ugly. haha. and their green. i like green! (x haha

after the movie. we went to take neocard. me and Xinyi dat is. haha. and we decided on this relly golden frame. haha. i wanted to make this qian bian face instead of all those lil' pretty faces. dat u haf to stick ur finger out and poke ur face? makes no sense. haha. so i did some relly funny actions. and insisted on taking the ones with the action. haha. (= so i did. and i seriously look like wang ren fu. haha. funny. the neocard was definitely pretty! its better den those where i haf to like smile like an idiot and all. its much better i tell ya. and while admiring the card while heading home. i saw someone dat i dread to see. WENZONG!! his fren was nice enuff to tell dat he was out with his girl ahem ahem. haha. and her name is daphne. haha. gonna spread it. so till i'm back with the next update of my life. CYA! chill. peace (= byebye.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-02T17:56:00.000+08:00

aww. tomorrow is the last day for lord of the rings exhibition if im not wrong. sad. )= aww. today was all right i guess except for the morning bit. haha. in the morning. i played grafitti with Jade. her drawing was horrible. absolutely. haha. (= mine's better. haha. later. i decided to learn how to play with wenwei's digimon thingy. its rather cool. haha. and its nice to play. i WAS very lucky at first. but. haha. and the battery died? aww. so sad. and den played gunbound a lil' while. wenzong is like so addicted to it. o.o was i like that? its scary. and irritating. haha. and..

I WAS QUEEN FOR TODAY
haha. being queen was rather fun. but seriously. i was abusing my "powers". well. its relly kinda cool being queen. but i think it would be prettier if i only was a princess or something close. haha. and its kinda cool as to how i can "control" pple's lives and actions. guess it'll be pretty cool. but i watched one of these episodes of Sabrina the teenage witch: the animation series. they had one similar to this. the queen was to be sabrina for a day. and sabrina to be the queen. its cool and all. but. its hard. relly hard. u haf to know lotsa stuff. so maybe we shld just go with lives. maybe its all better. (= haha. and i got to boss XianZu around. wenzong too. haha. which was relly cool. i liked it. haha. and i got them to say "ALL HAIL THE QUEEN" haha. dats pretty cool yeah? (= haha. and lotsa stuff. aww. i like being a queen. but its like only for a day. haha. shld let others haf a chance also. (x lalala-*

haha. laters we went to the playground. haha. cool. playgrounds are nice. haha. and we had this lil' obstacle course. brought back lil' "childhood" memories. haha. we used to play it. haha. (= haha. and we also played treasure hunt. where we go hunting for our shoes. pretty cool. haha. but i only got a shoe. (x haha. dats not relly gd isit? haha. and laters came back. PENNY AND ME is stuck in my head. (x aww. came home. den watch a lil' LOTR 3. haha. its so nice. i saw the part of LEgolas taking down the BEEG ele. whoo. it was SO pretty. love it lots. its like the best scene. haha. he was so MUCH BETTER in acting in LOTR den troy. seriously. aww. yeah. so i'll leave u guys with the lyrics to PENNY AND ME. haha. there are lotsa fab songs nowadays. aww. cya. chill. peace. (=

Penny & Me

Cigars in the summertime under the sky by the light
I can feel you read my mind
I can see it in your eyes under the moon as it plays
like music every line
There's a rug with bleeding dye under the fan in the room
Where the passions burning high by the chair
with the leopard skin under the light
It's always Penny and me tonight

On the plane step up with both my feet
Riding in seat number 3 on a flight to NYC
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat
Catch the view and another good book to read
Sending me home on the friendly skies
Missing her eyes
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Staring at a million city lights
But it's still Penny and I all alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind brushing slowly by
If I could soar I'd try to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red
But no matter where I am instead
Singing along to feeling alright
We'll make it by in the pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny likes to get away and drown her pain in lemonade
Penny dreams of rainy days and nights up late by the fireplace
And aimless conversations about the better days

Singing along to feeling alright, yeah
We'll make it by in the pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight

LATERS!

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-02T10:06:00.000+08:00

argh! now i got this super weird feeling with me again. wads this? it comes and go. now. being all so moody. i dun even feel like doing stuff i planned. it all came down. aww. once again. um. yeah. so. yesterday we went for my [ahmaH]'s dinner. haha. pretty cool. the food isnt relly perfect. i didnt like it. haha. and we had to watch Heartlanders. it was awful. eew. haha. and they had this birthday song thingy. haha. funny. they had this cantonese version one. haha. and i wanna learn. it sounds pretty cool. wahhahahhahahha. um. yeah. so. we had some weird dishes. i cant relly remember. all i knew was that the swensens cake we had for xianzhao's birthday was absolutely fab. whoO. its so pretty. and i cant bear to eat it. but i did. haha. its choclate ice cream with white chocolate. omg. haha. it sure brings back sweet memories. (x it was rather pretty. i got up close and personal with some of my not so close cousins. which was pretty cool. haha. (= its cool lah. haha. and i relly like the song "Penny and me".. seriously. its stuck in my head. (x its relly nice. according to my ears that is. its rather pretty and all. so maybe you shld listen to it?

and um yeah. i got an inspiration again. but i aint relly got the jolly good mood. so i guess i will leave it for some other days. which will be in like many days later. haha. and um. yeah. the special thanks thing. i forgot to thank a few pple. so...

SPECIAL THANKS TO: (cont'd)

WeiLong - for being so nice to me as well
WeiQing - for being all so sweet and nice
WeiSheng - for being all so funny. and nice too
WeiSian - for being so nice too. (=
WenZong aka bobocharchar boy - for encouraging me to jian fei (x
WenWei - for making me laff. (=
WenXin - for being such a cute guy. haha =)
Wynne - for being a clever role model

i guess dats all. i got too caught up in wanting to play the game yesterday. i even forgot dat i missed out u guys. my bad. (x haha. sorry. haha. wanna go play game now. (x haha. catch ya'll up later.

[[yanling//]]

2004-06-01T12:26:00.000+08:00

whoO. i love u guys to come here and tag. so happy to start a fresh new day with lotsa wonderful tags from u guys. all those "take care" i love 'em all. wahhahhahhahahha. so thankew yeah? x) haha. dunno why. i am like so happy today. haha. and even though something mattered. it doesnt even seemed it mattered. whahahahhahha. brainless me. (= haha. today lotsa pple birthday. (= i would like to give a shout out to these pple. (=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to XianZhao. [my cuzzy] Jin. [my netball senior] AhMAh [my grandma]

haha. now here's a happy birthday song for u. wahhahahha.

Happy Birthday to you. (=
Happy Birthday to you. (=
Happy Birthday to xianzhao, jin and ahmah. (=
Happy Birthday to you!!!! (=

haha. good luck and all the best for everything u guys do yeah. whOo. haha. (= i can feel that i am going up. no more that immature bastard. haha. wahhahahhahahha. i was an immature bastard?! maybe. lalalala~ haha. okieS. so i shall be myself. provided i know who am i. still trying to figure out but. okieS. so following xianzu's footsteps. haha. i decided to thank everybody who made my 14 years be what they are now. even if u made me cry lots. even if you made me sad. or happy. i love u. u made me wad i am now yeah? haha. without u. my life would not be completed. lalala~! haha. so im like going on 14. yeah. but oh well. (x. mad.

SPECIAL THANKS TO:

Aaron - for being nice and generous
Adeline - for being dere whenever i needed somebody most.
Adeline Tan [1/12]- for always encouraging me to move on. (=
Andre - for being so rich and funny. [inspiring]
Ashnita - for showing me wad more of a fren i can be
Bernice - for showing me dat lao ah ma bracelets are pretty welcomed.
Beverly - for being a perfect role model of a nice fren
Casandra - for being so ke-ai!
Catherine - for teaching me dat giving sweets can make pple smile
Cecillia [2/4]- for being so nice to me. (=
Chelsea - for showing me dat girls and guys are equal. dat is. (=
ChenYaan - for making me laff when im down
Cheryl - for being a gd role model of a perfect host.
ChioBu - for squabbling with me
ChunPin - for the resemblence of sausages. dat makes me wanna eat
Clement - for talking to me when i am So freaking bored
Darren - for teaching me that risking aint good
DaWei - for giving me spiderman and lotsa treats
Derek - for playing gunbound with me when i am bored
Dominic - for showing me wad adorable actually means
DongLin - for showing me yellow pus isnt good AT ALL!
Edwin - for showing me dat converse stuff are rather pretty
FoYang - for showing me dat pinching is indeed painful
Franz - for showing me how to be gay
Gavin - for making me laff relly hard all the time
Giles - for showing me dat electric guitars are pretty cool.
GuanZhong - for showing me how i actually behave. (x
GuoPing - for showing me dat i am not the only person who always falls
HaiMing - dat being small isnt relly bad
HongKai aka fisherman - for showing me that chikui aint gd makeup.
HouShin aka xiao he shang - for showing me dat balloon hats are so cute!
HuiMin - for teaching me dat cows are fabulous animals
HuiQi - for showing me dat i aint the lamest in the world
HuiZhen - for showing me dat 5566 isnt dat bad.
Jade - for sharing many ideals thoughts or yours with me
James aka Luffy - for starring at me with those beautiful BIG eyes
Jamie - for supporting me at the PIE. (=
JiaQian - for showing me dat i lil' girl can be So attractive
JiaXian - for constant fighting with me
Jin - for being somewhat the best senior i can ever haf
JingYen - for showing me dat shoes are not relly always clean
KaiQin - for teaching me how to sing SouthPark songs.
KaiYan - for showing me dat camera phones are a beaut.
Kah Hao - for going with me under dat dirty drain. EEW~
KahJun - for showing me dat not only girls can haf permed hair
Karen - for making me laugh. hahaS. and dat green tea isnt so bad.
KokYao - for proving to me the fact dat i cant gamble
Kumar aka MuthuSamy - for telling me dat being an indian isnt a bad thing
LiMin - that dwarfs are rather pretty
LiuLi - showing me dat i can be a better fren
Louis - for never failing to make me laugh
Lusandra - for showing me dat determination can beat anything
Melisa - that shooting can nvr be so easy
MunTing - for still remembering me as a netball senior
Murphy aka GuNiang - for teaching me how to be more like a girl
Orh Ni Ku - for teaching me wads "wun die"
PaxSon - for being all so funny. and like a clown
PeiLin - for showing me the miraculous style of shooting.
Pristine - for showing me how lil' brains can work relly well
QiaoYuan - for never failing to cheer me up
QinYing - for teaching me dat bruises dun hurt so much
QiZhi - for laffing and laffing. and laffing. everytime
Ronnie - for teaching me weird stuff. WEIRD.
Royston - for showing me dat a fluff ball can do anything.
Ruth - for cheering me up when i was down
Ryan - for being so funny. haha. and not xiaoqi
Saddam hussein - for showing me dat killing aint gd
Samantha [ex-netball senior] - for showing me wad confidence is
Samuel - for showing me dat anybody can be a leader
SerHui - for going 2 the swing with me during nb practice (=
SerYang - for showing me brotherly love
Shawn [1/12] - for showing me wonderful pull-ups. [wide eyed] O.O haha.
Shawn [2/2] - for being such a helpful councillor
Sherwin - for saying Hi to me everytime. (=
ShiPing - for singing oldies to make me laff
ShiRong - for being so sweet to me. (=
ShunLing aka AhhSai - for teaching me to be the monkey I am now. (x
Silk - for making me laff when i think abt.. =)
SuMin - for saying Hi to me always.
SuiPheng - for being so nice always. (=
Terrance - for teaching me dat entangling isnt ALL bad
Vivian - for telling me the time always
WeiJie - for being funny and all
WeiRu [1/12] - for coaching me how to protect myself against lechers
WeiXin [2/4] - for forming an anti-winter94 team
WeiXin [1/12] - for showing me wad is care and share
WingKin - for showing me dat i quiet person isnt ALWAYS quiet
XianJun - for showing me dat leg hair can keep us warm. haha!
XianZhao - for teaching me to make decisions quickly
XianZheng - showing me dat being lame isnt all bad
XianZu - for showing me dat making somebody laugh can nvr be easier
XinYi - for teaching me the beauty of singing
YangYi - for being somebody i can scream at all the time
YaoAn - for showing me dat being fat doesnt mean dat u aint nice
YiNi - for showing me dat beating pple can be rather gd
YiQi - for showing me dat bears are so cute!
YiRong - for showing me that i aint the black-est. heehee X=
YongAn - for teaching me how to be generous
YuFei - for giving me pressure so that i can study for the better
YuFeng - for being Thunderman!
ZhenNing - for making Chenyaan so paranoid. dat he is david copperfield
ZHengTing - for still being so nice when i keep screaming

WHOO. i finally finished. but i missed out lotsa pple i know. sorry. i will somehow make it up to you. till then. CYA everyone. Muacks. lalallalla~ PEACE. chill. (=

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-31T15:24:00.000+08:00

haha. i just done this quiZ. it pretty much weird. haha. and its a long and tiring process. now. here are the results (=

Architect

For you, the world is like one giant puzzle, just waiting to be solved. In your undying quest for the truth, you're best at finding solutions to complex problems. Lucky for all of us, though, you love to share your brilliant thoughts. Your keen analytical skills and understanding of others makes you a vital player in the think tank. You thrive on the collaborative problem-solving process, could trouble shoot for NASA, and won't rest until the questions are answered. The world could use a few more divas like you.

Who's like you:
Madeline Albright (former U.S. Secretary of State)

Likely careers:
Psychologist, lawyer, market researcher, military strategist, PR strategist

rofl. i might be a lawyer for all u know. and maybe a military strategist and i haf brilliant ideas. rofl. dats pretty cool. aint it? (= haha. rather funny. perhaps i shld take another one. ta ta for now. cya. peace. chill. byebye

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-31T11:11:00.000+08:00

aww. i guess im fine now. lets see. its the beginning of the holidays. the first monday that is. its kinda pretty now. im still smiling after playing gunbound with adeline. (x haha. yeah. so i haf some holiday homework i haf set myself to do. x) haha.

MY HOLIDAY RESOLUTIONS
1. no more infatuation.
2. study harder. (dun think its possible) its supposed to be a holiday.
3. be a nicer person (x
4. furnish my blog to be prettier.
5. dun be gay. x)

haha. yeah. dats my resolution. hahaha. most important is no infatuation. =) be a more zheng jing person. x) wahhahahahha. um. yeah. so. i guess laters i m going to yew tee mcDonalds to visit wenzong. haha. i am at xianzheng's house right now. haha. can use the com until siao. x) dats a gd thing. yeah. and later i would upgrade myself on html and cool stuff to make my blog so nice. x) whoO. haha.

so yesterday. xianzu didnt come. =| sad. haha. but xianzheng they all came. and we played worms 3D. its kinda cool. my brother used this old woman thingy. haha. and he killed like all the worms. lalala~ funny. haha. and we later played soccer. and xianzheng was at my opposing team. haha. when he goal. den i bu swuang. i throw the ball at him. haha. and there was this bastard dog next door. he kept barking. aww. so noisy. haha. and i was laffing relly badly. and. later sian liao. go play basketball. play bullet. and i won. whee. haha. jiaxian was runner-up which was rather qi ji. lalalala~ haha. yeah. and we played PIG. haha. i was the first out. aww. so sad. and jiaxian surprisingly got runner-up again. haha. yeah. and they stay-over. haha. later played a lil' gunbound. started to think alot. but i still slept a lil'. wahahahahaha~ relly bad nowadays. aw. haha. and the morning i woke up. half-awake. lalalala~ started thinking again. thinking of the same old sad stuff. haha. and den had breakfast which was a lil' piece of cake. haha. ate it. and den came here. haha. and xianzheng was nice enuff to make me this weird food. melted cheese on a LARGE piece of ham. haha. after much persuasion dat is. haha. and now they are playing priston tale. gonna try updating myself on stuff. okieS. cya. byebye-- chill. PEACE//

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-30T12:17:00.000+08:00

when i start to think. it seems that everything came down on me. the weight. its all on my shoulders. i hate this feeling. it makes me feel dead. liveless. horrible. i dun like this feeling at all. every single bit of it. i feel like killing. myself and others. somehow. i feel like im related to saddam. haiming said teh love calculator calculated me and saddam to be somehow 84%. haha. maybe we are related. and the next thing u know is. i haf this crazy thinking that i can take over the world. wtf. i need somebody. somebody who i can whine to. somebody who really understands. and give me realistic thinkings. its hard i know. but i believe. yesterday. i felt so much like crying. felt cheated. felt hurt. felt like screaming. felt like a bastard. im getting vulgar. i know. i realise. its my fault. and nobody else's. i cant blame. why shld i blame. its my fault. it always is. isnt it? im so affected. affected by pple around me. i hate myself. i hate myself for the fact that i hate too much. i regret. in fact, i regret TOO much. its not good. i know it isnt. i need my cheery self. i need to laugh. to smile. i NEED to. its desperate. it is. without smiling. i get lost. its a small lil' girl getting lost in some african country. lost. having not to know wad to do. desperate. alone. apart from teh rest of the world. its painful. it is. i think too much. its pretty retarded as to why make myslef so miserable. its not the first time im whining at my blog. in fact. i whine alot. perhaps too much. it all becomes crap. pple are so unreal sometimes. i sat there in teh toilet thinking last night. who am i? what am i made of? apart from blood and blood vessels. wad else is in me? tears? wtf. i cant stand this. who am i? what is this? its all so unreal. its deceiving. i hate this. i hate this. liars. everybody are liars. laughing always. screaming. smiling. is that who i am? or is it just the feeling i give pple. the image. the thought. perhaps. i am just a person who wants to cry. but cant. bcoz i haf to prove. that i aint a weakling. prove to whom. to myself. i am always self-challenging. and when i fail. i feel that im a total failure. i hate this. i hate myself typically. i love to smile. who doesnt. but i cant seem to. unless something relly was so hilarious. i cant help it. pple cant help it. its holidays. and i hate holidays. holidays seem like a time for me to think. i dun like thinking. although i can laze around. alot. i dun relly like this. in fact, i hate thinking. it makes me sad. it makes me unable to smile again. i like to smile. perhaps sometimes. i force myself to smile. why not let me be myself. so that i can just cry. smile. whenever i want. without fear. its getting relly bad. myself being somebody else. just to prove that i can? its meaningless. it makes no sense. i feel horrible. right now. i hope xianzu they all would visit laters? i cant stand being alone right now. with no one else to whine too. i cannot take this. seriously i cant. i am just a basic average girl. i aint a powerpuff girl of some sort. of coz not. i cant fly. basically i cant do anything right. so dun expect too much from me. i might not be able to take it. pple tell me not to be bothered. but its me. wad else. =| its relly pathetic how am i coping with problems. maybe i shld do proper updates. haven been updating properly. and surprisingly. my entires. usually filled with "haha". this entry doesnt even comprise of one. haha. expect that one. =| guess i aint doing relly well. i whine too much. i regret too much. show me the light. when everything comes crashin down on me. wad do i do? cry. whine. wad else can i do. i aint no kim possible. she can do anything. i cant. i.. wanna die. i once said pple was stupid enough to waste their lives by killing themselves. and wasting an opportunity to prove themselves. i guess i am wrong. i am stupid. i am just as stupid as any other girl who has suicidal thoughts. and yet i am. not wanting to prove no more. no more. no more proving pple wrong. im always wrong. i think of dying. i wanna slap myself. from this day on. wads my decision. i shld take in some cosiderations. byebye-- peace. i cant chill now.

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

gawd. my mum actually thinks i haf a boyfriend. wtf. im so dead. now. i feel so entangled. GRR. now she gives me less freedom. gawd. pls. i am like only 14. i am totally an immature. RAH. im so angry. well. i couldnt update yesterday. my brother is so evil. he cant even study properly and i dunno why. its just different. sometimes i relly hate myself for hating others. its bad. i know. and sometimes it can turn pretty ugly. lets say unpretty. its not good. i felt so much hate yesterday that all i wanted to do was to sleep. dats all. okay. today was fine. haha. had this PIE thing going on. haha. and impresively and UNexpectedly, we like earn money instead of lost money. dats cool. relly cool. =)we earned like a hundred bucks or so. i bought this book from 1/12! its so cool. haha. its so pretty. lalala. and i got a seryang hand-drawn bookmark FREE. haha. and i helped them do some promotions. wahahhahaha. instead of helping 2/8. i think im relly mean. but oh well. and i met up with some problems. very very serious. argh. i am with no mood now. and i didnt steal it lor. anyways. i spend liek 10 bucks and mroe. haha. didnt haf enough money. haha. its all so ex. woah. haha. dun haf mood le. byebye. chill peace. cya.

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

whoO. today was rather pretty. =) haha. um. i woke up. yeah. and i refused to wake up. haha. i finally did. i relly dislike my family. i dunno why. i am like behaving so much like a evil thing. =| sometimes. i relly dunno. i was so upset whenever i woke up these days. today was teh same. my entire family was going to malacca. and i was SO glad dat i haf school. i like my house lots nowadays. my computer although its screwed and everything. i need to breathe somehow. okay. so i went to school. and i was SO glad. okay. and i sat down. chenyaan was dere and she kinda persuaded me to go to teh swing. so i went with her. haha. played a lil' while and the bell rang. haha. den go line up. den the 2/2 guy was singing so loud. i cant help laughing. seriously. i cnat help it. i tried so hard to control liao. haha. it was relly funny. i know i shldnt laff. but. oh well. haha. and yeah.

after that. went to class. somebody poured so much water on my chair. haha. and i spill it all on yufei's table/ poor thing. haha. den i had to clean up. =( haha. so pathetic. and i just changed seat with guoping. saved me all my trouble. haha. =) yeah. and den do article. den it was math. i dun like math le. so fed up. yufei is SO irritating and he sits dere saying that i am. =| bleh. and i dun wanna update le lah. so stupid. haha. some fun things are that. i GONG my head against the metal pole. hurts lots. haha. and dat the ba zhang thing. relly nice and cool. =) haha. and den lalalalalala. haha. and den. yeah. went for netball. netball was cool. =) i love netball. ok. i guess im done. and yeah! i squashed jade.! haha. i tripped her and she in turn tripped me. we fell of the floor. haha. funny. okies. bybye-- peace. chill. =)

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

=) im relly happy today. i dun know whether i am getting lucky. but these days are getting so much prettier. =) i like seryang lots. he is my brother. forever so sweet. x) haha. okay. today i woke up. and went to school. i was kinda early. but chenyaan was earlier. dunno wads up with her. suddenly these days getting earlier. haha. so i came to school. =) haha. and i saw chenyaan tehy all. den i sit down haha. and she came. and we crapped. kinda. haha. and went up to class. i kinda 4got wad i did. haha. the first few periods b4 recess. we were like doing the PIE thing. and playing. i played lotsa stuff. relly pleased. =) i played. UNO. tai di. blackjack. and make the bracelet. my bracelet was relly gay. >P haha. yeah. and i lost my wallert! AHH. i owe zhengting one buck. >P and Jade 1 buck 10. whoo. im dead x) haha.

okay. recess. jade didnt go down. she was busy doing her bracelet. but her bracelet did come up well. i saw it. relly pretty and all. x) haha. and i went to swing. lotsa times. and that weiru keep provoking me. smack him ah. x) haha. so fierce somemore. den we played lotsa times. =) so nice. haha. many entangles. and after much guiding from chenyaan i finally could sit and stand back on teh pole. dat was rather pretty after all. haha. i got bumped many many times. haha. =) painful. well. fun comes with pain yeah? =) haha. um. yeah. and after that was art.

GRR! i was basically cursing that piece of abalone. i kinda lsept during class. and he was like. i send u to the sickbay ah. wah lao. den i was typically starring at him. dunno wad to say. den i kip scolding him. and jingyen was so weird. haha. oh yeah. and i was relly sad that i lost my wallet. =( haha. and chenyaan was nice enuff to go around with me finding it. haha. and we kinda stepped on some sewage water. eww. it was so smelly. and i relly think that the boys' toilet stinks. bleh. haha. yeah. and after art. was english. miss ong let us do our stuff. and i was trying to do that bounce up thing. so hard. =/ try harder bah. =) haha. and after that. yeah. we just kept playing. haha. yeah. haha.

after school was so nice. guoping said if i poured water on ronnie. he will lemme see the newsletter. but he broke his promise. aww. den i ended up half wet. and chenyaan was kinda upset coz she was waiting for me. =( sorry. my bad. haha. and then. we went to play swing. and in the rain. den was relly wet. and i saw seryang. played with him a lil' while. =) so fun though. and i begged him 2 go out with me. to clementi. =) haha. den he wanted to play soccer. so we go 1/12. den play until whole body wet. even shoes! so uncomfortable. haha. and i kept singing that new year song. =) haha. the guys and girls are so ke ai!! haha. =) and den we went back together. chenyaan went home. den i go clementi with darren and seryang. =) haha. and at mcdonalds. we saw. ahhsia. kaiqin. adeline. (1/12) and yongan. den yong an went home. aww. and seryang was SO nice. and he bought me this burger. filet-o-fish. so sweet yeah x) and laters i bought this mcColosso. and i didnt share it. haha. =) haha. and they were relly funny and all. so ke ai! and i hit ahhsai. poor thing. ='| haha. and i went to take mrt with kaiqin. he had this kenny and kyle keychain! so ke ai. haha. and his bag is relly nice. and he likes hoobastank. and den when on teh mrt. seryang called and said byebye. haha. so sweet. after the multiple times he said. when we were climbing the stairs up. haha. so nice! haha. i am so gald to have a brother like him. =) and he gave me magic cards too.okay. im done. byebye-- cya. haha. peace. chill

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

whee// today was nice. all the days seem cool now. full of stuff. im lovin' it. haha. only bits of time dat i felt sad. haha. but it was overcomed. whahahahahahha. um yeah. so today i was a lil' late. i was taking my own sweet time and all. so i was kinda late. but not late. aww. this is crap. =/ um. yeah. and i reached school. chenyaan was dere. and i kinda slammed my stuff on the ground. haha. and she bumped up a lil'. x) haha. and i went to find the nb girls. haha. and yini forced me to buy her PIE stuff. haha. kinda reminds me of my PIE stuff. haha. surely die one. =| crap. haha. and um. i passed Adeline her letter and she was relly enthu and happy. so not so worried le. =) haha. and um yeah. i helped Yini buy. =) so sweet yah? im kinda nice nowadays. =)) haha. so nice. =) haha. okok. um. yeah. den went up to class. was math. math was absolutely boring. i hate it. i dunno how i survived thru it exactly. gawd! i dun remember exactly wad has happened. haha. and um. den it was literature. i decided to go find jade they all. haha. and i squeezed with jade. hahas. =) she allowed me to. and she was pretty interested in that show when we were playing the game. so um. haha. i decided not to disturb her. x) haha. gawd. i think i cant finish crapping leh. how? nvm. i try. um. yeah. and den. it was recess. and we went to swing. haha. i 4got wad had happened. =/ im rather 4getful. =/ haha. and um. yeah.

den it was history. i guess history wasnt pretty. haha. ugly that is. its just weird. im felling so weird. dun feel like blogging. haha. um. yeah. so i roughly describe. haha. we had this whispering game. haha. during english. haha. the result was like. "there was a dog in shiping's ear" or something. haha. and um. haha. they threw my green pen down. haha. so funny. and um. yeah. after school. i was the only girl in class. and i had this fight with guoping. guanzhong and ronnie. it was kinda bad. haha. it started with guoping. and we had thsi water fight. and den for no reason. someone sprayed me. den we were like spraying each other. haha. and den it ended up with me and ronnie. haha. and we took turns to spray. using guoping's bottle. den they all cheat one. i hardly get my turn. haha. and den i accidentally spray guanzhong. haha. den he sprayed me. i was so wet le lor. haha. and den i sprayed guoping. haha. den he open the bottle cap. and we were like pushing it against each other. haha. and den i poured myself. so pathetic. and i was drenched. i decided not to play liao. after that INCIDENT. haha. and teacher came down. so scary. =/ haha. den go netball. =)

i wanna announce dat seryang is my brother. oh my gawd. how cool is that! haha. =)

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

whoO. its been kinda long since i blogged. haha. kinda. so yesterday happened like this. i was relly ahppy playing my gunbound. and i became relly sad. and xianzu and wenzong cheered me up lots. thankew. =) haha. so averagely. it wasnt so bad. =)) haha. ok. so here is how today went. um. woke up. i felt so tired. didnt want to wake up. haha. but i did. i kip mizing up my dreams. after i wake up. i cant remember a thing. and dats not relly gd is it? haha. so. yeah. den got ready and everything. and went to school. it was raining and all. and so. we had to go to class. haha. and den i went. i was a lil' late but not relly. so i wasnt late. rather early. but later den Jade and cy. haha. dats late enuff. maybe they were early. so i sat where i was. haha. starring. yet again. i tlaked to yufei a lil' abt troy. i like troy lots. =) haha. and yeah. school started and all. reading period. i was struggling with my compre summary while others were beginning to do their stuff. so i aint that lazy after all. =) haha. um. yeah. and den. it was P.E. i went to change in attire coz basically i realise in the morning dat i didnt wear my shirt. being rather lazy. i just dumped my shirt into my bag. haha. =) funny. den had to go and change. it was thomas. he wasted lots of our time. haha. LOTS. and he was doing some weird stuff. WEIRD. u heard me. haha. and i was kinda forcing chenyaan to play dat game. she was just so reluctant. >P haha.

and den we went to teh fitness corner which thomas said was the sickness corner. and he forbids us 2 go to the SICKNESS corner which we didnt coz we went to the FITNESS corner. and we were swinging. and mr. chee came. so we pretended we were climbing. haha. and i managed to climb. =) haha. and we faked him. and den thomas came. and he ruined everything. he scolded the guys. haha. and he confiscated the guys soccer ball. so unreasonable. >P haha. he didnt allow dem to play at the court, argh. so evil. and den we went to play monkey instead. haha. it was rather fun. i like to be the monkey. even though i cant relly get a catch or 2. haha. =) so. it was nice and all. got to communicate with teh girls. it was pretty. =)) aww. sweet

haha. and um. den after that went to class. it was english. everybody was like rushing to complete their homework. well. i didnt give much thoughts. haha. =)) and yeah. miss ong went thru the compre. luckily she didnt call me. co most of my answers were crap. >P haha. she relly haf high hopes on me. so i must prove it to her. =) haha. and yeah. den it was math. i went to share table with jiaqian. =) dats cool. and we crapped a lil'. and it was my turn to go to teh dentist. haha. i tot it was exciting and all. but the whole trip was bad. relly bad. so we went down. i was SO excited. haha. and den i crapped with Bernice, silk and ashnita when cy was with the dentist. aww. haha. and we crapped. we talked abt japanese animation. haha. i think i know a lil' haha. and i told them abt a few porn ones. haha. not relly porn lah. haha. and they stopped me. aww. haha

and dere i went. into the room. aww. she asked me to sit down. i didnt here. i asked whether i was supposed to sit down. and she said YEAH. in a unpretty way. so i just went with it. and she screwed my teeth. it was so painful. aww. GAWD. she screwed it. not literally. its physically. DRILL. SCREW. it hurt. i wanted to scream. but i couldnt. it seemed dat blood just keep flowing. severe loss of blood. and she asked me to rinse my mouth. GAWD. i couldnt hear her again. i asked. and she said YEAH. yet unpretty again. haha. i puked blood. literally. a rather lil' amount. haha. the experience was bad. i hate dental. dun make me go back there. i am not. Noo. its horrible. i am not going back there. i wun want to at least. haha. so yeah. i went to library. haha. saw lusandra and catherine. asked them to go dental. and i took over lusandra to play scrabble. gawd. they actually forgot to bring the list down. freak. haha. and i had to run and give them. and at this curb. i BAM onto a guy. and i was like. =/ and i continued running. and he gave me that face. ya'll know. DAT face. wahhahahahha// cool. =) haha. so i gave the nurses the paper. and i ran. back to the library to play. haha. scrabble is nice. =) haha. and dats a good thing. =) haha.

and den we went back to class. it was geography. we went thru some weird stuff. i had no idea wad it was. =/ haha. but i just went with the flow. haha. and yeah. and den yufei took my file and i was chasing him around. and i threw my pencil box. and we were fighting. haha. and we went to music room. haha. miss yeo was busy and all. so went back to class. with Mr. Hiap as our relief. man. he cant even keep the class quiet. =/ haha. and later. we went back to class and played the game. haha. and chenyaan was relly un-enthu and all. =/ haha. and xinyi and kaiyan were nice enuff to pass by. and say hello. haha. although they said they wanted to come back. in the end. they didnt. haha. but it was okay. =) haha. and we continued playing. Mr. Hiap couldnt kip us down. at all. haha. and laters. we started playing UNO. it was so nice. haha. the cards belong to catherine. haha. it was relly fun. and it was like in teh harry potter series. dats cool. haha =) and the pictures relly amazed me lots. and i had this urge to kill Jade. haha. i gave her additional 7 cards. wahhahahhaha// so cool. haha. it was relly fun. and GRR. xiao lao shi had to come to spoil the fun. aww. =| haha. and so we went back to our seats. and he told us to do this PIE thing. and gp and gavin were supposed to be leaders. and we were supposed to make bracelets and stuff. haha.

and then we could do our own stuff. i forgot wad i did. haha. kinda. and den went for lunch. we played the swing. haha. and monkey bars. haha. adeline they all said i was good. but it was no biggie. Jade could like do even worse stunts. haha. xi guan jiu hao. haha. i hung out a lil' with adeline. elaine. christina and jess. haha. it was cool. =) haha. and den i bought pink dolphin. haha. and i was relly glad dat dawei promised to gimme a squeaky spidey. whee. so nice of him! =) haha. i am happy. whee// =)) haha. and yeah. after lunch. we crapped a lil' i guess. haha. and den they planned the thingy. PIE thingy. haha. and i could slack. whee. haha. but it wasnt all that great when we know why. =/ haha. and yeah. den i began fighting with guanzhong. i dunno why. and guoping too. i think its my alien. haha. my pink princess. poor lil' guy. =( haha. and guanzhong played with this umbrella. haha. and yeah. we played relly hard. haha. and the umbrella broke. the handle broke. gawd. haha. its kinda bad. and we went to the lab. haha. and we started reading blogs. haha. and all. so sian. =| haha. kinda pathetic. i got back my alien. haha. and i left a small part at Jade's entry. hah. go see. =)

and yeah. the rest of the lessons were all crap. >P haha. relly all crap. =/ haha. funny. and den after school. we went to play swing. haha. and serously i can stand back liao. i was relly happy. haha. and i love myself. and we had this drain expedition. it was cool. we were like travelling in the drains. it was slimy. eew. haha. but overall quite okay. haha. and it was nice. haha. and i could stuff in that hole. haha. it was dirty. and yeah. we played entangle. a lil' and me and cy went to clementi. i ate takoyaki. and she ate the 25 cents ice cream. and haha. her favourite part dropped on the table. poor girl. haha. and yeah. =) haha. i guess dats all. x) so byebye--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-22T11:06:00.000+08:00

whoO. yesterday was cool. didnt update coz i spend all my internet time on gunbound. haha. okay. so here it goes. =) woke up. relly offended by my family. i was on the verge on tears. imagine. early in teh morning. when of all things. you are looking forawrd to a wonderful morning. and it was ruined. by all sorts of nagging. and pathetic yelling. i felt screwed. den.. i left for school in my grandpa's car. was so bothered and thinking that my family is not nice. so pathetic. ='| so from here. everything is screwed. but school turned it all around. wahhahaha =) so i reached school like 7.25am and i wasnt relly late. so sad. i wanted to be. at least once. so i tried squeezing thru and i ended up in the middle of the boys. and i was mistaken by Mrs. Lim that i was from 2/9. sadistic. and to my surprise. jade. chenyaan. and lusandra all came late. haha. and den me and haiming and 2 guys from 2/9 crapped. and seriously. i dun even know who they are. and YuFei mentioned abt me looking even worse den Miss Soh. i mean.. seriously miss soh is a tragic fashion statement. so. whahahahhahaha// and um. yeah den we went to class.

on the way up. was trying to find tehy all. and they were all in front. and i pathetically. was with teh guys. bleh. and i met JiaFu. and he was like.. weird. and i just walked. bored. rofl. and um. yeah. reached the classroom. and Miss soh came. and yeah. we had like 2 periods of fun. haha. and i sat at my original seat at first. experienced serious boreness. had to move. haha. btw. they were playing gunbound on paper. haha. mad abt gb. den i moved to jade there. and we all played the game. it was funky. haha. and yeah. chenyaan was not relly enthu but i was. and we relly had to do much much persuasion. rofl. haha. and i just kept singing. =) ugly but pretty in a way. at least i dun worry abt how bad it sounds. =) haha. and yeah. we played until Mrs. Lee came. and PATHETICALLY. i got enrolled in the thing. the math olympiad thingy. typically forced. but kinda my bad. cause i didnt state my unwillingness. rofl. and um. yeah. and Mr. Hiap continued his lesson. didnt listen. crapped ALOT. seriously. haha. and gp was sitting with ronnie. and we played with the mighty beanZ. wth. gp dropped my bean in ronnie's bottle. and later he drop his own one. giving the reason dat my bean might be lonely in the bottle.

and recess. we went to play scrabble. it was cool. i love that game. wahhahahah. and i came up with the word butt. whee// haha. and once i was stuck with 3 R's pathetic aint it. yeah. and was starving. relly starving. oh yeah. btw. b4 recess. gp wanted to kick me with the ball. and i kicked it b4 him. and i kicked catherine. sorry. :S my bad. was so scared. relly. haha. surprisingly. lusandra came and foudn us at the last 5 minutes of the game. and we were late for miss ong's lesson. and i quickly went into my seat. i think she realised but she didnt relly say it out loud. did she? and she kip mentioning abt my hair. oh gawd. and we had to do teh compo. and laterS. i found out that my bean in ronnie's bottle was gone. it was gone! and i didnt find it back. i didnt. =( aww. and we had to do teh compo. my draft was pathetic. horrible. ruined. wahhahahahha// it was ugly. seriously. ='| relly ugly. and Jade and chenyaan went to tht library first. i had to follow up. as my compo draft wasnt read yet. so laters. i went to fidn them. and only found Jade. she said cy had gone down. haha. and she found the poem dat we learnt ast year in this miniature book. haha.

and yeah. later. we went down and had some proper food. whee// i ate nasi lemak and i realised that i eat relly slowly in school. which is relly unpretty. aww// but oh well. and den we went to the swing. seriously didnt wanna play entangle. coz teh first time i tried. i got this wound that haf yet to heal. and hurtED me for a few days. and teh 2nd time i tried. i gong my head with the beeg knot at the end. it was painful. and someone elbowed my back or kneed it. hurt so much. alot. haha. so as i didnt want history to repeat itself. i wouldnt want to take teh risk. so i tried to like climb the wall. i couldnt. =( one day i can. i know i can. sadistic. haha// but i believe i can de lah. =)) haha. and um. yeah. so later went back to class with Jade as cy need the toilet and asked us to go ahead up. so we did. rofl. =) haha. and yeah. it was lit. we had to copy a whole chunk of stuff. haha. and i lent pple my green pen leaving myself desperate. and i kinda lina lei lusandra. i think i owe lusandra alot. my life. maybe. haha. no lah. where got so yan zhong. just alot. everything also go find her. =) haha. =)) and um. yeah. haha. so i read out the stuff that was supposed to be copied. while lusandra copied. making it easier for her as she nid not raise her head multiple times. haha.

and so b4 ACC. i threw my alien. and it rebound. haha. and i went to pick it up. and something happened. i was unsure. gz accused me. but i seriously didnt think it happen. and i hope it didnt. aww. den i was desperately trying to prove my innocence. haha. and i went outside the boys toilet. and gz dared me in. haha. and i just stood outside. and he pulled me in. i was freaked out. and Jade wouldnt let me explain. and i she pulled me. and i was so tragically squealling on the floor. struggling. like in those old tragic stories. haha. and they stole my alien. and threw it around. and i had to get it back. they keep saying it was Franz. and it was not. and i beat him alot. my bad. =| haha. and yeah. we sat at the girls side. and the guys with my alien was at the other side. haha. so we had to move there. we tried inching there but to no avail. and we reached Haiming there. and i was trying to find out who is Jasmine. haha. and haiming came up with this idea. to call Jasmine and see who will fanying. and Haiming was speaking so softly and i had to help. so i shouted. haha. and she turned around. haha. i guessed correctly. =) haha. and later me and Jade came up with this idea to go toilet. and den to come back at gz they all there. haha. and we went to toilet. haha. it was a secret. =) haha. and saw qizhi. he told us to go down. haha. and we saw Mr. Thomas. chilling out. reading his newspaper. so we didnt dare. we came up. haha. and sat at gz they all dere. =) haha. and i came up with this idea to take his wallet. and lotsa action. and that old female tcher said something like nan bu nan nu bu nu. =O shocked. haha. yeah. den we sat there and watched as there was no moment that we can move back.

den after school. they started accusing me again. and they fought with me. 3v1. Franz.gp.gz against me. solo. gp and gz each had a ball. and they whacked me and said it was Franz so i hit Franz alot. and he whacked me back. and i got internal bleeding which hurted alot. =( haha. and den went down for netball. wasnt relly told. so i didnt train. sad. and i went to play swing a while. terrence and kai hao was there. and we played entangle. now i know how it goes. haha. i know i wun hit myself le. =) haha. dats cool. and maybe we shld teach Jade. so that she can play. without fear. whahahahhahaha// and Adeline Tan. my junior had gastric. and Beverly was there for her. so sweet and caring. and tehy left at 4.30pm and beverly helped her carry her bag. how sweet. dats how frens shld be eh? gd role models. =) haha. den i was stoning. so bored. i would like to train. =) haha. yeah. and laters. went home by myself. lalalala x) haha. and started using the computer. was on gunbound for rather long. played and played. wahhahahhahah// =) haha. c0oool. lalala. the guys are pretty funny. and i left feeling rather angry. nvm. dun say liao. haha. and now i hafta help my brother to play runescape. so cya. byebye== chill// peace--

p.S. this all happened on Friday.

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

its like a whole new day today. exceptionally different. *wonders why?* it just seemed kinda different den all those days. so it all started when i woke up. today my dad wasnt at home. he went to Penang. i miss him! aww. and my mum woke me up. it was freaky. i prefer my dad waking me up. it just all seemed better. so my grandpa sent me 2 school instead of my dad. and i was so freaking early. but luckily. chelsea they all come le. so go find dem and started crapping and all. =) whahahahhaha. it is xinyi's birthday tomorrow. wonders wad would happen. the nb gals are supposed to go and celebrate her birthday today at Bugis. but i cant. coz my mum wun allow. wad so eva. its all the same excuses. they just want me to stay at home. dats all. ='| haha

my com is severly screwed. =| bleh. and um.. den we went to class. found out dat we hafta see miss betty ong for 5 periods. dats alot. wahahhahaha. and den we had free period. i was basically sitting dere stoning. *petrifies* i had nothing to do. wanna find Jade they all but dun dare to. so just sit dere. den after a whole hour of like staring at nothing. mrs. lee and mr. hiap came. and they brought the math papers with them. and so.. we got back our results. its quite okay. im rather glad. =) wahhahahha. =) and um.. den it was recess. i bought tau huay. and we went to the monkeybars to eat. and it starting raining. and i was practically dancing around. wahhahahhaha--// and um. we walked around and stuff. and went to teh library. den play scrabble. so nice x) i live scrabble. and den..

we go hall. to go thru papers: literature and art. my lit was rather okay. but not relly gd. and my art is bad. relly bad. very very! =/ i put in alot effort! but. nvm. den calculated my average. lost to alot pple. cannot get 5th place le. imma gonna cry! but was still smiling. if i remembered correctly. and after dat. we went back to teh classroom and saw miss betty ong for another hour. haha. we went thru paper one. did not relly gd. sad. =/ and Jade was teh only one who scored and A. congrats! whahahahha. and den her average was so high. can stand her whining when her marks are already so high! haha. greedy! haha. and mine was dung. basically. wahhahahahahhaha// and den it was lunch..

lunch we went to play swing. seryang is forever so sweet. and nice. wahhahahha// and um.. yeah. =) same old thing. nothing relly "happening" and all. haha. and den after lunch we went upstairs to class. yeah. and we were rather late. wahhahaha. and we kept relly quiet and waited for Mr. Aurelius Yeo to come. he has a awesome name. =) wahhahahha. and. he came. surprised. and he let us do our own stuff for 1 period. wahhahahha. so i cant stand stoning. so went to find Jade they all. and we played this cool game. we hafta like say this artist name. (singer. band) and we hafta continue with teh last two alphabets. something liek that. and we played and played. haha. for an hour. and it was P.E. haha. Mr. Thomas is back!! haha. funny. and we went to play monkey bars and all. wahahhahahahahhahahha// funny. and we were still playign the game and we now hafta sing the song. rofl. i sang badly but.. haha. its just a game right and honestly. i was rely enthu. haha. hardly get to update so much. its quite lil' actually but. haha. okayS. cya// peace. chill. byebye--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-19T19:11:00.000+08:00

today was basically all right i guess. =) and dat sounds good right? i hope. went to school relly early today. was so unlike me. went back to our original seating arrangement. and i was staring out of the window. my feeling was like a prisoner. i haf absolutely nobody to talk to u see. looking around, everybody was crapping around and talking. yet i sat there thinking abt achilles. rofl. i decided i rely like brad pitt lots!! dun like orlando bloom le. i still cant get over the fact dat he actually killed him! =/ its relly sad! and den. Jade came. and we kinda crapped. i was like so enthu abt Troy. wahahahahahaS// and she was abt Ven helsing. =/ i wanna watch the show. but.. and den. rosman came. and told us to do art. and i told him i completed liao. haha. and den i can walk around. so i went chenyaan dere as Jade was tired. and we crapped and ended up playing ping pong. wahhahahha. it was quite fun but i am relly lousy. bleh. =/ and den check science paper. it was a total flop. i did relly badly. and i dun like it.

and den check history paper. i seriously nearly cried. although i was smiling. i felt so much like crying. it was relly bad. and i dun wanna talk abt it le. =( haha. and den was recess. and den wad did we do? recess we went to the swing. haha. quite okay. seryang is so sweet. i like him lots. haha. and den after recess. we checked teh chinese paper. and den i did rather badly. =( sad. and den english paper. still badly =( and den geog. actually geog was quite all right. coz i niao yufei. wahhahaha. by one mark. but he niao my history by 16! rofl. i hate history. imma nvr take history again! no no no no! and den we went back class. very sian. sit dere do nothing. but we crapped.

den after school i was basically begging guanzhong they all to let me play soccer. and i went like "can i play? PLSPLSPLPSLS" so miserably. rofl. and they let me play. it was relly funny. wahhahahhahha// and guoping fell down. poor guy. haha. it was kinda fun. seriously. haha. and den. laters they all wanna kick me. with the ball. so i sit nxt to the dustbin. wahhahahha. and that guy he kick the ball and smash the window. (p.S. pls dun tell this to anybody else.) haha. it was awful! i was so afraid. wahhahahhaha. den we went home.

chenyaan came my house. she seemed relly bored. and i didnt wad to do. aww// sad. it was relly boring at home. lalallalalla-- okieS. im done. i love brad pitt. cya. byebye// peace-- chill-- x)

[[yanling//

2004-05-18T18:42:00.000+08:00

today was fun. =) in the morning. went to school. quite early. saw adeline. sat dere and talked to her. and den asked around for math file. den revise a lil' den the netball girls planned to go out watch Troy. den i wanna go. =) wahhaha. and den later. go to class. math exam. i hate that tcher. dat short and fat one. so disgusting. come into class. den scream and scream. math was full of crap. totally. i screwed it. =/ and den after school. went to cineleisure with kaiyan.chelsea.xinyi.huimin.karen.huiqi. yeah. den go watch troy. its very nice. i relly like brad pitt now. =) wahhahaha. and den after that. walked around. and den we went to the arcade. we played. the disc thingy. and DDR. i cant dance. rofl. and we played this arm wrestling thingy. very funny. haha. and den play the cars. and skateboarding. haha. very fun. rofl. okays. im done. bybye-- chill. peace. x)

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

today we had the art exam. i think it was a total flop. coz i had one hour to spare. and i was basically doing nothing there. haiz. my prepatory work shld be much much better compared to the real picture itself. the picture looked so plain. ='| full of crap. basically. all my exams all totally ruined. meh// and i went to wash my plalette in the bucket to waste some time. roflmao. so hard to wash. had to use this beeg beeg brush. and i kept laffing thru teh exam. rofl. and edwin stepped on my leg while he was walking out. so painful. u see his size. u will know how painful le. step so hard somemore. den i shouted OUCH in teh middle on the exam. rofl. so duilian. =/ and um. yeah. we handed in our work and i realised that my bag was invaded by ants. its so scary when u see those lil' things crawl up ur bag. and one even crawled on me. eew// and yeah. guoping and i kept shooting rubber bands. rofl. and wingkin and clement was like showing this 5 bucks note. okayS. they made Mr. Yusof faace turn weird. rofl. =) it was quite funny. and was laffing away. when others were like concentrating on their "beautiful" piece of artwork. when mine is like a piece of toilet paper. rofl.

and after that. me, Jade and chenyaan went to clementi. walked their coz they had no ex-link card. =/ sian. and walk and walk. den saw huimin. haha. and walked. to KFC. and this time dere was this guy who said "Jade" instead on "yanLing" rofl. laffed. and i bought this shroom's burger meal. and changed my potato thingy to cheese fries. and chenyaan wet it. with her plain water. "you owe me one cheese fries" dun care. rofl. and me and Jade kinda forced her to take free water for us. and the auntie was kinda angry. rofl. and we took neoprint. =) this time was rather okay. and laterS i went to buy kuti kuti for my brother =) haha. wad a nice sister he has. rofl. =) and um, yeah. it cost 2 bucks. and im kinda broke so. =)) haha. and laters we went to the cd shop. i cant find hoobastank's cd. and im relly angry. GRR! how can they not haf their cd. rofl. and um. yeah. den went home. tada. here i am. =) okay.im gonna start on gb. later gonna practice lotsa math and watch even stevens. disco. byebye// peace-- chill--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-16T09:42:00.000+08:00

i didnt blog yesterday. *wonders why* perhaps i forgot. =) haha. um.. yesterday i woke up and realised i miss the sabrina show. really upset. and den i went on to watch Lilo and Stitch the series. and the sleepover club. that show is boring. and even stevens. on even stevens. Mr pookie was gone. poor Ren--// and beanz bought an antique plate for 85 cents and he sold it for like 8500. haha. and Louis was like. "o.o" haha. it was relly funny. it is always funny. =) haha. and after that i watched totally spies. its a nice show. sleepover club just sucks. dun watch it. um.. yeah. after i watched the shows. i was entitled to like 3 hours on the computer. and so i played gunbound for the whole 3 hours. *goes crazy* haha. and um.. yeah. and den. i went up to my room and wanted to sleep. but couldnt. oh yeah. btw. on friday night. i woke up at like 5am in the morning. den i couldnt sleep. coz i remembered Jade's mirror story. couldnt sleep. and i was in like great depression. den i think and think couldnt sleep. den the TV was on. den i heard the darkness dat song. wahahaha--// laffing like mad. haha. actually its not that bad. =) haha. um.. yeah. so i continue with the saturday. i went up. couldnt sleep. was thinking again. den watch alot of T.V. whee// haha. and they actually haf sabrina on on saturdays. whee// but now i prefer even stevens. haha. its nice. =)

and at night. was doing art. and i completed stage one. whee. haha. and we watched this relly bian tai show. it was horrible. bleh// i dun like this kinda stuff. its so bian tai. haha. i dun like. it gives me the shivers. haha. and watched badminton. its quite cool. coz they play relly well. maybe i shld try some day. =) haha. okay. so i guess dat is all for saturday. i guess today would also be rather boring. coz.i hafta get the art thingy going. =) im hardworking. haha. okay. so dats all. PEACE! byebye--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-14T20:14:00.001+08:00

today is bad. and i am like suffering from severe depression. great depression. ='| and i dun like it. its like my favourite show "even stevens" cannot even cheer me up. dats VERY bad. very very. very very very. VERY VERY VERY. BAD. and bad cant be good. whoOpx. i just pressed publish post. i stopped it. but i guess it will still be published. cnat be bothered. today woke up at like 4am. and studied one page. and i fell asleep without knowing. and den 5am woke up. forced myself to stay awake. i just browse thru and finished and sleeped. at 6am. to 6.30. my dad woke me up. and i begged my brother to wake up first. and i continue sleeping. thus. i only sleep for like 5 hours. i need 10 hours of sleep. and afternoon got depression. cannot sleep. cannot. was so bored. thinking SO much. much much. came to school. and yeah. i ruined my exam. yet again! i was so sleepy that i wanted to sleep. and i interpreted 5 questions wrongly which adds up to like 7 marks. its like wth. man. this isnt good. i am bound to lose to yufei for sure. full of crap. and yufei was so nice to lend me his science file. without it. i will ruin my exam even further. and that is not good. but yufei would be utmost happy to find out that yanling screwed her test up. won't he? haha.

and so. after the exam. we went to the swing. okay. i got more blisters. BAM. i hate it when that happens. and um. yeah. and we were late for math remedial. and in the class. we were basically not listening. and crapping the whole while. and Jade mentioned something abt a guy at KFC calling yanling. and constantly. and i was liek "who is calling me." and oh wow. he was calling another person. so o.o haha. full of crap. but rather funny. i am forcing myself to laugh these days. and that is not good. which in turn means bad. and bad cant be good right. aw. see i speak senseless stuff. and we crapped alot alot alot. and den we went to JP after school.

took 198 dere as both of them : chenyaan and Jade didnt have ez-link cards. and the cards are like the most important thing u know. and so. we took 198. was a long ride. and i crapped alot. alot-- and den we bought mcflurry and stuff. yeah. its basically wad could happen when u go out that kinda thing. nothing special. but its nice. Jade hardly goes out. thats cool. and um. yeah. i saw the hoobastank CD finally and its like on 18 bucks? going on 19. that sorta thing. and the guys look like dickheads. but.. all that matters is that they look nice now. =) and i like alex band. he is so hot? haha.

and den back home. i was relly sick. i didnt know why. and my condition worsened. i went upstairs wanted to get some sleep. and guess wad? i couldnt sleep. man. even stevens was very very funny. but i was down. so it only made me smile. i treid to laff. i did. but aww. haha. cant be bothered with myself. nowadays. sabrina, teh animated series seem to be like constantly repeating its episodes. so it isnt nice. boO// okayS. cya. peace out.

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-14T20:14:00.000+08:00

2004-05-13T12:35:00.000+08:00

i had trouble with my exam today. was SO tired. and i actually thought of sleeping. i couldnt concentrate on my paper somehow. somehow. i just couldnt. felt so much like sleeping. how i could just lie on my bed. and the problem is i keep laffing. thruout the whole exam. i thought of the NCC picture. and i keep laffing. mdm wong is so funny. and i also kept laffing. and now i am laffing. its relly funny. haha. um.. yeah. teh poem was talking abt a poison tree. and so much cheem language. i dunno lah. all i know is i will fail. i surely will. bound to anywayS. bleh. gimme a miracle. =) please..? hahaS. after exam. i begged Jade and chenyaan to go to clementi with me. to buy cheese. and soeme kuti kuti. its some kinda weird thing that my brother likes. but the stall isnt open. it seemed like it dao bi or something. we went to eat KFC. and i paid alot of this gigantic meal. full of crap. FULL. its like really alot alot. =) yeah. den eat finish. went to take neoprint. haha. its funny. everything is funny. =) hahaS. um.. yeah. i guess that is all that happened. its kinda un-exciting this few days. sadly. ='| see ya. =) smile

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-12T12:34:00.001+08:00

these days are really normal. maybe its bcoz of the exams bah. really nothing special happening. just seem like history repeating itself. for no reason. this is weird. weird. very. i realise that i am very selfish. and not much like a girl. at least not a girly girl that all girls are supposed to be. i am more of a selfish thing. its weird. i thought i am considered rather girly with my frens. but with my family. i am like exactly no different from a boy. i scream. i shout. i am greedy. not to mention selfish. i realise that i am really very selfish when it comes to the computer. i just cannot stand it when pple like wanna use it. its like i will think that its mine. and mine alone. i wun wanna share. and dat makes me a selfish creature. and dat makes me not nice. so i decided that maybe i shant play so much of teh computer. i mean. who doesnt liek the computer. its like me computer is part of me. without the computer. stuff just seems meaningless to me. it does. and i shall share. coz this selfishness abt not sharing the computer haf made my relatives upset and not to mention angry with me. i felt guilty and remorseful. i dun like to make pple angry. i shant be so self-centred anymore. but sometimes. i just cant help it. i will try to be nice. at least. pple say i am like a boy. and this happens within school premises and at home. i am INFLUENCED. to be like that. i just hang around with pple like me. but some pple just seem different. i dunno wad is so wrong abt being a girl. if wearing dresses. not screaming. and being nice. and helpful makes me a better person. makes me a better girl. makes pple like me. why not? i can try to be like one. but the problem is that i cannot stop screaming. and i cant wear skirts bcoz i very scared zhou guang. its the way of life. i mean im just who i am. who i am supposed to be. but i change. to become a better person. but nothing makes me feel like a better person. maybe i shld do some self-reflection. so the finale is "be more like a girl" sometimes. i question myself. wad do pple dislike me so much? and teh answer is i am not like a girl. seriously. thats the way it goes. its weird and all. if i just do some self-sacrifice and be like a girl. maybe i will get lotsa nice pple to be my frenS? maybe. maybe someday i shld try. someday. !! i did some research. pple say i behave like a guy. and some say becoz i am black. i am not black. its called TAN. right. and i am crazy? aww. am i? maybe i am. a little. =) and i scream too much. aww. this research is not getting on good. okayS. now i am doing comparisonS. lets see.. i will report next time. =) um.. yeah. so today was fine. i flung my history. i kip ruining my examS. tomorrow literature. hope i dun ruin it. hahaS. byebye-

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-11T10:56:00.000+08:00

today is sad. i flunged my chinese exam totally. It all seemed so well. now i ruined it. i hope i dun ruin my history exam yah? so later must start studying le. cannot go and sleep or wad. just pure studying! =) yesterday wanted to study. but.. couldnt care. den in the end. so slack. and i flung my test and this aint happeneing again. history cannot repeat itself yah? =) hahaS. um. so today in the morning. i woke up a couple of timeS. many many in fact. like 5? at different timeS? couldnt sleep properly. in the end. woke up. started revisiong chinese. sian man. i sure die liao. T.T lalalala-- YuFei is gonna beat me in chinese. BOO-- um. yeah. after the examS. me. chenyaan and Jade went to Clementi. we walked there in fact. woaH. hahaS. we walked one big round. hahaS. and they were whining. hahaS. coz i led the way? and den we went to buy McDonalds from the small small store. and saw haiming. and den we decided to go to the bigger one coz they sell breakfast. hahaS. i borrowed 2 bucks from haiMing. =) hahaS. and den eat. nice. ate big breakfast. and crapped a whole lot. and den HaimIng. dunno why also come to the big McDonaldS. and den we crapped. den go home. i took the mrt in the end. dunno why also. hahaS. took with Haiming. den we crapped abt alot of stuff. cool! =) hahaS. okayS. byebye--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

wow. just realised that blogger changed its template. hahaS. today was average. slighty to the good side? hahaS. erm.. my exams were rather okayS. just worried abt my english. i studied like crap for geography. and i aint gonna fail it. No. i will not fail. =) hahaS. um.. yeah and i decided that i could get an A? i hope i can. i kinda think i flunged my english. so oh well. couldnt care. hahaS. um yeah.. last night. i studied till 12midnight. and den i woke up at 4am in the morning to get my geog straight. so i aint gonna mess it up. =) hahaS. i think im gonna flung my history. tomorrow is chinese. hope i can like study finish at night so i can haf a good night's sleep so i aint gonna play so long. on the computer. yeah. after my examS. was so famished. so go clementi with Chenyaan. hahaS. quite okay lah. i ate takoyaki and we made a visit to NTUC. hahaS. we crapped. =) nowadays will write very little coz nutin happened. oh yeah.. on my way home. i saw my relative. hahaS. its so cool! hahaS =) okayS. im done. byebye--

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

today was all right. i ate alot. bound to gain some calories. BOUND to. hahaS. morning. woke up. at 9am. den i was like OMG. its sabrina. den i went to watch. gawd. i love HARVEY. hahaS. its nice. harvey is SUCH a nice name. if i am gonna haf kids. i am gonna name them harvey. maybe i shld get a name. HARVEY. cool! hahaS. and den i dug for food. and found pringleS. pizza flavoured. tasted relly good. ate more den 10 campinoS, absolutely fab. hahaS. and den watched the whole show of Studio D> went down. played the computer. hahaS. den went up. tried to study. and i wanted to sleep. promised myself an hour of sleep but i started thinking. and couldnt get to sleep and den my hour was up. CRAP! had to study. and studied 2 chapterS. now i am at chapter 8. haiz. today night i better get to chapter 20. gonna burn the midnight oil. WEE-- hahaS. and yeah. afternnon had mother's day celebration. hahaS. had steamboat. and me and xianzu was like kip singing roses. its stuck in my head. and its quite a nice song.

and dere was this girl. she was my cousin's gf i think. and she was like "girls shld haf a girl's attitude" she said that in chinese at the dinner table TO ME. i was insulted. VERY. and i tried to be like a decent lady. PLS. im too much of a brute. O.O i cant be a lady. a proper one at least. and um yeah. ate quite alot. den went to play ps2. coz i know i will nvr get my turn on gb. hahaS. so we played Worms 3D. holy fun. and they had sheeps! and they look AWESOME. relly cool. =) and yeah. they had this super sheep. and they look seriously groovy. hahaS. did i mention how much i LOVE sheepS. wee-- den played. it was quite fun. and den sian liao. went to play gb. hahaS. gb is nice when u haf nice frenS to play with. and i played with jing mao shi tai. hahaS. =)) he was so adorable. *pinch pinch* hahaS. very nice. hahaS. um.. yeah thats abt it. byebye-- sabrina the animated series rawkS. i lvoe harvey *faints*

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

today was all right. =) hahaS. and um.. yeah. kinda cool. =) got to know alot of stuff i didnt know. hahaS. so there it goes. woke up in the morning. den was kinda late bcoz my brother injured his arm and haf to bandage it. I think its my fault cause he wasnt sleeping in the correct position thus i shifted him by pulling his hands. and i heard a crack. SHHH! dun tell him. =) hahaS. den go to school. saw chenyaan. den i came down from the car. dun dare to cross the road. hahAs. den later went up with chenyaan. saw Jade. very mood-less. den reading period started. hahaS. i kinda quarrelled with sexy soh. thats wad they call her. den laterS.was chinese. adeline passed by and threw my note into teh class. how sweet x) i read it. hahaS. she was depressed. i wanted to cheer her up badly. but how? = | den tcher started the yi ke yi lian thingy. den mark mark. den we were passing notes around. hahaS. den laterS tcher asked me to carry the newspapers at the back to the recycle bin. and Jingyen is supposed to help. but he didnt. GRR! and on the way. i saw edwin and he ran the minute he saw me. AHH! den ran to the bin. hahaS. den laterS.

was math. math was fine i guess. i didnt relly listen though. oh yeah. and Lusandra gave me a tou tou bing. so nice hor? heeheeS. den went for recess. went to 2/3 to find Adeline. but the whole class wasnt there. so went down. Jade had to do her summary and told us to go down. so we did. laterS met them at the lao di fang. hahaS. den laterS. play play play. Jade so kelian. didnt know that her shoe became wet and all that. so sorry. and i even went to play basketball with it. so sorry!! i feel so guilty now. O.O BRR! den after they played with Jade's shoe. they nearly played with mine. luckily jing mao shi tai help me take. =) hahaS. =)) my mum is angry. aww. = | den laterS. went back to class. Jade seemed weird. den was english. English was extremely boring. and den i was writing some words on a paper and flashing it to guoping. hahaS. so funny. and den do lots of comprehension. so sian ah. hahaS. den laterS was like lunch. waited for Adeline to come. she promised she will. and she did. den we went down together. and played played. okay lah. den this guy kip mizing up me. and Jade's name. hahaS! so funny. Adeline was sad. i can see it on her face. she was. = ( and i am too. hahaS. den laterS was literature. wasnt listening at all. passing notes. hahaS. den laterS ACC. watch a weird show. den quite bian tai. hahaS. x) huang gang mah. hahaS. den me and Jade crapped. den laterS got geography supplementary. hahaS. b4 that. we saw chenyaan's picture. was laffing my ass off lor. hahaS. den geography supplementary. got to know Mr. Yeo abit more. he is quite nice actually. not so fierce. hahaS. quite nice. den went home with Jade. hahaS. and i said i will smack her if her 151 comes first. and it did. and i smacked her. hahaS. den went home myself. at the bus-stop saw Jingyen! hahaS. laffing like crap. den went home. hahaS. take care everybody.

anyways. i love SABRINA THE TEENAGE WITCH. i love KAI. and i love HARVEY~! WWWWWWEEEEEE! chill everybody. =))

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

oh my fucking god! all the crap i updated was GONE.. fuck! FUCK. nvm today was crap. just that crapped with Guan ZHong they all. crap lah. so angry. later got time den update again. wad the fuck. im so angry now! GRR!

-fucked.-

2004-05-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

today was hmm. normal i guess. hahaS. so today started. had a headache. aww. den i got ready very quickly. so stupid. den come to school. was raining. so i was kinda happy. den laterS go up to class. so sian. stone there. Jade. come earlier leh! = | i saw this william hung video 2/7 was playing when i came to school. hahaS. was awfully hilarious! =) den yeah. i went down to 1/12. den i was like saying that his guy who weighs 92kg was going to break the lockerS. and he said he wanted to punch me. so i ran for my life. hahaS. so scary. den laterS. i went back to class. den saw chenyaan and we started crapping. hahaS. btw. thankew Ashnita for the ferrero rocher. yum yum! =) its nice. =)) den laterS. had the pledge.

was wondering why Jade didnt come. wanted to steal her ferrero rocher. just joking. hahaS. den i couldnt find my english article. den went up in front to take. den come back to my seat. saw it on teh chair. made my way to the front to put back the paper. so stupid! den do the article abt this woman marrying her dead fiancé hahaS. so noble. yet so ridiculous. hahaS. den it was english. got back CME paper. hahaS. quite okay lah. 37/40 den i actually is 36 de. den go get one more mark. den i was like laffing away. den miss ong said "stop laffing like that" den i "okok--" hahaS. so funny. den Jade flunged herS i guess. she seemed quite sad though. hahaS. but CME isnt important. u shld see her normal results. will feel inferior. i was very worried when miss ong mentioned that i got like 17 or 18 for the compo. so scared now. hmm. den laterS. was math. was blowing my nose thru the entire math thingy. hahaS. brought lotsa tissue today. =)) hahaS. =) den laterS. recess. was raining. couldnt go to the swing. so we ate proper food.

ate nasi lemak. hahaS. yeah. and i saw jing mao shi tai. said hello. he seem so scared of me. BOOHOO--. T.T hahaS. anyways. after recess. den was science. chenyaan chanegd place with wingkin. den had to copy lotsa stuff. and tcher started the squating thing. my spiritual will be hurt! AHH. hahaS. so funny. den guan zhong. sit with jingyen and we crapped alot alot. hahaS. quite okay lah. den laterS. was english. miss betty ong's lesson. and she didnt realise i changed place. so oh well. hahaS. den we went thru teh comprehension. and den. was lunch. we went to the fitness area where we always go. now. we dun go monkey bar nor swing. we go pull up bar. hahaS. den yah. den we sit on the wooden planky thing. and ser yang can raise us up. so cool! =)) um yeah. and den we go upstairs.

was geography. Jade. chenyaan. and jiaqian sit together. no space for me liao. so sad. so i sat where i was. den guanzhong go jingyen place. den we crapped. hahaS. quite okay. just that very lonely. hahaS. and wingkin was like HIPPOPOTAMUS. kip saying and saying. den i was laffing and mr yeo come. so scary! hahaS. den okay lah. den laterS P.E. very sian. so decided to go run 2.4km with ShiPing. hahaS. i so nice. den in the end. he passed. hahaS. den very good! +)) heeheeS. yeah. den after that go home. so sian. today was all right. and yeah. went home with Lusandra. =) she's a nice girl. kelian one-- =)) take care everybody. bye~!

[[yanling//]]

2004-05-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

today was bad. awful. terrible! aww. its so sad. nvm. =) hahaS. so today woke up. felt so sick. started singing the reason. i just love that song. and den. went to school. was stoning all along. so sad. = | den waited until chelsea they all go the lao di fang. den i go. crapped. omg! just realised that i lost my earringS. CRAP! my mum gonna kill me when she find out. = | was so excited that it was NAPFA. but.. nvm. i shall continue. den laterS. went back to position. den saw Jade. haiz. no mood. feeling so down yet again.

den was chinese. sian. wingkin got so excited abt his marks. den coz count wrong. den his marks like crap. so he very HOT. hahaS. den foyang and me so scared. so we call xiao lao shi. den we say he mad. hahaS. den was science. science was boring. except that i tried doing that arm stretching thingy. and my chair slid away. and i fell on the floor. so painful. bleh. den recess. i love jing mao shi tai. he is so sweet. hahaS. =)) so nice. yeah. and adeline came. hahaS. so fun! den was art.

Art was all right. den laterS. was english. den i was like starring at wingkin. coz i bu swuang. den he stare behind me. so i turn back. and Miss Ong was there. it was so scary!! den my heartbeat rate go up by thousands. hahaS. den yah. den assembly. it was horrible. felt that pple dun believe me. so angry! nvm. hahaS. den laterS. we go play swing for short while.

kinda decided not to go Ginza. but when i found out Haiming was going. i wanted to go. haiz. but i didnt like it in the end. haiz. and the Mcdonalds was the key to my failure. bloody hell! so angry. i deproved so much. its all bcoz of my knee injury and the McDonaldS. if not i can get like 30 points! so angry. GRR! it ruined my day anywayS. hahaS. anywayS. take care and bye bye! =)

[[yanling//]]
flunged.

2004-05-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

today was not nice. i guess. went to school with a sore throat. saw Jade's bag. but not the person. den i went netball dere. okayS. den it all started without me realising. hahaS. den lalalalalalala. end of school. went to clementi with Lusandra. found out. okayS. im done. bye. dunno why nowadays dun feel like blogging. Just dun feel right. hahaS. next time? =)

[[yanling//]]
unrealisation

2004-05-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

imagine. i am sneakily playing the computer right now. and i am not supposed to come online at all. but i found the connection cable that my mum kept. so here i am now. wahhahaS-- to tell me off. hmph. so i guess i am fine now. after reading my chinese compo. yah. i shld forgive and forget right? so nowadays. i am going to kip my blog. short sweet to the point. hahaS.

so here it goes. went to school today. btw. i shitted 5 times yesterday. hahaS. so my bro was supposed to wake up first. but he slept. so i woke up. wanted to scold him. but. i forgave him. hahaS. so went to school. saw yini. walked with her in. den find chelsea they all. hahaS. talked abt compo. examS coming. mid-year blues. hahaS. =)) den yah. waited for Jade. wah kao. so late ah. *smackS* hahaS. den laterS. go classroom. quite hyper.

exams. quite okay lah. den laterS. i sat beside Jade and foyang. haiz. cannot stand him ah. den today keep shouting and shouting. like siao zah boh liddat. but that kinda drove my blues away. so thats good yah? hahaS =)) den foyang. i shant say much abt him! watch out yah? Muahahhaha--

after school. actually planned to go back with lusandra. and den Jade also same route. so we went. den chenyaan added in. =)) den laterS. we walked. and crapped. hahaS. den we crossed the road. and laterS me and Jade decided to go to Clementi. hahaS =)) den we went and ate Takoyaki while crapping. It was really fun. hahaS. den laterS we walked around. and i bought this packet of sweet which costed me 2 bucks. den teh salesgirl and TAKA jewelry go take mine! HMPH! so angry. and den we walked to comic connection. =)) den lateRs. we went there. and say this "mushi mushi" thing. thats wad Jade said. its relly soft and extremely huggable. =)) hahaS. and i bought it for my mum! didnt want her to feel outcasted as i didnt give her bday present. =)) so i got her the mushi mushi. and Jade bought this weird book. namely Japanese thingy. weird. it didnt attract me much. but hahaS. she liked it. hahaS. ant it costed so much. hahaS. den she also bought this thing for Ashnita. and i said it was relly nice. hahaS. =))

den laterS. we went home. at 4.15. hahaS. den i take at the same busstop as her. as she pei me come to clementi. =)) so we went there. and she was so excited when her bus came. and she left. and den my bus came. hahaS. den my maid took me back. my bag was so heavy. hahaS. poor sukinah. <-- thats her name yah? den laterS. came home. couldnt stand a day without my buddy computer. so i sneaked. =)) hahaS. end now. short. sharp. to teh point. hahaS> =)) take care everybody.

[[yanling//]]
=))

2004-05-02T18:25:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so down right now. i feel like crying. again? its like in a mess. feel like killing someone again. its like exactly how i felt once before. and no one will share this pain with me. i will just cry. and do nothing abt it. let myself suffer in misery. in intense pain. with all that crap. no one will be by my side. nobody! no one will. they arent true. they just say stuff and 4get. 4get that i even did happen. i am going to break down. one day. i will tell the world. THEY SUCK! =))

[[yanling//]]
mood-less

2004-05-01T20:35:00.000+08:00

hahaS. today is saturday. and saturdays can never be good right? so its bad. morning. STUFF myself with homework. and i completed everything. Muahahha-- tomorrow stuffing myself with gunbound or studies instead. =) hahaS. i cannot afford to let yufei surpass me. and i just look at him do that right? i must fight back. Muahahha-- okayS. den afternnon went to Giant. den my father waited really long for this parking lot. den this guy just drove in. den my dad was so fuming. and he shouted at that guy. they kinda start to quarrel. and i was so scared i was on the verge to tears. i didnt know wad to do. luckily it stopped really soon. but it spoilt my day. definitely. very much.

den we went all the way up to the fourth floor until we found a parking lot. den laterS went into this lift. den we SQUEEZED in. den this woman was like. "These people are so kiasu" den blah blah blah. den "DISGUSTING" wah kao eh. so loud lor. den i quiet quiet de. dun dare to tell my dad. i know he is angry but he didnt want to show it in front of me. =) he is my beloved. x) hahaS. den we went to book shop. den i saw this Hamtaro funfax file. its real cute. wanted to buy it. but its damn X. den i left it dere. hahaS.

den laterS went to giant. Bought so much crap. and i bought Venus. hahaS. finally. Jade was telling me to buy on Friday. den i was like i dun dare. and phew. my dad paid. =) and i wanted to buy a whole tin of lollipops. but its on 30++ bucks. so sad hor. haiz. but i bought Ruffles. oh yeah. this morning. i had sore throat. was really really sore. but dun haf that kinda voice. so i decided to make it worse. but its okay now. and surprisingly. it became okay after i ate one whole BIG BIG packet of doritoes. haiz. so sad.

den laterS went to swimming complex dere to fetch my bro. mum and xianzheng. hahaS. he came to stay at my house. hahaS. den i listened to his N-GAGE. so cool hor. den i listened to roses. hahaS. so weird. but rather okay. and Don't tell me. its stuck in my head. all right. and THE REASON. i am going to listen to iot over and over again. and sing it in school on monday. Jade: BEWARE! muahahhah-- hahaS. anyways. chill x)

[[yanling//]]
and the reason is ME.

2004-04-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

hmph! so angry that Orlando Bloom has a girlfren le. hahaS. plain jealousness. hahaS/ no lah. actually. he haf so many fanS dat. haiz. starS are starS. i know them. they dunno me. so sad. hahaS. and i like jing mao shi tai. hahaS. he is so nice. =) hahaS. okieS. gonna start my crap le.

today was all right. and FUN actually. hahaS. woke up. overheard my brother and dad talking. brother had to go early. and i just refuse to go early. and slept on. My dad den fetch my brother to school. and i continued sleeping. he came back and found me still sleeping. hahaS> and it was 6.45. i knew i would be early. so i slowly slowly. hahaS. den i tell my dad to drive slow slow. den saw Jade. she was petrifying. Muahhahaha-- hahaS. so kelian. T.T den after that was crapping with her. every morning. i seem to be crapping with her. we talked abt troy and van helsing. i must watch van helsing. and learn to become a nice vampire yah? hahaS.

den laterS was. reading. wah. so sian. must do the article. den i keep talking to myself. den chinese. tcher tlaking abt the zuo wen thingy and i didnt even catch a bit. haiz. if this goes on. bleh. and YuFei keep saying that he will beat me. haiz. i will try but if i fail will be so malu lor. haiz. still must try to beat him. den laterS was math. was still crapping. den GuoPing suddenly say we never talk to him. den we started writing notes. muahahha-- now i know alot. and i cant tell. Muahahhaha-- TOP secret. =)

den laterS. was recess. they celebrated Ashnita's birthday. hope she liked the present we got for her. hahaS. den we were like Yam-seng-ing. hahaS. so loud. and i ate alot of crap. tahnekw Jade for the Hello Panda. =) hahaS. she gave me coz i give her LayS b4. so nice hor. and she so nice to fill my shoutbox. hahaS. =) so nice. hahaS. den jing mao shi tai was there. hahaS. den we brought the tub to the monkeybars. den he stood below. and we were throwing the food into his mouth. wahhahaha-- so fun. and he is so nice. hahaS. oh yah. and b4 that we saw this relly BIG moth. w00t and we screamed relly loudly. hahaS. so funny lor. =)

den laterS was 4 continuous periods of Betty Ong. she went thru some crap. which we didnt listen and was passing notes. den got presentation. hahaS. paxson and qizhi one very funny. and Haiming's one also not bad. JingYen's one was cool. hahaS. =) den laterS was lunch. den we went down. oops. just read Jade's blog. found out that we saw the moth during lunch. AWW. do i really haf memory failure. hahaS. den went down and hang with Jade. and she taught me how to sit on the pull-up bar. =) hahaS. dats so friggin cool. thankew Jade. hahaS. dunno why recently she so nice yah? heeheeS.

den was literature. still wasnt listening. hahaS. den ACC. went to the Auditorium. i kip singing "Don't tell me" i think it is stuck in my head. and Jade also get stuck. hahaS. coz i kip singing. =) hahaS. den in the auditorium dere. very warm. hahaS. den got "xiang sheng" thingy. hahaS. very funny. den i kip haolian-ing that i know cai (vegetable) in hokka is sai. Muahhahah-- den cy kip talking to fisherman. and me and Jade were crapping. and i was still singing Don't tell me.

den after that. brought home all my books. hahaS. den i ask foyang to longbang me to the clementi. his father rawks. he fetched me and lusandra to clementi. hahaS-- the lorry is so cool all right. hahaS. den laterS went home. this weekend. i am going to study like crap. =) i will. i cant just let YuFei take over my 5th place so easily. i won't. i will not. =) take care everybody. byebye--

[[yanling//]]
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